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..hay..haven't blogged for a while again..maybe because..MY FRiGGiN COMP HAS A FRiGGiN VIRUS!!! ..grr..haha..o weL..

..ok..i'm feeling sort of political today..hmmMm..

..ooook..i know the elections are done and over..but no results yet diB..?? or maybe i'm just held back or something..anyway..this was actually the furst election that i watched the news and cwap..i CARED!! hahaha..kasi before..i was only busy in memorizing the chants and cheers of the candidates..[ yesh..i did memorize the 13-0 chant..wo0ho0!! and i wanted lim to win the year erap ran.. ] anyway..i was watching the news..and i kept looking at the quick count things..and fpj was leading by like 10 thou votes..then comes gma..then lacson..then i think bro. eddie..then roco..i WANTED ROCO..but o well..

..my dad was telling me..roco's crazy..and i agree..i mean..he know's he's gonna lose..but still he keeps pushing himself..some can call that pride..others strength..i call it stupidity..i mean..he HAD a chance..but then it dropped once he left..and..he has no moneY!!! HELLO!!! grr..pero wawa na din naman cya..he's the one i actually WANT to win..but looking at his chances..wala na eh....:P maybe if students got to vote..roco would win..no doubt..but we can't eh..so..TOO BAD!! hay nakko..

..gma..i don't really like her much..last year she kept babbling about how she iSN'T running this year..and what did she do..?? RUN..hahaha..it's so stupiid..yeah yeah i know what you're thinking.. ' i thought iglesia voted for gma..why are you against her..?? ' it's not that just coz we vote as one..doesn't mean we have not freedom of choice na..we base everything sa bible..and of course by a lot of other circumstances..but we're certainly NOT unfair..or deprived of freedom of choice..ü. i'm also pissed at the fact that people are spreading truth-less [ sounds like toothless!! hahaha..:P ] rumomors about the candidates paying i.n.c 1 million..or 2 billion just for us to vote for them..i don't think people who memorize the bible and who fear God will have the pride to even think about accepting that money..and not to brag..but we don't need the money anyway..so the fact that there are rumors spreading via mouth [ and text!! ] is so last century..hay..ok ok..i asked my dad why we voted for gma..he said it's a sure win..given all the candidates..gma's the safest..i mean..fpj..?? i don't THiNK so!! lacson..?? he killed too much people..which is a sin..which is BAD. bro. eddie..?? i don't really know why..and even if we did vote for roco..there's a small chance our votes'll count..so gma nalang..another thing is..not that we're FOR what erap did..but he's been helping us for so long na..so it's like..we liked the way gma practicaly house arrested him nalang..ü. so..there..

..oook..yoko na maging shadong political..!! to be continued nalang toh..ü. 

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..oi!! let's fill this blog with..with..surveys..hahaha..:P panggago lang toh ah..:P Ü * i love you!! labo. *

i am: a freak..
i want: you...* seductivrly licks lips * HAHA..[oh..i also want orange and purple ace 83's..and an iverson bobble head..Ü]
i have: no crush..yay..Ü.
i wish: marvin cuts his hair.haha..
i hate: L^^i^.HAHAHA..derecho chong..
i miss: school..
i fear: the dark..and creepy crawly cwap..
i hear: nick cannon talking in 'mtv spring break'..
i wonder: what highschool is like..
i regret: my MiSTAKE..sss..
i love: to dance..naks..hahaha..hindi..CHOCOLATE. 
i always: brush my teeth before i go to bed..and then i pray..Ü
i dance: for douglas..NOT for marVA..hahaha..Ü
i sing: when i'm happy..like on march22..HAHA.
i cry: when someone dies..
i am not always: happy.
i need: help.
i should: stop fussing about things that DON'T MATTER..like him..Ü
you keep a diary?: noph
you like to cook?: yesh..but i like the eating part the best-est..Ü.
you have a secret you have not shared with
anyone?: yeah..hahaha..:P and i tend to keep it a secret..Ü
you believe in love?: yeah..and i believe it hurts too..
the weirdest person(s) you know?: hmmMm..
the loudest person(s)?: now..?? ARRiE..haha..:P powerdance eh..and MAYTE.!!!
the sexiest person(s)?: troy..haha..:P and that guy who hosted the ms.philippines..washboard abs!!
your closest friends?: kabarkadas!!!
have a (any) crush(es)?: now.?? nope..Ü!! be proud!!
who?: waLA nga eh..kuliit..Ü.
want to get married?: o'course..Ü with the guy i saw in church in frisco..ahh!!!
get motion sickness?: nope..
eye color?: dark chestnut..
birthplace?: st.joseph's medical center..burbank CA.

