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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 21:25:15 GMT

Fuck love fuck relationships fuck it all.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 04:44:28 GMT

Ya i got nothing

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 22:30:56 GMT

FUCK OFF WORLD. LIFE IS PAINFULL SO IS MY PENIS INSIDE OF YOU bitches

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 00:31:09 GMT

Hey I started a new job today at Epworth Villa. It's differn't then my last job. The only bad thing about it is "OLD PEOPLE" I hate old people. One good thing about working there is this girl named Jenai. She's hot. that's the only good thing about the job, well that and it's easy. They put me with this gay korean dude during lunch.He was annoying as hell. At dinner i got trained with this black girl who was cool. It really wasn't training it was more like me doing the tabled by myself.Tomorrow i have and appiontment at Hertz, I hope i get the job there. If i do I will work at epworth Villa part time. Epworth is a retirement cenceter for rich old people.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 18:08:44 GMT

The other day i got drunk. I was driving to work and i was thinking about when i go to Cali. What all am i going to do there and stuff. After a lil of thinking i decided i might just move out there for a couple of years. I don't know yet. Some of the reasons i want to stay are my friends and my two nephews. I really don't like m,eeting new people. I'm to shy of a person.I know if i move i will loose touch with just about all of my friends. I will keep in touch with my nephews because of there mother, who will call. I still haven't decide on what to do yet. I most likely won't go and if I do I can't go until after Aug

Friday, February 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 00:48:47 GMT

so it's been a while since i made a real journal. lately nothing exciting has really happened except my friend Nathaniel got out of the hospital :). thats about it ya my life sucks major ass.

I love Nathaniel, Chris, Chip, and Jayden

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 21:39:21 GMT

Umm...... ftw

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 15:49:18 GMT

I'm dying my hair back to the emo way. I don't think it is emo all my friends do. Fuck emo music except Fall Out Boy there an exception.I might be buiying a bass guitar. it's an ibanez and it's black.I recently bought four new cd's go fidgure.I bought POD Testify it's a lot like there old one. i alaso bought godsamck self titled for the third time. I bought institut which is Gaven Rossdale new band, the singer from bush and i bought SLAYER GOD HATES US ALL it's a good album.

I love chip,chris,nathaniel and jayden

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 14:43:13 GMT

There are a lot of spelling error's i dont care

i'm still waiting in my room for you. why cant you get here where do you go.i will wait forever until the day i die my life is a mess with out you. why did u leave. no i can never no the way you felt i hope u do the same. i will never forget ur face i can never forget your laugh. i wish i could tell you the way that i feel it like is i never ending story. it never ends i try so hard i wish i could tell you the way i feel it just goes on that i never will there is no end soon it will never its a nver ending story that can never end

I feel my heart fade away as I look into you're eyes. I always wondered what to say but never could figure it out. Now it is to late. You have gone to another and now i just sit here wishing i had another chance.if only i could have asked you or told you it might be it could be. i never knew how to ask i just sat there. i fucked up my chance and now you hav gone to another.

every body say's there is going to be another day. today is the day that i give my life away. i feel it flowing out. i wihs it wernt true. i never told you how i felt now it is time. i will see you on the other side. no more pain to coase i am finallyu gone dont thinkt it was ur fault. u are not the one to blame. as i look into ur eyes my vision slowly fades. all i can see is the dark light ahead of me. I feeel my breathe being taken away i feel nothing more

have u ever felt like u were the only one. that nobody beleives you. no matter what you do. U try to tell them the just igonore you. ushow them the laugh at you. now its time to kill them all fucking rip thier heards off shve it down there throat. Make those fuckersd pay kill them all. make them pay make them pay. slit thier wrsit gogouge out there eyes make them suffer show them why. its thier fault its their mistake dont let any one push you around Fucking.now its time to kill them all fucking rip thier heards off shve it down there throat. Make those fuckersd pay kill them all. make them pay make them pay show them the way to hell send

Slit my wrist and close my eyes. just ignre all those lies . i thought she was the one. i never that it could be like this. u were my first u were the worst. thye told me what you were i just thought it was lies the said u would do it all i just ignored. u broke my heart i found out the truth thye said u were and now u are. u were the firsdt you were the worst u broke my heart. they trie to tell me i just ignored. i thought they were lies. as i slit my wrist shut my eyes feel the blood flow through my viens i wish it werent true the thinhs the said but they are and now i regret.

I awlays have these questions in my head I never have an anwser for. What to do with my life. Who am I. I never can figure it out. I dont think I ever will. I never let any one get close i'm afraid of what they might think. Even thought we are friends I may never tell you how I feel. I like the thought of someone saying no. I dont think I can handle the rejections I will get. No matter what I try I think I will hide. i can never tell you how i feel. there is so many things I have to deal with. I never thought it would be like this. it seemed to come by so quickly. now it ens with a farewell. who knew it could end like this

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 23:22:20 GMT

Will you ever notice me. Wil lyou ever see me for who i trully am. Seeing her all the time. Never saying a word. Will you ever know. I can never tell. Staring into her eye's. Will i ever see her agian i'll never know. why can't i get you out of my head. your alaways arounf but never knowing.

In a frailed pit of misery. With both hands around my neck, wishing to stay alive long enough to say goodbye. staring death in the eye's. Laughing not being able to stop. Fuck yoiu youThe pain inside grows stronger. the relief is my defeat. let it be now and forever. Never knowing when. This frailed pit of misery. sitting beneath it all. Looking down in agony. wondering "why it's like this but never knowing.