Currently Reading The Virgin Suicides By Jeffrey Eugenides see related

damn, i am such a failure in life. haha. no seriously though. haaaaaa.


last night i got into an argument with my so-called "best friend".
i don't think i'm her best friend anymore though,
at least, i don't want to be.
i told her straight out.... "you're a bitch".
just like that. & i just spilled out everything i have needed & wanted to say to her since months before summer.
i didn't ever deserve any of that crap she did; fuck that.
i wonder what's gonna happen at school now. it would always be me, her & Alex walking around campus; talking about nothing.
i hope she stops walking with me.
pretty harsh, but i honestly don't care anymore.


today, i didn't go to school because i'm sick.
i don't wanna miss so much school because i want to keep in track with my school work in class & stuff.
oh yeah, today i recieved my grades. it sucks.
my mom had to wake me up at 8 in the morning while i'm fucking sick just to tell me, "you're so stupid & embarassing, you have 2 D's & you have so many lates. last semester you had 20 lates; this semester you had 18 lates. you have 38 lates altogether, so you're gonna go to 2 saturday schools. how embarassing. i think you're going to start 10th grade all over again. what's wrong with you!!!!?"
fucken shit. well, at least i tried right?
ha.


i feel like such a loser at home. i can never do anything right.
the only thing i CAN do is clean. clean clean clean. that's what my mom wanted me to do anyways. is to clean clean clean. so i clean. & i'm still not wanted here. HA. crap.

Good news today! i finished The Virgin Suicides. good book. i think i'm gonna rent the movie today...... -_-.

p.s. i'm for surely going to summer school. i hope i still get to go to Nebraska to see Tina though. i miss her & kelly.

i miss omar a whole lot.

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