HAVE YOU..? (in the last 24 hours)
cried? yesh..my brother has dengue!!!! grr..
helped someone? yesh..my brother..grr..
bought something? yesh..ham and cheese croisant and tall lemon passion iced tea..
gotten sick? nope..
gone to the movies? nope..
gone out for dinner? nope..
written a real letter? nope..
talked to an ex?: what ex..?
written in a journal? is a blogsite considered a journal..??
had a serious talk? nope..
hugged someone? yea..
fought with your parents? .....yea..heehee..
fought with a friend?: nope..
fought with anyone?: yea..
played any games online?: nope..
feel lonely?: yesh..very much..
message: for who..?? haha..i love you!!

Last food you ate: pork barbeque with java riice..
Last drink you drank: water..
Last tv show you watched: mtv spring break..
Last item you bought for yourself: food item included..?? then it's the croissant and iced tea..
Last item you bought for someone else: i don't..remember..
Last phone call you made: 211..i checked my bill..heEheE..
Last person who called you: migs..but she only wanted to hear my ringer..hahaha..'TROY!'
Last time you cried: a while ago..
Last time you screamed: a while ago too..
Last wish you made: it's probably not gonna come true anyway..but..i wished some certain person please stop being sow torpe..
Last book you read: diary of a mad bride-to-be..
Last food you cooked: i..don't..wemember.. 
Last time you got drunk: ME..?? DRUNK..?? NO..haha..:P
Last time you stayed up late: when's late..??
Last time you received flowers: graduation..naks..haha..flowers from the edsa shang..haha..:P
Last you went out on a date: date..hmmMm..never..or do i have to emphasize that for you..??
Last time you broke somebody’s heart: april02.??
Last time you were heart broken: april02..?? HAHA.
Last time you were in love: i was never in love to start with..Ü
Last thing you do before you go to bed: think..Ü which is why i end up falling asleep about three hours after i liie down..HAHA.


Black or white: black..
Flip flops or high heels: flip flops..
Beach or pool: beach..
Two piece or one piece: two piece..
Dude or chong: ganito yan..DUDEpareCHONGtoL!!
Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE!!
Coke or sprite: don't drink carbonated cwap..:D makes you fat..Ü
Manicure or pedicure: manicure..
Study or cram: study..do i have a choice..??
Long relationships or short: long relationship..Ü. i only want one anyway..Ü
Pink or purple: pink!!
Summer or winter: summer..winter's short..and cold..spring nalang..
Board shorts or skimpy shorts: board shorts..i don't have an ^ss eh..hahaha..
Roxy or billabong? billabong..but roxy rocks just fiine..
bags or shoes: shoes..
fine dining or fancy dinner: fancy dinner..

NEXT!!!!

1. huling pinuntahan..

  ++ cardinal santos..dinala ang aking kapatid sa er..

2. huling pinakinggan..

  ++ i need you~leann rimes

3. huling ka-text..

  ++ si neil..

4. huling kausap sa phone..

  ++ si migs..haha..

5. huling kinain..

  ++ pork barbeque nga!!

6. huling ininom..

  ++ agua

7. huling pinanood..

  ++ mtv

8. huling binasa..

  ++ ung lyrics ng my band..i'm trying to memorize the friiggin song!! haha..

9. huling ka-chat..

  ++ si alexa..

8. huling kinaasaran..

  ++ mga KKK..kala-kong-kaibigan..

9. huling niyakap..

