do you ever feel like you don't belong? that the more you try to make sense of your environment the blurrier it gets? quite honestly i feel like i was dropped into a different planet. I am pretty sure that people around me arn't the ones that changed, but it was me, and it's until now that i begin to notice things i just brushed off before. I feel im surrounded by shallowness, deceit, in the sense that people can be staring me straight to the face and say one thing but t i kno deep inside they don't believe it themselves. I can see their eyes. They're lying. I hate it. the worst part its the lies are stupid. It's not that they're deceiving me on theological truths or saying they believe one thing and practice another. It's in the little things that i see their lack of loyaty, fo rlack of a better word and in short their faked friendship. if you feel this is directed at you, then it probably is. Stop being fake. i know i'm not in a happy-go-lucky mood but sometimes, just sometimes i wish there was somebody who i could talk to without having to deal with the whole "how can i benefit from being friends with this person" type of deal. am i crazy, yea i think i might be. | 
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