Me.Journal

Monday, May 12, 2008

  • Be To See
     
    O.L.2008.5.12.m.3phj.L4.MainLibrary
     
    To read more, visit my blog and head web site:
     
     
     
     
    The iniation to success!
     
    Be To See
    See To Be
     
    Inspiration,
    for this entry, comes from The Seven Habits Of Effective People, by Stephen Covey.
    Aspiration
    swets me to a bloody pole, in a partial serious way.
     
    Wild Fox:
    Lincoln Hawk!
     
    When I think of being, I think of my friend, Lincoln. He is one of my favorite people, ever (alongside his kitten-star pinnapple wife, Laurie). He can be and he can see. He knows how to dream. He knows how to cry.
     
    In life, we must:
    1. Laugh
    2. Cry
    3. Learn
    4. Live
     
    This goes with anything else that I may have said before about life.
     
    Character must be changed!
    That is the root!
     
    That is the concept, from the book.
     
    Character must be developed, before personality, so to speak. I write this in the mist of a lot of questions, even in my life. I am not even sure if I am being boring right now. Wait a minute, if I am being boring then you will just stop reading. Then you will miss out on some secrets to life. Not to be prideful, to think that I have all the secrets and answers to life. And that is why I read, talk, live, cry, laugh, or whatever.
     
    Paradigms must be shifted!
     
    I should probably tell you what that means. But you probably have a paradigm, already, that claims that I have no idea what I am talking about. You probably could be right. What am I trying to say in this article? That is a good question. The answer is in my mind. Maybe. I am writing to remind myself of potential and destiny. That starts in my mind. What I think, my attitude and attributes, will flow out into my actions.
     
    Destiny is a book.
    The next chapter is California.
    Actually, I do not know that.
    I only think that.
    I am still reading and writing
     
    and living through this
    chapter!
     
    That is where I am.
     
    Yesterday!
    I was in this hood.
    The poor kids were playing outside, as usual.
    Playing marbles.
    Or who knows what.
    I came after church.
    I was just there.
    Talking, playing, and stuff.
    I was not doing much.
    I did not have to come, either.
    I had that afternoon off.
    But I was there. Still.
    But there is this common question.
     
    "Why do you come?"
     
    I would be rich if I recieved quarters for each time that I hear these questions.
    I am here to make a difference.
    I mean, I always find it hard to answer these questions. I even let this girl take pictures with my phone. Today, it seems like my cell phone is broken. The SIM card is said to be inactivated. I am sad. But I must still learn to love life. That is where I am. I find myself too busy to enjoy life. I spend time with the youth and homeless. I find myself writing a whole lot. Not to mention the writings in these blogs and such, online. And I am not really busy as compared to real people, I guess, or they argue. I have a lot of organizing to do. Let me not even talk about girls. I must focus on being. I will try to be more exact on that, later. I am being quite general. I mean, what am I talking about, you can think. I guess I am not always sure. I am not always dealing with my heart, which guides the way I be and see and feel and dreams and such. But if only I could tell you more on that later.
     
    Wild Fox:
    of Lincoln Hawk!
     
    I first met him at a Bible retreat camp in August of 2007, somewhere in California. It was a special retreat for the youth and young adults, sponsored by The Salvation Army, to stir us up, so we can continue to become all that we must, to become all that God wants us to be. Yeah. I met Lincoln, there.
    He somehow had this intuition and vision to see through my eyes and into my soul and into my potential. He is almost like my father, one that I never completely had. I mean, he is like a brother. Lincoln is a warrior lion, and a nice soft thing, too. He has long hair. He is a youth pastor in long Beach, California. He is an angel and demon. Sorry, he is not a demon. Excuse me for the language. Yeah! At least I did not use the word 'Hell.' My friend, Martina Pound, will be mad at me for using that last word in quotation marks. But Lincoln would understand. Lincoln is a singer, writer, extraordinare. He is more talented than I am. Not that I am talented. But he is a saint with secrets up his sleeves. I would love to say more but the book of destiny has not been published yet. I have to go back to work, anyways. Even tho, today is my sabbath, my day off. I must open my eyes to better see, but this starts with being what I must be.
     
    Become a Bee
    Then go See
     
    That is my story.
    Be a Wild Fox!
    Be a Lincoln!
     
    Play with Lincoln logs!
    Get lost in the Oregon trail!
    Become friends with the youth and marginalized!
     
    Do not steal the following quote, from me:
     
     
     
    "You have my back
    Do not stab me in the back!"
     
     
     
    Just do not get shot!
     
     
    Great Scotts!
    And hit the shots!
    Or rot!
     