  ++ my kapatid na brother..HAHa.

10. huling iniyakan..

  ++ si ano..si..um..LOKO.

11. huling tinawanan..

  ++ ung teve..kaC pinakita video ng my band..haha..:P

12. huling nginitian..

  ++ ung guy sa hospital..* naks *..haha.eh cya nagsmile eh!! hahaha..:P

13. huling tinulungan..

  ++ sarili kow..

14. huling hinalikan..

  ++ tatay ko..

15. huling minahal..

  ++ la pang minahal eh..montik lang..pero la pa..hahaha..:P

NEXT NEXT!!

1.secret nickname: muchique..haha..i was..um..'cheeky'..when i was born..nyahaha..:P if you call me that now..i'll bite your head of..seriously..or if not..just spike a volleyball at you..
2.birthday: apriL 02, 1990
3.if i had an alias,it would be: pano ka tatama kung hindi ka tataya..?? |+-ted hannah~parokya ni edgar-+| 
4.if i could be someone else for a day, i'd be: one of the olsen twins..
5.i am a: volleyballista..
6.i want to be [more]: hmmMm..appreciative..?? responsible..?? ahh..THiNNER. 
7.people don't know i'm: not a catholic..or i wasn't born here..
8.my hollywood hottie: colin farell..johnny depp..usher..
9.my bedside companion: monty..
10.my three essentials: water..f&f..[ friends & family ]..music..
11.my coolest dream: i was iverson's gurlfriend..and i was watchin the sixers win the championship..woOhoO!! hahaha..:P
12.my starstruck celebrity crush: who's in that show again..??
13.what i'm doing this summer: dance..summer volleyball..Ü
14.the song playing in my head: balisong~rivermaya..
15.the best thing i always do to catch the
attention of a cute guy is to: ' hey..you are..? ' hahaha..or maybe ask them for their numbers..like whut i did sa soiree..wahaha..kaC naman..atenistas..TOO TORPE! hahaha..:P
16.i definitely get pissed when someone: backstabs..lies to..or hurts my friends..
17.i easily get spooked by: anything he has against cleanliness..hahaha..
18.i wanna be like my: self..?? haha..feeling..
19.my favorite place is: my room..it's so..mine..haha..LABo..ok..foine..the mall..and maybe powerdance..Ü
20.i love reading: my horoscope..dream books..and the strips of paper inside fortune cookies..haha..

NEXT NEXT NEXT!!!

1. shampoo first then soap or soap first?
   ++ shampoo furst..then rinse..then conditioner..then leave on..then soap..then wash of conditioner..then soap again..yehey!!! hahaha..:P

2. brand of cigarette you smoke?
   ++ smoking kills..gadamet. i DON'T SMOKE.

3. favorite breakfast cereal?
   ++ magix..oreo o's..alphabits..as long as there're tiny marshmallows in it..i can eat it..haha..Ü

4. what did you eat for dinner last night?
   ++ rarely eat dinner..and yesterday..i dint..haha..Ü

5. shaquille or yao ming?
   ++ SHAQ. doi.

6. your grandmothers maiden name?
   ++ uh..um..uhm..hmm..GRR..

7. oldest thing in your fridge?
   ++ huge marshmallows..hahaha..

8. chicken, beef or pork?
   - chicken..Ü. the least fattening..Ü

9. brand, color, drawing and text of favorite
   shirt/s?
   ++ brand: mango..
   ++ color: black..
   ++ drawing: it's plain..
   ++ text: got beer..?

10. favorite cartoon characters?
   ++ spongebob!! he's mine..lay off..

11. favorite non-alcoholic drink?
   ++ water..?? haha..lemon passion iced tea!!

12. ever used a fire hydrant? why?
   ++ yeah..it was so hot once in duarte..

13. best Christmas gift?
   ++ a kiss..* nakanaman!! hahaha.. * joke lang..beso beso lang with someone..:P

14. texting or calling your father?
++ calling..haha..:P it's way faster..

