Dear Xanga,

I have been unfaithful to you for the past couple of months. You see there were these filters on the computers here at work...well they are gone now. So in true fashion I have left you behind to wither in the shadow of my new beloved facebook. Well to be honest I have always preferred the socialization of facebook. I will still drop in occassionally to write but alas I have also been uninspired lately. Damn writer's block! Anyways I just thought that you should get some kind of explanation for my absence. Don't worry though because absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? I promise I will never leave you for myspace. 

Much love,

Kim

I got a new car today!!! I have been throwing away 20+ dollars a day in gas...no mas!!!

I have been on call most of the week but somehow ended up here at work on my night off.

Death...once again comes a knockin'. Thursday I attended the visitation of Dr. Mark Bradley. He used to be my boss. He really meant a lot to me. He was far from perfect but still held his head up high even in the darkest of times. Goodbye friend. Grandma Ethel left us this past weekend. I have missed her in the past two years and I will continue to miss her, she was a really classy lady!

Overall, all is well and great!

Written for me...

Kim, when I'm away from you the world is dim

The light you shine on me is so bright

to deny my feelings would be a mortal sin

though I lay alone tonight.

My heart, my life, my soul become your toy

with your every whispered breath

My love for you is my deepest joy

though at times it scares me to death

The heat of the sun pales only to the fire of your eyes

A feather yields to the softness of your hair

From the moment sleep claims me til the suns cruel rise

My heart and dreams are with you there

In shadowed nightmares my heart will grope

my heart a thundering dim

Then I close my eyes and focus on what gives me hope

and softly I whisper "Kim"

This was written by a very close friend. I guess I never realized how close until now. I love him like a brother but it seems he feels so much more than I do.

On a totally opposite note...I'm really embracing the single life. I mean I have been dating here and there and going out and having fun but NO RELATIONSHIPS!!! Right now I feel like I may never want a commited relationship. My girlies are all I really need these days.

On a fun note...went out last Friday and saw a killer band! Oh and then went to Little Rock in limo, wish I could say that I went INTO the club in Little Rock but damn that bar in the limo...I took a little crown royal induced nappy in the backseat! HAHA I was supposed to party at BackSTREET not BackSEAT!!!

Hmm let me try to sum up last week

1st ever single Valentine's day...it was the BEST ever! I hung out with my two best girl friends...got flowers from two people and a watch from the girls.

KUBOTA!!! Kick ass time at the farm riding the Kubota at 2am!!!

Tech Football players rock my world!

Big Piney @ 11.5 ft

Naked guy 1 & 2!

We are doing lunch now on a regular basis and it's great.

I slept and slept and slept a little more (20 hours in bed on Friday, 17 asleep hehehe)

When work settles down maybe I can actually go into more detail but until then...

Okay so the hackin' is going great! I still suck but at least now I can get like 3-4 in a row before I bite it! The running is just not happening yet. I am just not a big fan haha.

The tornado recently was insane to say the least. I had to work that evening and I had to drive through Atkins. It was super crazy...debris everywhere, overturned semi trucks(that I could reach out and touch), mangled vehicles along the interstate, closed roads, insane rain, sideways lightning, no cell phone service

Once I got to work safely (thank you Jesus) the chaos ensued. We had 5 ambulances out and it took them about 5 hours to get back to us. All of the managers had been called back to help in the ER. We had a man come in unconscious, once he came to he began to ask about his parents. Turns out he was on his way to check on them and he witnessed their house get picked up and then dropped again before something whacked him in the head and knocked him out.

About an hour or two later his son comes in and says, "We found grandma and grandpa..."

The patient asks, "Well where are they now?"

The son says, "They are dead. They were found still holding each other."

Not only was Atkins hit but so were Hattieville and Clinton. The highway between us and Clinton was closed so the victims could only make it to Conway. It was super crazy.

The next morning I watched as wreckers were still clearing the area beside the interstate. There were mangled cars and semis. I don't see how any of those people survived.

Every shift since then I have seen Entergy trucks working non stop trying to restore power to the area.

Tonight there were burning piles of debris.

I'm glad that all my friends and family are safe and my prayers go out to everyone affected by this tragedy.