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Name: Lydia
Birthday: 2/11/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: God God God, dance dance dance, music music music, school school, God God God, Colossians 3:12-17.. doggies.. bunnies... chicken-ducks.. =P
Expertise: Sleeping,listening, dancing, being a nerd who enjoys skool and work, sleeping, eating, laffing, and laffing.. and laffing...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
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AIM:  Kamaliilukia
Member Since:
2/28/2003
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| Have you ever thought that the person who you have become isn't the person who you want to be? Or the person who you want to be/have become isn't someone you know at all? Maybe even the person you have become in the eyes of others isn't the same person that you know and see? But HE knew what He was doing and He still knows you. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." (Psalm 139:13) Yet, one of the hardest things in life is to accept the future that has been so carefully planned out for you; you, that person that you have become. It may not look so perfect and it will probably be hard to understand from the eyes' of its beholder and probably those around, but how do we accept to experience the good if we don't trust and know that His plans aren't to harm us? Persecution is inevitable in this world, whether it may be the verbal kind or physical...but the harm is only to the physical body in the physical realm. And that includes the flesh; There is no pleasing the flesh through the fulfillment through the temptation without a cost. "But I said, "I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing. Yet what is due me is in the LORD's hand, and my reward is with my God." (Isaiah 49:4) And yes, sometimes the hard part will be accepting the truth, but the great part is knowing: Knowing that He is Good and He is Love and His judgments are far beyond any righteousness that we can fathom. For, "Before I was born, the Lord called me; and from my birth he has made mention of my name." THAT'S love...a love worth the price.
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| clips of the weekendmy biggest "fear" of the surgery was going under.. i don't kno why..it just was...
Dr. Fu: "Hi! We meet again!"
Me: "Hello..."
Dr. Fu: "Ok, so when you wake up, this will be all over, ok Lydia?"
Me: "Ok-----"
3 hours later
Me: "All i remember was that I was in the middle of saying 'Okay'"
Suzy: "Yea, but you're done now!"
Me: "So..can I sleep more?"
and today I pick up the phone:
Scott: "Hey, thanks for calling last nite"
Me: "Uhm..one word 'HOSPITAL'"
Scott: "ohhh yeeeaaaaa...oops.heh.. sorry... are you feeling better? is it all over???"
Me: "Good recovery...now what favor can I help you with this time? Do u need a ride home?"
Scott: "I have a bigger favor... can you find me a flight back? I didn't get my ticket..."
Me: "Don't you have work tomo---?"
Scott: "Yeeeeaaa....so can u pleeeeease help me?"
and there ends my odd conversations for this weekend.. I do hope scotty finds a flight back tho.. everything was booked... as much as I am Amazon Woman, I can't do everything... 
I do like to be there for my friends tho. Nothing makes me happier than to wait on them...esp in their times of need =)
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| spring breakfirst day of spring break and i feel like i totally wasted it by waking up late...only because i woke up at 5 to take shirley to the airport...then went to costco..which was open at 5:30am...i was impressed..the gas station was, that is...and then came home and slept til 12. Then my parents totally spazzed and i had to go to the bank to do stuff that i wasn't even sure of the stipulations... i think my dad needs to update his will...it's very confusing for a normal person to read it...i guess that's why there are lawyers in this world? speaking of which, i busted out my old letter from my law prof. and i couldn't help but to think how right he was about my future.. like he personalized letters for each of us at the end of the quarter to give us some words of advice on life... he was right for the most part...except that he wasn't a christian, so to me, everything has it's purpose and i don't have to look to finding my "purpose" in life.
i was reminded of a good verse today as i had my "touching" moments again... i think it's cuz i'm having surgery on friday so i'm like "blaaaah" about everything.. i almost cried when my PT told me next week would be my last session...i really like her! Julie's a great PT, not to mention, a great friend.