     

Sunday, December 16, 2007

  • My last year L4OJ music video by Zack
    http://www.ifilm.com/video/2784492
    <embed width="448" height="365" src="http://www.ifilm.com/efp" quality="high" bgcolor="000000" name="efp" align="middle" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" flashvars="flvbaseclip=2784492&"> </embed> <h1><a href="http://www.ifilm.com/video/2784492">oatmeal</a></h1><span>Posted Nov 01, 2006</span><p>Joey makes a music video, and shares the secrets to his existence.</p>

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Monday, October 15, 2007

  • My Address:

     

    You Are Me.

    Wow.

    Yeah. You think? My story is like your story. Yeah?

    My story started in a ghetto of Oregon… imagine being forgotten by some… imagine your dad, your life, your mom, your friends, being far behind, all as the nemesis, you think… after herding through New York for two years, West Virginia, and now Hawaii, you resign your former thoughts…

    The force of greatest threat was closer…

    I joined the team.

    Revolution Hawaii. We work with the homeless, druggies, drunks, etc. We are learning to love the unlovable. Wow. Eh. It’s tough. We are seeing results… come help? Eh.

    Next year, starting 9/1/08, I want to attend school in Australia, study Drama.

    This is like your story, too. What you think?

    It’s not over…

    Yet.  

    ACLJ

    StreamIt

    ReadIt

     

    Joey Arnold

     

    Revolution Hawaii

     

    2950 Manoa Rd

     

    Honolulu, HI

     

    96822

     

    Expires: 9/1/08

     

    Cell: 503-367-4695

    Contact Me:

     

    Search “L4OJ” to find me on blogs, etc.

    Xanga.

    MySpace

    Bebo

    LiveJournal

    FreeWebs

    FaceBook

    L4OJ@Yahoo.com

    cBbox

    Support:

    You need me.

    I need you. Everything, for this mission year, costs $4,000. I dare you to give a $20 to me, made payable to Salvation Army.

     

     

     

     

Friday, October 05, 2007

  • Update 2007

     

    Update 2007

    10/04/07 r 07:35pm hst JSA Office

     

     

     

    PURPOSE:

    The purpose of writing a support letter is to find people to support me. But I must also talk about my life and get people to see things in new ways. I want to help people and not just ask for money. This part is not included in the actual letter.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Title:

    Update 2007

     

     

    Date:

    10/04/07

    r 07:35pm hst JSA Office

     

     

    From:

    Joey Arnold

    2950 Manoa Rd.

    Honolulu, HI 96822

    L4OJ@yahoo.com

    Cell: 503.367.4695

    Xanga.com/L4OJ

     

    L4OJ:

    Live 4 Only Jesus

     

    L4:

    What are you living for?

     

     

     

    My Mother:

    Marilyn Arnold

    P.O. Box 1031

    Forest Grove, OR 97116

    ArnoldBible1@yahoo.com

    Cell: 503.367.4698

    Xanga.com/HerbLady

     

     

     

    Feedback: Comments, questions, prayers, pictures, or anything: are appreciated and that is why I wrote to you.

     

    Remember: In remembrance of my most longest-lasting and most favorite childhood friend, Tiffany Rochelle Cumbo (12/86-4/03): for her joy, bunny rabbit cuteness spirit; her joy pudding charm, her legacy, and for her L4 personality.

     

     Work:

    I volunteered to do ministry work, alongside six other young adults, on a mission team called “Revolution Hawaii,” from August 31st of 2007 until the summer of 2008. Then, we plan to do more work in Micronesia until the end of August of 2008.

     

    Director:

    Rob Noland

    Info@RevolutionHawaii.com

    RevolutionHawaii.com

     

     

     

    All Rights: If you no longer want to hear from me, if you have complaints or anything, then let me know. But remember that I did write to you, personally, about my life, because I want to hear from you. Thanks.

     

    My Life: has been challenging but it has also, surprisingly, been exciting: sometimes bad but good can come from it; it often seems coincidental but it actually has been directed from God; dangerous even but it is eternally worth it.

     

     

     

    Dear ________________________,

     

    Good has come from bad via my directed life but what about you?

     

    Hey, can you email me some pictures of yourself?

    Because I’m building my own personal daily praying address book.

     

    Can you relate to my three worlds that outlines my life?

    How are you doing, by the way?

     

    Can you support my third world?

    And how can I support you, pray for you?

     

     

    World I.

    My first world, my childhood, my foundation to my life, was good, bad, and worth it; my life has not been a mistake: it has not been directed by coincidence but it has been directed by God (Ephesians 2:10).

     

     

    The good in my life was seen when I was born because I was smiling instead of crying.

     

    I was able to hum songs and draw at an early age. Attended churches, clubs, sports, youth groups, programs, camps, and was home schooled until high school.