15. type and name of favorite pet?
   ++ golden ret..basta doggy..and..i'll think of the name once i get the dog..Ü anyone wanna give me one..?? hahaha..:P

16. stupidest thing done?
   ++ said i wasnted to be friends even if i really didn't want to..stupiid..

17. last subject flunked?
   ++ i didn't flunk anythin!! yehey..Ü!

18. choose one: "hells angel" or "heavens devil"?
   ++ heaven's devil..nyahaha..:P

19. last person to smile at you?
   ++ the guy at the hospital nga..Ü

20. Is he/she cute?-
   ++ um..YEAH.

..hahaha..anyway..i'm sleepy na..hahaha..my brother has dengue..grr..it's 2.56am..may04..grr..may na..which means..it's almost june..and i have no uniform yet!!! grr..niightniight..ladies and gentlemen..i would just like to quote a line from the famous rapper..eminem..it's very..inspiring..[?]..haha..:P

' BOY why can't you see you're the only one for me and it just tears my ^ss apart to know that you don't know my baand..Ü!!!! '

END.

..i'm freaked..i'm seriously freaked..

..i read another thing today..ugh..it didn't look very pretty..it was a testimonial..to my friend or his friend's gurl..from his REALLY REALLY CLOSE friend..hahaha..:P i'm now officiall an ex..that doesn't sound very niice..

..that's the one thing i've been trying to avoid..but noo!!! i'm labeled..an..' EX '..of someone!!! niice..no..NOT NiiCE. i don't wanna be an ex..for a few reasons..one..ex means..past..before..yesterday..former..OR in other words..not present..and i don't WANT to be the..'former'..or the..'past'..i would be fiine with..present..two..i don't want to be labeled!!!! i want one and only one..!! but ex means..i already had one!! WHiCH i didn't!! coz it was NEVER US..can you guys put that in your head..?! hahaha..why am i laughin..?? i should be devestated..o weL..hahaha..:P i don't know really what to feel..mayBe coz..uh..i'm not feeling anything..at all..it's liike..i got so tired of waiting..that when we finally talked..i didn't get as kilig-ed as i should be..weird..

..oh yeah..we chatted today..

..uh..wo0ho0..??

..at furst i was so..' HELP ME!!! i WANNA MACK HiM BUT..'..and then when i finally did..he was all..nr..maybe that's also why i wasn't that kilig..kaC he was nr..i tried talking normaly with him..but then parang..there was still something wrong..i didn't know what..but it didn't feel as 'fun' as before..

..seriously..?? i miss the old tiimes..when i used to mack him everytiime i was bored..and after 5 seconds..i can't stop typing..it was niice..it was..normal..now i don't even care if he doesn't give..i juts want us to be cool..parang..friends again..kahiit hanggang friends lang..i miss those tiimes when i could actually talk to him..and i didn't have to fuss about it with iya and ken at the same tiime..which is totally almost useless but nevertheless still usefull..coz i mean..they do come up with answers..but it's always..exactly the same..!!!!!!! hahaha..!! [ you two should get to know each other!! ] the only purpose of me fussing over him to them was so i could get different opinions!! one from a guy and one from a gurL..but did i get what i want..?? NO..hahaha..o weL..it was still fun chatting with both of them..wait..i mean three of them..hay..see what i mean..??

^^^^this blob was typed on april 30,2004^^^^

vvvvthis next blob..typed..today..vvvv

..omg..hahaha..:P walalang..what a way to start a blob..haha..Ü.

..things people text you..SCARY man..real FREAKY..hahaha..diB iya..?? hahaha!!! shhh..kwayet..Ü.

isn't it so not obvious i feel very pink today..?? hahaha..:P it's such a pretty color..noh..??

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..hay..the song is so pretty..Ü.

..haha..ganda ng adjective noh..pretty..hahaha..lang kwenta..

..hay..i didn't liike what i saw today..ano ba yan..furst..things i didn't have to hear..now..things i din't have to see..i'm cursed..ugh.

