Ahh. its 2005 now, just 3 days pass 2004. damn... looking back... there was many DOWNS to begin with... and then many up. shedded many tears, lost a few friends, gained many friends, gained someone i can trust, done things i never done, gone mad, was very happy, stayed out n became a "rebel" hahah.... i just wanna thank EVERYONE for making it a good year...

and my new years eve + new years was the best.... and i`m glad i spent it with my babe and the people i spent it with! <3

Summer is over in two days, and its been like one of the bestestest summers EVER! and it wouldn`t been this fun if it wasn`t ::

my girls - lynn sandi lucinda luse joyee evelyn - clubbing/shopping/beach/chillin`/movies/dinners/frat partyy- its all you girls. its been a great summer, and lookin forward to a FUN school year, nah mean! =D

the vM group - timmy/bizzie/scrapz/grandpa - from drinking+bbQ`s to beach trips to just chilling at the house... its been fun and lots of laughs ^_^

tim/jason/kristine/trudy - sixflags/dinners/movies/chillingg. =]

thankkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkks you guys for taking me out to chill, making my summer worth whiLE. i`ll be a fuckin` loser without you guys! >=)

ohyeah anyWAYS...

lets start off from friday.... it was evelyn's birthday and we went to santa anita mall shopped for awhile.. i got some white roxy flipflops and 2 white tops ^_^ then we ate at California Pizza Kitchen. the food was alright, the fettecine isnt as great as applebeez, atleast das wut i thot! haha...

saturday.... i ate dimsum with my family then at night around 7 joyee asked me to goto a frat party (rush party) in LA. so by 8:40 i got picked up by gina and we headed off towards USC cuz it was a USC frat... so yah... we got there and it was so much people outside, wen we got inside it wasnt that packed, but as time came by 10mins after it was fuckin HOT and PACKED like FUCK! no room to walk...  seriously... it was cool tho. haha we got our freak on... and yeah drank a little mixed drinks... danced a little... socialized a little... lol you kno the drills at a party >=]

sunday... i woke up called sandi to tell her dat imma goto brea mall and if she wants to go. by 3 we got to brea... and my entire plan of shoppin was just to get some new shoes for the school year... but nope. we ended up going to hollisterco and abercrombiekids first... so YOU KNOW... i can`t help myself. i got two tops from each place! lols.. dat was already 80. i had 35 dollars left, and no money for shoes! >=/ sigh* so i guess now... i`ll just have to wait for a week? ^^ blehs.

-stole from karen-

Have you ever..

Smoked Pot? Yeah. 4 times >_<
Kissed Someone? Yup.
Had Oral Sex? Nope.
Had Sex? Nope.
Did a Cartwheel? When i was LiTTTLEEE.
Kissed in the rain? Yeah w. tongue. haha
Had a pedicure? Nope
Played tennis? Yeah. Tried to...
Swam in a thunderstorm? Nope.
Surfed? Nope.
Drank strawberry milk? Yeahhs.
Been to California? I live here =]
Been to Flordia? Nope. I wanna go!
Been out of the country? Yeah. Canada + HongKong + China
Played strip poker? Haha yes.
Played regular poker? Yes.
Climbed a tree? Not that i remember.
Broken an arm? Nope.
Broke a mirror? I think I dropped one before and it cracked.
Punched someone? Yeah. im abusive >=) (to boys only)
Ate Paper? Yeah.
Failed a test? 9/10 tests i fail. lol
Skipped school? Yeah
Been out to dinner without your parents? Doh.
Driven without a license? Yeah. thanks to zeke.
Stolen something over $30? Yeah. =/
Kissed someone of the same sex? On the CHEEK? haha.
Been pregnant? Nope
Been to Walt Disney World? Nope
Watched porn? just 2 days ago at danu's cuz stephan and kevin put it on! oh and other times when guys were around too... sigh
Listened to nysnc? Yeah.
Played Spin the Bottle? Nope
Drank Beer? Yes.
Been to Six Flags? Yep. Just a month ago! =D
Watched MTV Video Clash? Nope.

 i hate how my parents don`t like who i am today, they put me in this world and made me into the person i am this very moment. they didn`t teach me much shit, so why are they blaming me for being stupid & immature? all they`ve ever done is feed & dress me.... but they never sat down to encourage me,  know me, understand me, guide me through LiFE itself... @_@

i hate how my mom thinks i`m a horrible bad kid... just `cause i been going out everyday. i mean, i am a teenager, i do need to go out and enjoy myself and have my laughter but i know my limits. my mom thinks i`m some "drug addict." when i barely touch drugs (i only done weed 3 times and thats all...) ... i know my limits, i know how far to go with the people around me... i`m not the person she thinks i am, and it hurts... she tells me "just think about what your doing out all day with your friends." what am i doing? i'm doing nothing wrong, just going out chilling watching movies, having a couple laughs.... also she been bugging me about having a boyfriend. she keeps asking if i have one, and i`ve told her million of times, i don`t have a boyfriend... yet she doesn`t believe me... she thinks she knows me, but doesn`t at alll... shes never gonna understand me....

sheesh... i fuckin` hate this! why why why @_@