Anyway, "Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called sons of God." from the Sermon on the Mount...just a good reminder to me when i find myself getting defensive all the time...sometimes it's just better to step back and humble myself cuz i kno that arguing won't get me anywhere..that and it just doesn't sound pleasant =)
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| good fridaylike every other system.. xanga is upgrading to something fancier...i wasn't even used to the last version of it! eeeerrrrr!!! i'm trying to just find my own page and it's all funny kine and stuff here and there...boooo!!!
anyway, so tonight was easter vigil service.. and i was SOOOO ready to faint.. like talking about all that Jesus went through on the night he was betrayed...plus given my current health condition...ooooh...not the smartest thing to do... i really need to stay hydrated...anyone who sees me, always remind me to hydrate myself... let me explain why:
Today, I was at the Hula shop and i was trying on different head pieces when all of a sudden, "Uh ...oh....uhm Judy... i need to throw up..." and Judy oh-so-calmly replies "WHAT??! HERE?? WHY???? GO OUTSIDE!!!" oh that was so nice of my roomie...heh.. but yea.. i got so nauseated because i didn't realize that i hadn't had anything to drink the whole day.. it was so humid that i forgot i was hot and dehydrated...so i sat down and the taiwanese business owner gave me like 3 bottles of watter...i can only drink one..thank you... =P so yes..anytime to you see me, remind me to hydrate myself...even if i give you crap about it...tell me i'm gonna die...works every time
got to see kevin todaaaay!! i forgot that he was still involved with youth..so i totally missed him on sunday...he gained a little weight... heehee =)
pray for my PT to come to church on Sunday!! I've managed to mention church/church events/my pastor everytime i've had a session so far....so i asked her to come on sunday... she agreed...if only she could see my man???  i don't kno what that means.. but yea.. pray that she'll come.. cuz she's super just out there in the world.. and she's not closed minded about church.. but yea... pray =)
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| grrrr!!!!as soon as i'm done with school this week, i'm gonna drive up to the top of the highest place that i can and scream! RAWR!!!!
today i had to draw my blood and as soon as i saw the needle i got dizzy...and the tech saw my face..,"are you okay??" my typical response.."I don't do well with needles.. needles in others ok..needles in me...not so much... can u use the small one?" and the tech was like, "uhh...are u serious?" and i guess i got even fainter cuz the other tech next to her was like "LOOK AT HER!" and i was like "yea...really...i kno u need like 7 viles, but i'm not okay with the size of that needle..." and THEN i had a bleeding time test....>_< i want spring break to come and go by fast...as weird as that sounds... no more of this fasting crap, medications, tests....i can't eat past 9pm? i'm gonna be one skinny girl at the end of this semester...*sigh* okok... bottom line: pray that the tests come back negative cuz i DON'T want surgery...not that i wouldn't want it to correct it.. but i dunno.. skool's stressful enough...take out my study time for surgeries and recovery days? i would be even MORE stressed.... i'm trying to let go.. really i'm am.. and let God take care of it all.. cuz without my health i have nothing..not even school..
ooh ooh! so i realized, i haven't told anyone this story because i didn't think that anyone would be that stoked for me.. but since i was stoked for myself, i'm gonna share it anyway. even though it probably won't mean much to anyone.. but that's ok, cuz God still rocks. So yea health has been going downhill and I had a friend tell me i need to take a break from my ministries to seek treatment cuz if i don't have my health, i don't have anything. At the end of that 2 hour conversation, i was STILL hesitant...so I did what I do when I want to avoid things... i look at my sports updates.. and there is was... in big bold letters in my face "HEAT SHUT DOWN WADE FOR REST OF THE SEASON"...i kid you not.. that article was not there 2 hours before and suddenly...well... i had to see what that was all about.. and it turned out that D-Wade was just asking for time to rest up his body so that he can fully recover.. it wasn't anything drastic, but he knew the importance of his health etc etc...read it on your own time
http://msn.foxsports.com/nba/story/7895204?MSNHPHMA#
but yea....that was the clincher in my resignations to my ministries and i think it's totally cool that God used my favorite NBA player this year to speak truth to my life =) You can call it a coincidence, i say, God's awesome!
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