..i know it ain't supposed to bother me much..but it does..mayBe it's coz we sorta drifted apart..and i don't blame anyone about that but me..kaC it's my fault we ain't that close anymore..but even though..i still considered her as my amiga..my '*a**'..my kapatiran..but i don't think she considers me the same way anymore..

..if i was evil..which i am not..much..haha..i would blame all of this to the same gurL iya feels is epal..yeah..i could..but i won't..waiit..why should i nga naman..?? kaC it used to be only ME AND HER..now..we're 3..ME HER and SHE..ugh..but i guess they only both consider me the thurd wheel now..it's just the two of them..and me alone..

..but..i'm not blaming her am i..?? no i'm not..i'm just expressing how i feel..got that..??

..another thing that ticks me off..?? the fact that..-->> ok fiine..HER and SHE nalang..i'm aiight with that..so i looked for a new one riight..?? and it just so happens that the replacement asked me..WARN YOU..i didn't ask the replacement..can't she just lay off..?? siya naman ung gusto eh..hindi ako!! and i don't give!!! as if gusto ko din cya!! i'm having enough problems with one guy to have another with them..the fact that she had to hide it pa from me that she was asar with me just coz i was getting too cozy with the replacement..i hate that..i really really hate that..i don't think i'm the kind of person who'll go for my friend's guy..damn it..i let go already of the one guy i almost loved for her!!!! add that fact..with all the other cwap i heard her say about me..although a long long tiime ago..it still pisses me off..

..you know another thing that sucks..?? ..i have no one to make this kwento to..that's why i have this site..the only place where i can express my feelings..and no one will get asar coz i'm getting too close with my site..[huh..??] anyway..i love her..so much..and that hasn't changed..i know i've been there for her a few tiimes she needed someone..i can't lie about that..just as much as i can't lie about not being there for her..but i never..ever said anything i knew she didn't wanna hear..at least not that i remember..i'm just curious..why'd she do that to me..??

..it's true..the saying..i don't memorize it..but it's something like..you can have a lot of friends..but only few are true..i don't know if she's one of them..but i'm sow sure that i can count those ' true ' friends with the fingers on one of my hands..

..i miss them..i miss them both..and i don't blame them for getting irritated with me after they read this..but i just wanted them to know how i feel naman..

..i'm sorry..i'm not the only one who thinks this way..all the things i write here..will stay here..and not with me anymore..i don't want these things to burden me na..i'll leave it at that nalang..and only remember all the ashtig memories..bibigyan pakko ng wrinkles niyan kung ang iisipin ko lang ung mga giniwa sakin na masama..hahaha..and i won't be able to dance properly noh..?? ..* pilit na smile *..

..hmmMm..ano pa ba..oh yeah..can some people please STOP BEiNG SOW TORPE?! how shy can one person get ba..?? so shy that i'll end up waiting until finally i make the furst move..?? which i don't wanna do..kaC it'll look like i'm running after him..eeEeWw..bahala na nga cya..it's not gonna be my fault if i fall for someone else..

..oist!! today pala isn't as baad as i thought..i found out something that made me a little bit happeh..haha..the one person i despise..is..is..GONE!!! hahaha..waiit..i don't know if that's gonna be a good thing or a baad thing..depends i guess..but thanks nico..!! for tellin me and all..hahaha..and yesh..your neighbor is weirder than mine..nyahaha..

..iya!! here's your speciaL mention!! hahaha..Ü. we share the same thought about something..!! yihee..!! kilig!!..labo. hahaha..anyway..walalang..Ü. love you..Ü

..and to my mare's..i MiSSH YOU BOTH!! WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE YOU GUYS?? actullay i know where you guys are..BUT STiLL..!!! i NEED YOU BOTH PA NAMAN!!! UGH.

..life as a house is a really pretty movie..haha..pretty..hayden is hot there..all punkish and cwap..

' viva la rasa..wordlife..'

..another day has gone..and i'm still all alone..how could this be..?? when you're not here with me..?? --sam anf patricia..para sa inyo yan..Ü!!

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..hmmMm..haven't done a blob for a few days na noh..eh nothing to say eh..but now..i'm kinda..in the mood..let's see..

