WARNING: extreme reader-unfreindly material below... read at own risk of confusion

ever since the night i watched Nadal defeat Federer in Wimbledon i havent been able to sleep properly or think properly. my brain feels like its a heavy lump of plaster and my sense of time has somehow been altered. i just found out that i had been surfing the net for the past 6 hours... stuff that has to be done remain un-done. things that have to be said remain unsaid. but things that i needn't purchase somehow keep on coming in. i am buying my way out of a lot of things right now... and right at this moment, if you tell me that a healthy bioclock costs as much as an IWC portugese auto i'd opt for the former... warped perspective i'd say, if i were in my correct shopaholic-mindset.


yesterday i was in a comatose state from 11am till 6pm... so right now i am 12 hours away from my last nap. i'm supposed to go somewhere in 5 hours time, and i am supposed to be playing basketball if it doesnt rain tonight... how should i arrange my sleeping plan so as to avoid collapsing dead from exhaustion? oh and with bad sleep comes worse appetite and nausea, a very irritating sensation. with such i become evermore irritable and my temper is lost easily. what am i supposed to do? when i say need some time off i think i really need it. seriously.

the adrenaline boost of getting the ayu concert tickets yesterday probably exacerbated my sleeping problem. how that i have settled down i needa think of which pairs of shoes i'd have to sell in order to pay my credit card bills for next month.

to sum up, quite a few things have come across my mind these days and i dunno why i remember my dreams pretty well these days:

1. pcll... i somehow prophesized that i would be accepted but i would not graduate with an honour... what twisted logic is that...
2. iwc port chronograph auto --> ETA movements costs much less than in-house ones...and look just as good
   
3. or should i look for the cheaper portofino chronograph instead
4. leica CL rangefinder camera and the company's links with minolta
5. figuring why i reasoned myself to getting the sony dslr because of its minolta roots
6. trying to find out what was it in common that makes me like leica and sony in particular
7. debating on whether to get the 1680 carl zeiss lens or the 16105 sony lens (instead of the 18250 travel lens thats constantly out of stock)
8. deciding over the 50mm macro
9. deciding that i preferred an asus EeePC 901 which retails for $4298
   
10. deciding that i might be more interested in the camera itself than photography.
11. concluding that i might be just a techno-gadget kinda person... and a pathetic shopaholic to top things off
12. going to MK and targetting several items including a large duffel bag and a kobe bryant jersey
    
13. deciding that i'd fuck all the plans and just impulsively get the most expensive tickets to a concert that i missed 2 times before...
14. deciding that i get 2 tickets in case i couldn't afford 4, and in case i looked like a loser going alone.
15. deciding i am a loser no matter how many tickets i manage to grab
16. remembering that i need to go get some jordans at the end of the month... too late
17. batman on imax is very tempting
    

recapping movies i watched:

• deception @ elements
• xxx @ festival walk
• wanted @ ifc

and yes i actually forgot what i watched in festival walk that night. WTF i sense there's something rotting underneath that scalp of mine...

oh and i actually argued without reason with my dad tonight about the wigs and gowns that judges and barristers wear... i need to relax. he thinks they should be abandoned cuz of its british colonial roots, i say they should remain a vestige. WTF I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I CARE ABOUT THIS AT ALL

hell yeah i am in a very troubled state of mind, hence i think i should go shopping for some teeshirts

*edit*
it was HANCOCK that i watched in festival walk... as i recall with difficulty...

You Are a Crocodile

You are incredibly wise and knowledgeable. In fact, your wisdom is so deep that it sometimes consumes you. People are intrigued by you, but you find few people intriguing. You are not a very social creature. You are cunning. You enjoy deceiving people a little. You are able to find balance in your life, and you can survive anything.