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Saturday, September 30, 2006

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 13:19:10 GMT

i'm not too sure if ya'll still look at this but i'll give an update.

i'm 100% happier here. i'm living on my own, making friends, goin' to the club & dancin', pimpin' it up! lol. i like the people here. the only thing i could do without would be all the lesbian drama but i suppose it comes with the territory. Alice's depiction of "the chart" really is true. found that out quick.

on another note...i am failing school. i have yet to get anything better than a C on a test and i've had at least one test in every class. people say "it's your first year at ku" that's fantastic but that doesn't mean my GPA isn't going to plumet from it. all of my classes are ok. the only one i hate and struggle with is accounting and i'll be lucky if i get a C in it.

what else? it was my birthday tuesday (21st) so i got drunk wednesday night and went to a club. gorgeous femme bought me a shot and held my lemon in her mouth for me. shot was disgusting, lemon/kiss was awesome. i've decided that i'm just not a big fan of drinking and i could REALLY do without it. people don't understand why and i don't understand why they feel the need to drink so let's agree to disagree. i am perfectly happy being a DD.

i'm excited to see my bestfriend in two weeks. two months really is too long to go without seeing her. i expect the biggest hug in the world.

i think that's it...if i 'member anything else i'll be back. peace.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 08:02:44 GMT

i am cutting my hair today. and because i care SO much about what my friends and you bitches think, i'm not going to cut it real short again. peer presure sucks.

Monday, September 11, 2006

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 19:51:25 GMT

i'm such a goddamned fool...i swear to god...

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 18:49:29 GMT

i met someone. and i am a lot happier. that's all i can say for now.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 19:41:15 GMT

first gay meeting...we'll see how this goes.

-hope for the best, expect the worst-

*****

so things went a lot better than i expected tonight. i'm still not getting my hopes up. been let down too many times before but we'll see how tomorrow night goes. that's my name tag (obviously) from tonight. and i just took that <--- pic tonight and i don't think i look quite myself.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 23:05:50 GMT

you know what. i used to care. i used to care a lot. and now i don't. there's nothing good, there's nothing positive. so what's the point? until something of the previous mentioned manner happens, i don't give a fuck. about anything. so i guess that means my accounting won't get done tonight. oh well, right? right.

i just don't understand why my life is so frustrating. why my life sucks so much. what have i done? i've always done what i was supposed to do and what good has come of it? nothing. that's all i have to say.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 18:39:58 GMT

Listening to: Van Morrison- "Crazy Love"

i've been listening to all these songs about love and sex...and i have neither. it's a damn shame cuz it seems like everyone around me does. if that doesn't make you feel like shit, i dunno what does.

The song of my seduction.

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 20:15:51 GMT

i was watchin' city of angels today and heard this song. proceeded to download it. if you wanna seduce me this song will do it everytime. not that you do, just fyi! love it!

Paula Cole- "Feelin' Love"

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 16:09:41 GMT

there's a club soccer meeting tonight and i'm gonna go to it. i have no intention of trying out, because i'm not in shape and i haven't played in 9 months. so why go? cuz i'm cool like that.

my heart hurts.

***** 10:05

some mutha fucker thinks they can park in my carport. ah hell no!! they don't shell out every month for it.

i just ate a PB&J. mmm, yummy yummy in my tummy.

you like that shit, you know you do. me and my skills.

the meeting was...alright. i'm still debating. i found out that the people of lawrence do pick up games on friday and sunday and while i'm still deciding, i'm leaning more towards the pick up games with minimal dedication. i don't know if i want to be gone every weekend again. i enjoy the little, if any, free time that i have now. ciao.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 23:44:55 GMT

Never let 'em see you sweat.