..i found out a few things i really didn't have to..but i needed to..and..the ' things '..weren't pretty..

..i'm sorry i'm like this..it's just me..the last time i tried to change myself..the last time i tried to show you guys someone i wasn't..i ended up regretting it..and i hate doing things i know i'll end up regretting..it just bites..so this is me..and maybe the simple things you can change..but not everything..

..it hurts to face the fact that there were days..when i thought i had everything..but now looking back..i had nothing..all the ' everything '..were lies..were things i was too stupiid to believe..yeah..it was too pretty to be real....

..i knew that something was going on..i didn't buy the ' i'm so happy for you and [name of this person] ' deal..gurLs are gurLs..and they aren't always happy for someone..if that someone's got what they want..it doesn't work that way..but since i was still living in a world of fantasy..i went with the flow..i thought they were all ok with it..but once i turn my back..they turn into witches..which didn't really matter to me..coz people backstab people all the time..i could understand why some of the people could thosw cwap to me..but not all..there were these people..who i never expected..maybe it's because..[i]..wouldn't..and couldn't..do it to you..and i didn't understand why you could to me..it just didn't add up..i was so..WTF??? how could YOU of all people..do this..??? and then..o weL..it's the friggin past..i hafta let it all go..

..it stings..the fact that people can't just be happy and stay happy for me..they just gotta do something to destroy it huh..i wouldn't do that..but i guess people don't think the same as i do..which bites..really really bites..it's not my fault..that i was with this guy..or i'm close to that guy..it's just..liike that..for some reason..i cannot not be a friend to all the guys you [people] liike naman diB..?? you got it your way anyway..turns out me and the guy they were making me sira to..?? we weren't compatible..AT ALL..haha..hay..still the fact remains..

..and who better to hear these from than to the guy himself..and [*name*] too..he told me all the cwap they've been telling him..i'm a flirt..i'm sobrang arte..i'm a b'tch..i'm a player..?? ok..sure i am..Ü. what next..?? i'm pregnant..?? hay..exage toh ah..hahaha..weird..and [*name*] naman said the things they were saying behind my back..wow..people can be so freaky sometimes..malamang i asked for names diB..?? the other people..i really didn't pay attention to..kaC it's in their nature to gossip this way..but a few names hurt me..and one name struck me..' how..why..?? i don't wanna believe.. '..ugh. this is sow..ugh.

|+-ok..next topic..-+|

..i also found out more reasons to hate..but i'm keeping it to myslef muna..if you wanna know just ask me nalang..Ü.

|+-ok..the REAL next topic..-+|

..i'm scared..of dying..of highschool..of moving..of the upcoming elections..of my future..of what will happen 10 years from now..of accepting my feelings..

..i still like him..no doubt..but he hasn't made a move..since 23 days ago..yeah yeah..his friends and my friends are all mushy mushy..which kinda overwhelmed me..but still..nothing..and i hate to admit it..but i'm sorta getting tired of waiting..i don't wanna make the furst move naman..even if it is the twenty-furst century na..i still wanna keep it old style..but i don't think he gets that..if he doesn't make a move though..i'm scared that my feelings miight just suddenly drift away and disappear..but what i'm really freaked about is..if the feelings transfer to someone else riight after..yeah i know it's baad..but i can't help it iF [ that's an IF ]..it happens..

..and him not making a move but me still liking him isn't the worse part..i think..i'm starting to..you-know-what..someone else..the worser-er part is..they're friends..yeah..i know..i AM A COMPLETE iDiOT. but i can't help it if he's sow..sow..sow..sow..torpe!!!!! it's hard..i think i should just say yesh to my mom..living in the stated won't be half bad anyhow..except for the fact that i'll be twenty minutes away from the one person i'm trying to avoid..and we'll be going to the same mall..glendale galleria!!! ugh. of all the places..it won't be half bad..Ü. noh..??

|+-lalalalala-+|

" it's not about loving the perfect person...it's about loving an imperfect person perfectly "

- quoted from sam castro's blog  

|+-love is only a feeling~the darkness-+|