ehh.....so much unnecessary drama lately!   i just recently came to the realization that things do change sooner or later, and people do change as well, whether its for better or for worse. it's sad, but i'm learnin to deal with it. recently, its like...so much to handle and balance out. school, club stuff, relationship, family, and even friendship!!   everrrrything, all at once! i need a break. i need a long walk along the beach, i need to watch the sunset, to drink starbucks, to have one of those 5 hour talks, to snuggle up on the couch and watch tv! and just kickin back...! omg i feel like i havent actually sat down and watched tv in such a long time! the only time i watch tv is the 15 mins in the mornin before i go to school when my dad watches good day LA! =/ lol...it's sad, i need to relax.  i'm doin things that i shouldnt be doin, that i told myself i wont do! i'm disappointed in mysef =/ and lately it just seems like..so many mood changes! and so many arguments! and tension...and worries, and doubts, and disagreements, and thinkin and stress, and tears and desperate cries for help  pooo...its weird because its gettin hard to keep a smile.  hMm....hopefully things get better..

hey faggot kat! n even faggier elena

im elena n i have a hairy chest