| time to step up and own it... bringing my A game. Nothing else matters for now.
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| time to take deeper breaths... will i ever be ready?
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| i just wanted to say thank you for an eventful 21st birthday...all the phone calls, texts, wall posts... thank you to all my friends thats been there for me through thick and thin... all the drama and nonsense... thank you for helping me through it all... nothing but love love love... to my bf, we've been rocky but we somehow always pull through, thanks again for the past 10 months... it was a perfect ending to a rough week.
now that i am 21, i feel more and more lost. i know that i am supposed to be more responsible and have a strong path in knowing what i want and do. now that i am older, shouldn't all the insecurities and nonsense go away? aren't i suppose to grow and be better and stronger? but i am not sure, about anything and its sorta scary. i am not sure what to do once i graduate and i know that its coming soon, its just a little bit daunting to me. i am a little bit scared of what is to come. it seems like everyone around me know their path, what they want to do, what they want to achieve. i nod along as if i know too, but really i know nothing. its a scary thought. i know that things happen for a reason and i am supposed to learn from them, but as of now... the light is dim and i feel lost. i pretend to go along w/ the flow and show that i am happy and content, but i am not. something is missing and i am not sure what. i just wish i knew what i really want.
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| baking brownies on a wednesday is stupid... so is leaving a gallon of ice cream outside for 5 hours -_-
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| maybe i ask for too much... sorry
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