It'll probably be a while until u guys find this cuz everyone knows i don't update... I was reading someone's xanga today and she said that maybe if we just jotted down everything thats good in our lives now we'd appreciate it more so i'm gonna do that at the end of this.  But first the bad: to those that I'm really close to and have done a paltry job at keeping in touch with, I sincerely apologize for being such a shitty friend. 2.  I hate knowing what I want and knowing wat feels right but am too chicken shit to go seize it.  3. I hate not knowing what I want now. 4. I hate the overflow of everything to the point where i feel like i'm drowing sometimes *blub blub* 5. Feeling lost + confused + blah

The Good: [ma's healthy][shirl's doing well in school][random messages from ms. wou][smell of hippo][warm vanilla sugar][apple scented objects-but not real apples][new found take charge attitude][hgtv-home to go, devine design, curb appeal, etc.][watching nip/tick with the girls][knowing that i can help + advise ppl][having no class when D happened to be visiting][d'arby's + town just like old times][the perfect fit][dolphins][wake up wake bfore i kick ur butt!][lavender]

*Oki i feel a lil better now, still kinda lost but eh...