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Name: Harabec
Country: United States
Birthday: 1/4/1926
Gender: Female
Interests: being karazy, drinking koolaid, playing the keyboard, hanging out with Jesus, driving people insane, running up walls, spinning in chairs. etc. : P
Expertise: Juggling knives, walking on the ceiling, playing with little kids, staying in never never land. Painting, oils, watercolor. All that good stuff.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
MSN: Tobe4God2@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  Tobe4God2@sbcglobal.net
Member Since:
10/21/2005
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| just wanna be freeI just wanna be free,
Carried out to sea on the cool ocean breeze.
I just wanna fly,
Up into the sky.
And don't even worry about the by and by.
Just hold my hand,
And let's run barefoot in the sand.
Let's go back to what we lost,
No matter what the cost.
No more time for tears,
Cast aside the fears.
I haven't named that one yet. Today i was thinking of one of my
favorite songs that has been ever since i was little The Warrior is a
child. When i was a kid i used to imagine lugging around a heavy sword
with too big army dragging at me as i tried to swing it at my
adversary's, sure i won battles and people would find it impressive and
not see the wounds inflicted on me, the scars that would soon fester
and grow. I used to picture it all vividly especially the "They don't
know that I go running home when I fall down, they don't know who picks
me up when no one is around, I drop my sword and cry for just a while.
'Cause deep inside this armor... the warrior is a child."
And sometimes i feel like i'm still that little kid lugging around my
sword trying to fight and duck and dodge the enemies that constantly
come at me. That I stagger home on days like today weary from all the
fighting and just want to collapse and cry. I've always imagined that
the faceless person who picks me up when no one else is around is God.
Because that's usually how it goes when i'm all alone when i want to
give up and give in, there he is picking me up, setting me back on my
feet, giving me the strength to make it through the next battle.
And of course he's blessed me with people who are around, my family, my
friends, my awesome bf ;) who also pick me up when i want to sit around
and mope and get angry at the world, they don't let me become bitter
and i'm glad of it, so thanks yall!
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| why me God...This week has been more then a little on the hectic side. My back feels
the strain of all the burdens that have been thrown my way. I know i
could use a good cry but then couldn't we all? If God's sending me a
wake up call to spend more time with Him i've been gotten the message
if it's a test i hope i actually passed i doubt it though i haven't
handled things very well i'm just so tired, a tiredness all the sleep
in the world isn't going to cure i think, meh this kinda tiredness
needs more then sleep it needs... peace. Something I haven't known in a
long long long time. "I can't sleep at night, I ain't eating right, I
can't see the Light, Lord I really need Your peace." that one line from
the song can sum up my life lately my not eating right was probably
because of the flu but hey it's still off balance and so many wildly
insomnic nights, i just need rest i just need... peace.
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| mmm *insert catchy title here*i know i haven't been on here or yahoo in a while that's for sure, :p
things have been busily helter skelter lately and to top it all off i
would get sick today joy... it hit me during the night and then today
during work i tried to keep working because i could just hear them
saying jer would leave on a sick day but it got bad really bad and they
took one look at me and asked if there was someone i could call so i
transfered my hours to tomorrow and then today was a feverish chillish
day of sleeping and muttering but now i'm feeling a tad better either
that or just tired of sleeping, :p i'll try and update this more and
get on yahoo later i think i have to go back and lay down soon so | | |
| Well hi!I haven't updated this thing in a while i know i'm sorry for that,
since my last post was concerning the job i got it, :D it's been going
great and I love it, i've been making a myspace now, but i'll be
copying and pasting the posts from here on out.
Today was great instead of a sermon we watched Facing the Giants which
was a message in and of itself the main thing was we've all got our
giants and our impossibilites and maybe we think we can't handle it and
we may as well give up, but you're not supposed to give up! You're
supposed to give it your best and then some and rely on God for the
rest to help you. and that was a good message for me for today. This
morning i was kinda down and moody still from yesterday i was in a what
does it matter mood, why am i still alive? Why didn't God let me die
all those times when i hovered so close to it? Why am i still here if
i'm not really making any impact? Why do i still hold faith when
nothings changing? But things are changing whether i see it or not,
there were two farmers who prayed for rain one went out and got his
field ready the other just waited for rain. And i realize i just don't
want to wait for something to happen, i want to be prepared for that
something to happen.
So that's what i'm going to work on, while i'm in this place of
inbetween i'll prepare myself for whatever comes after and my own way,
i will face my own giants instead of giving up. I won't give up anymore.
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| Todayyyyyyyy wassssss todaywell a lot's happened since i've posted on here, i've turned 18 yay?
lol not sure yet, i've applied for a job and took a test for it at the
library here's hoping i get it, there's been a new year yay? i guess so
with new things happening good or bad more trials to overcome! but we
will overcome of course at some point or another. and yeah this is
random because i'm bored and thought i should update this thing lol
anyways, the page test was CONFUSING let me say because mostly i
couldn't understand the instructions at first (they play with your mind
a little) and because this girl kept periodically glaring at me because
she was taking the test too so i stared back until she looked away
shocked of course that she had come up against moi! in a staredown!
wakikikiki, oh today was pretty fun otherwise the usual school stuff
and reading and babysitting and such, oh and lately i've taken up
Origami is that how you spell it?? oh well i'll look it up later so far
i've made a bunny rabbit that can really hop, a star basket and a tulip
but i have to get th stem and the leaf right, and a backwards plane
that i thought flew backwards but you literally have to throw it
backwards and then it flys ooooo *light dawns* well i have to get going
soon so i spose i'll update more later! byes my loyal fans
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