hell has to be better than this

alright, so another reason in my head comes to a blog. today was a long day at work so i wanted to spend some time with TC after i got off. well he put his tv in his window because he is on the first floor of the dorm so that we could play some Halo 2 because that is as far as i have gotten in the game and all. well, obviously we were sitting too close to the dorm.. or rather I was sitting too close to the dorm so one RA that happens to live on the first floor came and told us that another RA talked to him about us and so he had to come and talk to us. All i have to say is that if people have a problem then they need to get the balls to say it. DON'T send someone else to do your dirty work. OH. and just to point something out. TC made sure that i could not see inside of his room. He turned off the lights and everything so that i couldn't see in. BUT yet the room right beside his had its lights on and the blinds up. so in other words, i could see if someone walked into that room, if someone went into the bathroom, etc. I don't know what is worse, having to deal with stupid people in general or dealing with people who have a double standard for everything. Oh, and the lobby hours i also have a problem with. They tell us that they don't want us to be making out, having sex, doing drugs, smoking, drinking, or anything of that nature while we are in school but then they tell us for right now that we have 2 hours between the lobby hours and our curfew and they don't expect us to be getting into any of that stuff. what else are young adults supposed to do when they can't be in a supervised area like the lobby. I understand that people don't want to be hearing screaming or anything from the lobby but honestly what is the big deal if the people are being quiet. and even though they have the hours the RAs could be a little nicer about telling people things. I don't want to feel like i'm a little kid everytime i am around people who are younger than me or even a couple years older just because they are a RA. I don't even know what to think about those people anymore. I say those people because most of them think that they are better than everyone else. I don't know. i have just had a bad experience with the RAs last year and so i just link every RA into the exact same category of the people who said that i was laying on the couch with my BF and that i had my hands in my BF's back pockets even though i have never done that. I know i have a problem with authority but honestly i feel like i never want to be on campus because i don't want to get in trouble for being me. IF ANYONE HAS ANY FEED BACK PLEASE LET ME KNOW.

Currently Watching Mansfield Park (1999) By Hannah Taylor-Gordon, Talya Gordon, Lindsay Duncan, Bruce Byron, James Purefoy see related

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Currently Listening Santi By The Academy Is... We've Got A Big Mess On Our Hands see related

Life sucks the Big One!!

So the only thing that is going right so far this school year is that im still with TC, turned in all of my homework, hanging out with friends, starting a job, and my family is coming down this weekend. THE BAD THINGS so far are that my family is coming down this weekend and i have been so upset that i have been taking it out on TC like usual. I love my family and i want to see them but a development came up yesterday and blew everything out of the water. I thought that i told my mom that TC's family was coming down about a week or so ago because i know that my mom likes prior notice for things in general, well obviously i didn't because my mom thought that this was just a plot to get the two families to meet. I mean, that would be great for my family to see who i stayed with all summer and everything but im not going to force them to meet. I would love for it because TC and i only have two more months and then we would have been together for a year. That is a big thing for me because that will have been my longest relationship ever and the only one were we have seriously talked about getting married(not anytime extremely soon though). I mean it just makes since for them to finally meet but i don't care either way anymore. If my mom is going to turn this whole weekend into this thing that i lied to her and everything then i don't want it to happen because obviously they aren't ready for it. I honestly don't know when they will be ready for it but yeah. Just pray for me that i will be able to handle the stress and everything of this weekend while doing my homework, and pray for TC that he will be able to not take my rantings personal and that we can get through this weekend like we got through so many other things this summer and in our relationship.

Currently Listening Start Something By Lostprophets last train home see related

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