DON'T YOU JUST HATE HYPOCRITES?

I do.
 

EMPTINESS

I wish i knew what to say, or that i had the words for all that i feel.
I'm far from numb, because all this is very real,
as much as i like to try and live in denial.
Every thought and talk of it, makes tears well up in my eyes.

I wish i knew how to prepare for this, because not in my nineteen years,
have i ever been taught, or have i ever thought about how to go about this.
This is new. And new is scary. New is terrifying.

I wish i knew how i came to feel this way. 
I wish i could find the silver lining in this, but i can't.
Not now, i can't.

I'm a bit glass empty right now.
It's not just half empty, it's empy.
 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!

Hope you enjoy your meal with your friends tonight!
Mega hugs with lots of lots of love from me.

Had a wonderful holiday since half term break started.
Paris, Leeds and of course Boston, leave me with lots of unforgettable moments.

We spent three days in Paris, shopping, eating and sightseeing.

 
 
 
  
 
 
 

 

Nothing thrills me more than visiting the Eiffel Tower.

 
 

Throughout the trip, i have been pampered, and indulged in every minute i've spent.
I couldn't have asked for more.
I couldn't even ask for a better traveling partner to travel to Paris with me.
Who else would let me sleep on his shoulder in the train because i was so exhausted?

Went to Leeds and we were lucky enough to have Rob
to pick us up at the train station and drive us home.

Also went to meet up with my fay ju ju in her college in Boston and stayed a few nights there.
Had a fantastic time with her. Thank you ju for letting me to stay at your place!
See you in summer, love you!

 
 

Brighton Fun!

昨夜再一次看了<戀空>.
真的好感人的一部電影, 很傳統的愛情故事.
何曾在港產片裡看過這樣浪漫, 悲傷的情節?

連續兩週末去了Brighton, 用了差不多450 quid.
上週末跟bumbum 去瘋狂購物.
這週末跟小pen pen 瘋狂地玩機動遊戲.
還在Brighton 無意中遇到Sam, 太有緣吧!

 
 
 
 
 

A sigh of relief

 
Only 22 days to go till i'm back in your arms again.



I'm sick of being so depressed and i don't know when will i go through this again!
I can be so depressed at one moment and then i can be totally alright after that hahaa!

Words cannot describe how relief i am today after the psychology exam!
These few days have been absolute madness for me.
I was literally snowed under an avalanche of revisions.
But i finally know what relief really feels like.
Psychology has been giving me way too much stress.

People told me Year 13 sucks.
I almost, for one moment, deluded myself that maybe it's not so bad.
But i think they've got it right.
And it's affirmative, and official that Year 13 really sucks.
There's so much else i want to do, in other aspects of life,
but yet, there's so much more i need to achieve before i can pursue other activities,
which at this point, appears to be a lot more appealing than my current goal.
I hope i'm still on track.

I just need some more motivation, but where to find?