wow... i really must be bored, i've actually updated more than once in a month! haha

nothing too exciting has happend in my life lol...

All i do is work out and lay in the sun. I've been off work for two weeks, and even tho i'm completely broke, i'm loving it

I went fishing twice last week with Brittany, Ricky, and Dustin. It was really fun cause i haven't hung out with Ricky since like elementary school and we used to be best friends, so it was nice to catch up. We went down to Douglas Lake and out on his boat to fish... where i ran from the fish and didn't catch anything

Went with Renee and Danielle to see Kenny Chesney and Sugarland in Raleigh... i must say it was the greatest day of my life. We got VIP passes and got to go sit on tour busses, and go back stage to see how everything was set up. got our pic made with Kenny's hot guitar player  and got to go to the afterparty. If that wasn't enough, we were third row at the concert and had drinks delivered to us all night lol. I felt like a princess ( :  haha We had a lot of fun tho and even tho we couldn't take any pics with ol' Kenny he was still five feet away from us!

I found out some more stuff my "so called-'best friend'" has been saying behind my back on top of lieing to me and acting like it was nothing... i found a quote to sum up my opinion of the situation.
          "There comes a point when you get tired of trying to fix everyting and make everything right,
             and when you stop, it's NOT giving up... it's just realizing you don't need certain people
                                and the bullshit they bring to your life"   ( i live by this quote now) (:

I saw Trevor last night and he wouldn't even speak to me... then i talked to his friend at my softball game who told me some more interesting stuff about him... all i can say is thank god he's an asshole... because it makes it easier to get over him and i'm glad that homewrecker he's with has to deal with it all now and not me ... do i sound bitter? haha

Well life as of now is working out hardcore and softball... occasional hanging out with friends. I'm determined to lose two pants sizes! ... i've went down one... however i still have to peel them on and off haha it's getting better tho! and we won our first co-ed softball game 19-5 so things are looking good there!

have a good week everyone (:

Well this is my first update in forever, and will probably be my last for a while...

I've learned a lot about life in the past few months... i've definately learned that friends come and go. I've been shown that some girls really will choose a guy over their best friends. Sometimes you just have to let go of friendships because you know it will never be the same and it's time to admit when it has come to an end.

I had to deal with getting over the first relationship i've ever been in... and to be honest, i'm still not completely over it. It was the hardest thing i've ever been through in my life and it was really unexpected. I've realized i'll never trust anyone completely again, and if i do it will take a long time to get me completely to that point...

i also had to deal with seeing that person with someone else... and as bad as it hurt i would find where they were and force myself to go in and see them together to try and get over things... trust me... it just hurts worse. the only thing that can make you get over it is really seeing how much better off your life is without them in it and seeing what a jackass they really are.

I've gotten a lot closer with my family since all this stuff happend... they are thinking about moving tho. so once again i'll be here alone. Sadly, i kinda like it like that... no worries, no one going behind your back, focusing on myself and my life... thats my plan from now on... my life will soon be, working out and taking care of myself... going to classes... coming home and working some days and other days just studying and goin to bed. No matter what, i will never depend on anyone else to make me happy and i'll never wait around on anyone else... it's time to step up and do what i want with my life...

I'm even considering moving to NY next summer... i want a big city life away from everything i know here. I love this little tiny town of Elizabethton, but it's time for a change. I would love to work in fashion and business, but i don't really see that taking me far in life so i still plan to work on pharmacy, but we'll see where i end up.

I'm going to start going places tho... even if i have to go myself and sleep in a car. lol. Next summer i plan to go to Cancun. and i want to get to Austrailia one day... who knows what that will happen, but until then i'll be here figuring out what life has in store for me...

If i haven't learned anything else from this summer... i've learned that God is the ONLY person you can count on, and i definately don't spend enough time giving him credit for the life i have. I'm nowhere near where i need to be with him, but i'm gonna try  my best to get there because the life i'm living now isn't the life for me....

Wow, I must be really bored because i definately haven't written in this thing in FOREVER! lol

Well... where to begin

I hate school and i can't wait to get out! I still have about a flippin million years left to go, but just a break for summer will be nice! I thought about transferring to Northeast, but i decided to just take classes at both colleges next year.

I am working at Lonestar "Steakhouse and Saloon" now lol... i pretty much despise our manager and hate the job, but it's money and it's the only thing in E*town that pays decent.

Me and Trevor are doing really well, our 6 month anniversary is March 7th! YAY! lol
Valentine's day was good... I got up and suprised him with breakfast and his "Curse of the Bambino" picture i got him. He was really shocked and i think i did a good job! lol

His Grandpa passed away yesterday and after he found out it was the saddest thing i've ever seen. I think i cried more with him and his family then i did when Granny and Grandad passed away. But i spent the day with him and tried really hard to just keep his mind off things.

We have taken up the new hobbie of snowboarding... lol we've been about 15ish times... I love it! but i can't wait to get enough money to get my own board because i hate renting those stupid things. As much as i've paid to rent them i could have bought one by now! But we have a lot of fun attempting to keep from killing ourselves.

Anyways, i'm sure i won't update again unless i get extremely bored over Spring Break lol

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I am the luckiest girl in the world and I have the most amazing boyfriend ever! thats all i needed to say  

And i hope everyone has a great Christmas!!!

So, i'm pretty much guessing no one reads these anymore lol but i feel like talking about my amazing week anways!

I got to see my king kids tuesday!... well some of the wrestlers and Sarah, Clinton, and David. I've missed them a lot! Went to the guys wrestling match then talked to everyone for a while before they all left to go home for thanksgiving. Then went midnight bowling with Trev, Cane, Ben, Tasha, and Lisa. It was sooo fun! We came close to beating the boys even tho they'd never admit it! haha

This thanksgiving was probably the best one i've had EVER! lol... Trev came to eat w/ mom's side and Alexia played with him for the first time lol.. Me, Him, and Alexia got out and played ball in the yard for bout an hour! I'm so happy she finally acknowledges him lol she used to cry and run off haha. Then we went to eat w/ my Grandpa and Dad's side of the family and of course they all LOVED Trevor to death lol my dad freakin talks about him all the time, but i'm glad  Then we went to eat w/ Trev's Pap and everyone and watched some football of course! haha I love his family. And then i got to go see his granny's house and meet some more people and of course jake showed up to forehead smack me lol but me, trev, jake, drew, and kelli all went to see Deja Vu... which i highly recommend cause it's amazing!

Friday night i got to hang out with Amanda, Abby, and Megan for the first time in forever! It was so funny... we went ice skating which was hilarious cause amanda was everywhere... and then we went to Fun Expedition and played in the batting cages for a while. Went and ate and shopped a little bit. it was fun tho, i've missed my girls!

Yesterday Trev took me to my first UT game! It was awesome... they didn't play too good, and there was a butt ton of people lol, but we had really good seats and it was fun. then we went and ate at Famous Daves and got some ribs... of course trevor made fun of me cause i tried to stay clean lol. We called Alexia and she talked to Trevor of course... not me lol but then we just went shopping for a while and got ice cream. It was fun... probably one of the most fun days we've had!

But now my week gets to suck again cause i have a history and physics test this week! blah! so i gotta go study! peace out hoes!