     

     

    I attended AWANA, Olympians, Teens Involved, high school dances.

    Been addicted to video games, movies, girls, mysteries, food, life, laughing, etc.

    Was a girl’s high school basketball co-manager.

    Build, invented, and thought up things.

    I was like Tom Sawyer with glasses.

     

    The bad in my life was seen through many tragedies that were suppose to stop me.

     

    Was almost prematurely born at three months.

    My IQ was said to have been 75 at age seven.

    I momentarily thought I was an alien when I was age four because I could not talk well.

     

    I was far behind, educationally.

    Never thought I would be able to say my name, at summer basketball camp, without stuttering or whispering: some thought I was Jerry.

     

    As a family, we faced various perils, even financially.

     

    Out of the bad, more than the good from my life: God was able to direct all that and use it for good (Romans 8:28): for helping me (Philippians 1:6): and for, because of all that in my life, understand, relate, and then help others for the rest of my life.

     

    Because of all that in my life, I may never be rich, famous, cool, or anything: loving God by loving others, loving through action (1 John 4:19), Living 4 Only Jesus (L4OJ), is eternally worth it: but what are you going to do? Who are you Living 4 (L4)?

     

     

     

     

     

    World II.

    My second world, my directed path, can be seen in three aspects.

    I’m amazed at how God is using (directing) the good and bad, in my life, for good, for helping others.

     

    First, I was directed to forming a foundation to my life.

    I attended Word Of Life Bible Institute in New York (2004-2006), and was then part of their children ministry team.

     

    Then, attended Appalachian Bible College in West Virginia (2006-2007): and, now, I work in Hawaii. I was a camp counselor (2005-2007) in Oregon, California, and New York:

     

    for a total of more than twenty weeks.

     

    But I was directed to doing all that before pursuing a career, for what I love in any of the following:

     

    Writing, art. Music, acting, inventing, web design, dance, girls, food, travel, adventure, movies, mysteries, secrets, urban legends, stories, dinosaurs, video games, having fun: anything besides the Bible or helping people.

    I was directed from those desires: now, in my life, I desire helping people.

     

    Second, my verbally abusive, workaholic, never-pay-the-bills-aholic, deceiving-charm-aholic, alcoholic dad left my mom—spring, 2007.

     I was directed home—summer, 2007—to help, support, and get her back on her feet: but did I fail because I’m in Hawaii but she is still in a peril situation in Oregon? But good can come from all this in our lives.

     

    She is earning minimum wage, as a dishwasher, at age 56; but, if not for all that bad in her life, for all her health and other complications, she would off her medications, food stamps, depression, bipolar, financial debts, emotional malfunctions, and other crippling elements.

     

    She would have a better chance at becoming any of the following:

    nutritionist, naturopath, theologian, accountant, singer, writer, editor, English specialist, tutor, counselor, senator, Para-legalist, payroll clerk, librarian, researcher, office manager, psychologist, drug counselor, transcriptionist, actress, or anything.

    But stay in tune. What will happen next in life?

     

     

     

    Third, I’m not sure where I’ll be directed to for next year—starting, 9/1/08.

    But I’m reapplying to Moody Bible Institute (Chicago, IL) to study Historical Theology. If not that, then may I be directed to work, volunteer, or study in Australia, Israel, China, or anywhere in this world. I would also like to study: history, music, art, writing, web design, acting, making movies; plus general courses: math, science, English, science.

     

     

     

    World III.

     

    My third world, my current work in my life, seems bad but there are good things coming from it.

    As a team, alongside six others, we read books, weekly; pray; study the Bible; receive occasional training; help out churches, clubs; volunteer; live, help; love; talk; listen; feed people; teach; play with children; and occasionally, knock on doors, ask “how can I pray for you?,” start a relationship with them: loving them, first, through action.

     

    One week, from Tuesday to Saturday, we lived in two tents, alongside the homeless on the beach.

     

    Hawaii has some of the biggest Crystal Meth (ice) and other drug problems: which makes Hawaii dangerous and in need of hope (Romans 6:23).

     

    Because of that, we have volunteered one year, out of our lives, for spending time with people: with the homeless, needy, druggies, prostitutes, drunks, smokers, gangsters, gays, parents, surfers, and especially the children; regardless of their religion, race, look, or anything. We are learning to do what Christ did on earth.

     

    Not only are we not getting paid, for being missionaries, but we also need $4,000, each.

    The total cost, for everything, is $15,000 but Salvation Army was able to issue, to each one of us, a $11,000 Divisional Tuition Grant to lessen the tuition cost to only $4,000.

     

    It often seems bad, to support, to give money to missionaries, but it could be good (beneficial) for our lives.

     

    Can you be part of my support team?

