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| thanks to my beloved susque friend, laura, i remembered i can one of these. i completely forgot about it. its funny how nothing at all has changed. well, sort of. i'm still not sure about myself and i'm still stuck in my world with paintbrushes and daydreams. i havnt figured myself out anymore than i had before, so i'm still stuck exactly where i am. i'm learning not to mind it so much. yes. delicious ambiguity. ambiguity leaves room for adventures and failure...and i love adventures and goodness knows i fail alot. so last marchish when i last wrote in here i was still going through alot. that situation got worse and worse. it came to a climax during the summer, died down, then it would come up again and kill me. thankfully, a new distraction (a handsome distraction) came into my life and helped with that situation. however, that situation always comes up, right when everything seems to be going well. i guess its my own fault for not being assertive and doing what needs to be done. but the thing is, what i need to do is what i've been advised not to do, but not doing it makes it come up again and again! i'm planning on this december being the end of it. we'll see if it works. its truely sad to see how things havnt changed at all. except that i have my significant other now who i love. although i'm still completely confused and bewildered, i am absolutely and completely happy. the situation does bring me down, but my best friend and my boyfriend keep me smiling. i know this thing makes me sound unhappy, but i'm really not. i am so happy right now. being confused is okay, as long as i have the two people i cant live without. i'm just so happy. | | |
| every once in a while i'll be suddenly reminded that i still have one of these. xanga is like pogs or crazy bones. it was such a wicked fad. oh the pog craze! nothing like round cardboard chips with pictures eh? well basically since i last wrote in here alot has happened. i'm growing in Christ and i am loving it. its amazing what just reading your bible does. just simply reading through matthew and 1 corinthians has made all the difference. i'm loving it. i'm learning soo much right now. not only about God but about me. about freaking everything. its amazing how much i thought boys confused me. but actually i'm more confused with myself. its a beautiful thing, delicious ambiguity as Jimi Hendrix said. maybe by the next time i remember to write in here i'll have myself and everything figured out. as for right now, i'm stuck with my paintbrushes and my mind. daydreaming is probably whats keeping my mind going, seriously. i just want it to be summer and me being at susque living it fully. yeah prayer would be soo greatly appreciated. lets figure these things how eh? | | |
| Oh Gosh, I havnt been on this forever. I totally forgot about it till someone brought it up in school. haha well i guess i've moved on to myspace then even though i actually hate myspace. because MYSPACE IS FOR LOSERS right? Right! | | |
| no more school! im so happy! it doesnt feel like summer at all though. wednesday after school i went to nick's house with him and ben. we played halo 2, and i am terrible. lol then we went outside and went in the pool. since i have my stupid cast on still i only went like up to my legs. it was fun though. we watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith which was good. we played more halo and played a little bit on monopoly. but i quit the game because twice, when i had two of the three places you can get, they got the third one. so lol i quit that. then we went outside and played frisbee in the rain. it was so much fun. lol when we were playing halo 2, nick heard the door open and close. his mom wasnt home so he got scared and took this mini wooden bat and was like REVEAL YOURSELF, STRANGER!!! it was hilarious. it was just bens mom dropping off stuff at the house though.
today me and drew went to visit my oma and opa. omw my opa is the funniest guy. we went to the diner and while the waitress was taking his order he just stops talking and looks at the window and yells "they have my umbrella!!!" it was so funny, but it wasnt his. haha and then she asked him if he wanted toast with his meal and he said sure, he'll give it to the seagulls. on the way home we passed someones refrigerator at the end of someones driveway and he goes "look! lets take it home" and my oma said well it doesnt have a door. so then hes like well we can use it as a bathtub! hahaha omw it was hilarious. then on the way home we drove through the puddles and he yelled at random people jogging. omw there was a jogger near a puddle and he drove into the puddle and soaked the guy. it was hilarious lol
well im out now, only 19 days till dave matthews concert! i found out that Gomez is the opening band. it will be fun! | | |
| hey guys. so today was my last full day of school! the rest are half days and one is like a quarter of a day. im about ready to rip off my cast forever, but i have only 8 more days till i get it xrayed. hopefully it will be healed so they can take it off. i have to tell yous guys about the shore! here it is
FRIDAY-boring day at school, come home with chelly and head for the church. we get there late and go to bed.
SATURDAY-me and chelly worked in the Dun house cleaning up and stuff. that place is so dirty. in one of the bedrooms chelly turned on the water and it was brown. it was sick and i found all sorts of cross stuff. after that we had lunch and then free time. me and chel headed for the beach. with my STUPID cast i couldnt go in, so me and chel just walked in the water. the coolest thing happened when we were in the boardwalk chapel. Mr. Stevenson was talking and these three guys walked into the chapel (the chapel opends up right on the boardwalk so you can see the auditorium walking by) one of them was high but lol the kid was like "the bible isnt true" blah blah blah, and Mr. Stevenson just totally witnessed to him. it was amazing, he just said the most stupifying things, and the kid was stupified! i think that the kid may have been touched by what he said, and i really hope so. so maybe that kid will think about our religion. but at night we hung out on the boardwalk, theres many interesting people there. not a good interesting either. more like creepy and pansyish
SUNDAY-we woke up to amazing omlets make by Larry. and we headed for chuch. we went on the beach for a while. we did the scavenger hunt! my group was me Carol and Ted. it was so funny. for the one where we had to get a picture with a stranger wearing pink, omw i cant even describe it. the guy thought me and carol were like picking him up or hitting on him. but then we told him it was for a scavenger hunt and showed him the paper. it was soo funny. that night we went on the boardwalk and chels went on a rollercoaster. then Larry, me, Sarah, Carol, Amy, Chels, Jon, and beth went to get icecream from the Sea Shell at like 11 30. we ate our icecream and got home wicked late. it was lots of fun. and on monday we came home and i slept for two hours once i got home. and then of course that night i didnt go to sleep till like 1. but it was lots of fun and i cant wait to see the pictures from the scavanger hunt
since this was a wicked long entry, dont expect one soon
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