im over it.

some things have to give. some things require time and effort. some things you have to let go of.

acknowledge your desires, admit them to yourself, but dont smolder them. find healthy channels for them and pray. Let God take them and help them be what they were meant to be.

brilliant

you learned to think about what you say before you say them. now you have to remember that.

when will be the day that the women i know feel worthy of who they are. Feel beautiful. Feel loved. Know they ARE loved. will know they ARE worthy. know they ARE beautiful.

because the women i know. are all of this and more.

Identity. it's so huge. for men and women. yet we tend to place our identity in things that fail us. in people who let us down. its okay to be proud of yourself. and its okay when you mess up.

desires take determination

I would like to learn Russian to the point of fluency,

I would like to learn the guitar well enough to play,

I would like to travel by car around America from Michigan to California to North Carolina, and back.

i love to sing,

i love to color,

i love to play guitar by myself and sing loud even when i only know the E chord and the G chord.

i love being outdoors.

i love music of all kinds -- everything is spiritual

i love genuine, honest answers.

i love playing with kids. especially two girls named Abby and Alli

i get angry at men who dont know how to treat women

i get angry at people who use kids

i get angry at apathy

i get angry when a person doesn't act their age -- usually adults, but it also breaks my heart when kids are expected to grow up too fast.

i get angry at people who say their Christians, but dont' even try to follow Christ as the disciples

i get angry at people who turn to things like: alcohol, cigarettes, food, sex, clothes, etc. because they don't see the true potential they have and don't know any other way.

i get angry at laziness.

i wish all countries understood the European mullet and liked it as much as YKPAINE

i wish i knew more russian so i could buy things.

i wish i had a zoom lens or a macro lens, or fish eye. any would be sweet :)

i wish i had cute shoes here. or could find some cheap ones to buy.

i wish fall wouldn't end.

thoughts for the day.

.............i've realized lately.....

that people can tell me all they want....

....but i won't believe it till i see it.

patience is a virtue i don't have.

feeling confused/lost/broken/unsure?

 Step 1: go in your backyard/room/whatever. grab a pillow or dont and SCREAM. as loud/long/hard as you can. Then cry, ask questions out loud, cry some more and scream again.

Step 2: be still. get on knees if not already. Take a slow deep breathe in and out. and simply sit.

Step 3: go on a walk outside, either by yourself or with a friend (not sig. other).

"be still and know that I am God"

find peace.