Hi. i'm kelly, i've just had a lotof things on my mind lately and i'm so confused and undiscribable(unsure of spelling?) at the moment. No you don't have to read this or like it. I'm just writing because i need a place where i can write how i feel and feel better that i got it out. so here i go,

Today was alright. i got up around 1. ate something, bored. I went to Jennys house around 6:30 to make shirts for JB on Tuesday. It was so much fun. We even made Brendan a shirt :] I came home around 11. i came home and talked to my good friends Kelley. I haven't hung out with her like at all this summer. i feel pretty bad about it but hopefully i see her tomorrow. then later tonight i got a call from this guy he had two girls on the phone. yeah i'm not sure if i like them they're always rude to me and act like they're better then me by saying how much this guy likes them more then me. newsflash, do you think i care that he likes you better? first off this guy i'm not even that close to him so honestly, i could care less who his friends are. two, i don't care that he likes you better cause lately he's been pissing me off. we used to talk all the time but lately he never calls me, or calls me back or if i'm on the phone with him he'll 3-way a girl and will forget that i'm there so i just hang up, and guess what, he doesn't notice. i don't like him, i used to a long time ago, when he was nice and he made me feel like i was the only important thing at the moment. now i've found a new guy who i'm confused about. he's so sweet. he would never hurt me and i know that for a fact. if he's wrong, he apologizes and thats all i want in a guy. he makes me so happy. when i think of him i smile. i know i sound cheezy but its the truth. i've known him since January '08. and the night i met him i could not stay away from him, he just made me laugh so much. i didn't start like him since last saturday. i can't even describe to you how i feel when i'm around him. i just really hope he likes me. if he doesn't thats fine, but i'm just afraid to admit that i DO like him. its so hard around other people, trying to admit that i do like him. oh god, the big asshole who i was talking about just IMed me.  i'm sick of his bullshit.

i can't believe i even talk to him. he always has like 5 girlfriends at once he's always being a jerk yet i put up with all his crap. idk what to do about it. i need to forget about boys all they lead to is pain and sadness. so enough about guys, i'm seeing the jonas brothers tuesday and i'm stoked. i made shirts tonight and i love mine. i'm going to be so stress-free and i'm just going to enjoy my summer with my friends. right now i just want to focus on my friends and that one guy who i like. i want to make the best of this year and next year because this year will be my last year with all my best friends since i was in 1st grade. 8 years. then we'll all split apart into different schools. i'm going to miss them all even the people i love to hate. anyways i'll try to write more soon. peace love<3