... so, please don't read this, it's quite anti-Mother's Day like. I also expect that if you read this you won't judge me in a non-constructive way - I will delete your comments or ignore you for a bit, which ever comes first... most likely the latter one.

I HATE MY MOTHER!

This is now the new life plan. Get a job, move out ASAP within a few years (give it 5) because I can't stand living with my mother. Afterwards, only have to see my mother for the necesssary holidays, such as Christmas, and ... whatever is deemed necessary.

I see why my brothers lock their doors, it's because my mother is a nutjob and does random checks on us. She is so picky about everything and doesn't even see her own flaws. By the way, I WILL NOT GET MARRIED because I will only end up like her, married because a job is not suitable for her lifestyle (which is by the way, non-existant). Does that mean I will not date? Duh, marriage should be only the reason one would date at my age (that's just my opinion).

The moment I move out, this deems my mother no longer in control of my life. She is so scared she will lose control over me so she yells at me whenever she can and judges me wherever she can. Do I walk funny? Because I don't think I walk that funny and if I do, it's because dance has made me like that (She says I walk with my feet planted in a V-shape - my feet make 90 degrees (not really) to each when ever I step). She wants to bring me to a doctor to get my walk "corrected". Honestly, she should get her hearing corrected. The other day, my mother completely embarassed me on the phone with a potential employer. She did hear me for 3 times say "Mother, this is my call" and I had to apologize for my mother's deafness in the way of my future.

Afterwards I can finally get baptized because if this pisses her off, then what's she going to do, ground me? I'm so sick of her not liking anything I do. MY MOTHER IS AN IDIOT. By the way, who worships Buddha and is Catholic at the same time? That makes no sense. If you're a Buddhist, you believe there are no gods or deities before you and if you're Catholic, you're suppose to believe there is one true God and that you will have NO OTHER IDOLS before your one true God.

I HATE YOU MOM!

we all fall... this is a given
but we are to pick ourselves up and raise it up.


"sometimes it takes a different kind of dream to make a smile"

"sometimes it seems impossible and that's why we pray"

This summer's movie list starts now...

Pineapple Express
Jack and Jill vs. the World
Chapter 27
Iron Man
Indiana Jones
Wall-E
Horton Hears a Who
The Bank Job
Flawless
Smart People

For your amusement when you take a break from studying!

just something for you to listen to when you are taking a break! If it sounds familiar, it's because I took it from the Grey Anatomy soundtrack (what can I say, they have a good music supervisor!).

Figured out that my webcam file became too big to upload so I had to split it into 3 pieces and I'm trying to figure out if that works. We'll find out soon.

For vodka, silly!

I didn't drink, but I learned how to make cosmopolitans, moscow mules and seabreezes, flirtinis and much more.  If I knew mixing was so fun, I would have got my license to pay my way through school.

Stay tuned for part II.

My maternal grandmother passed away today and these were my main thoughts.

*** edit: video was changed.