To the ones I love:

Where the fuck do I start.

Where the fuck do I stand.

If youre the one unfeeling

When I reach out my hand.

The people around me

The people who care

Are the ones who fucking disappoint me

And leave my heart with nothing to spare.

The temptations are painful

The frustrations are worse

Youre the cause of this

Youre what makes this burst.

My souls a fucking mess

My minds a fucking blur

My hearts void and empty

Nothing left inside but anger.

I tear everything apart

I tear out my heart

I smear it on a piece of paper

And look at it as art.

Nothing makes me normal

Nothing in this fucking world makes sense

I look up to the ones I care for

As they inhale at their own expense.

I never would have thought of letting myself give in

I never thought that I would embrace such a sin.

Why the hell should I give a fuck

About all your bodies or mine

If you don’t fucking open your eyes

If from the beginning you were blind.

Now im left with no fucking morals nothing even close to hope

With no one to turn to or worry about

Eating me alive, learning how to cope.

Fuck all this shit fuck all these lies

The ones I loved did this to me

Why couldn’t you just see my silent cries.

I hate to admit that I held onto your influence

But you were the ones I fuckin looked up to

You were the ones who gave me guidance.

Nothing fucking matters now

As I pick this up and ignite

Breathe in the filthy fumes of fury

Out the smog of love and light.