     

    Can you be part of my third world (of my life)?

     

    If you cannot support me, financially, then can you support me through prayer (say, every Tuesday)?

     

    Hey, whatever you do (good or bad), in your life, please stay in contact with me.

     

    Thanks.

     

     

    Joey Arnold

    Proverbs 3:5-6

    Psalms 119:105

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Need:

    $4,000

     

    Benefit:

    If you would like to be part of my support team, by donating a one-time gift of $20 to help pay for my $4,000 need: then consider these benefits, as follows:

    Benefit I: Connection: I can continue to write to you (about my life) with more details and pictures: keep you updates, answer questions, stay in contact with you; I can challenge, quiz, or even inform you with matters.

    Benefit II: Mention: I could put you in an acknowledgement, when I start writing books. I’ll even put you on a special list, my support team list (which is special in my life).

    Benefit III: Attention: what else can I do for you? Write and draw picture about or for you. I can if you want. Biblically, you could be blessed.

     

     

     

     

    Support:

    If you want to support me, then do the following:

    1. Make your check or money order payable to The Salvation Army (which will be tax deductible; and a receipt will be issued at the end of each calendar year).

    2. Write my name, “Joey Arnold,” on the memo line.

    3. Stick it in the envelope and send it to my address.

Monday, August 27, 2007

  • Live then Love

    People dare not read my buletins anymore because I seem negative... yeah... umm.... sorry..... I need to stop that..... ok.... But I dare to be more live then life... More L4.... what about you.

    Joey Arnold
    that is my name.
    Playing is my game.
    Life has been tough as a college student, counselor, son of my "widowed mom".... never mind.... do you get upset if I talk about sad things? don't you worry because there is hope..... think about what I learned... you can read it if you read this all.... tell me what you think about what I have been learning....


    can you do that?





    Poured Out.
    Daring for the best beyond slugs in mouth.
    Doctors assumed that Joe would never pass the sixth grade, that he was retarded, but he did not quit.... God did not let him... yeah.

    Ok, so I am writing about myself. Yeah. If you know me then you know that I am very upbeat about life, that I always have a smile on my face, I am full of creativity, and I want to make this world a better place... yeah... ok... does that make sense? You will also know that every once in a while, I feel depress and I just complain, like anybody else, that all is doom and lost.

    Tragedy is in the face of my family, as everybody faces it in some way or another. That is sad. People need money. I need money. We need money. I get tired. You get tired. We get tired. Yeah. I am bored. You are bored. Yeah. But somehow I wish I can communicate that beyond those similarities are differences in the problems that we all face. My biggest tragedy is not of my mom and her survival, or of her ability to make a difference in this world. My biggest problem is not in my education, my siblings, my health, my travels, my possible future wife, my money, or anything of those nature; but my biggest problem, as it be yours too, is that of submission. Big word, huh? No.

    Tragedy is in me. I have been stressed during the last several years of my life. Each week is tougher. I am realizing that I must trust God and stop being so selfish. Yeah, I face many problems. You do too. We all do. Ok. Yeah. That is life. But how will I deal with it. I want to think that I know it all. I know the Bible. I can be so selfish. I think that I have all the answers or the ones that count. I think this and that. Yeah. And so do you. God do things in our lives so that we can learn to live for Him, which is best.

    I could talk about what I have done in my life or I could go out there and continue to do it. I think I need to continue to live. I need to continue to make a difference. I am tired of only living for myself. L4. I want to L4. I want to Live for only Jesus. L4OJ. I want to. I dare. I am just a boy. I have been stressed or bothered with life. I am learning. Eh. What do I say. I am growing up. How can this be. I have fell in love several times in my life. I still do. But every time I fall in love then. Eh... ummm.... like, I need to realize that first and only love is in L4. Right? Yeah. I mean, who reads my notes? You do. Right? Good. If you have never had the desire to be like me then good because I will fail you. Be like my Creator. If you have desired to be like me then I am flatter but be like Jesus. Hey. And if you have ever wanted to date me then... ummm... ok. Well then I am really flattered but never mind that. Have a date with jesus. Amen. But really.


    Personally, I may go to Hawaii but then again I may not. Ok. here I am writing about my life. Do you hear me? I just want you to know that I am ok. Life may be ok but I am somewhat ok. But at the same time I am not. I think I am getting over the "does that girl like me" phase of my life and now I am moving onto bigger things in my life. But it is tough. So many people. So many things and issues. I know the Bible and I have studied it for three years. I need to be focused and content. yeah. i can do that. So many decisions. So many things on my mind.

    But I am commited to loving life more than before. But not in a silly stupid way. But in a real genuine inspirational strawberry pinnapple sparkle liout of my life kind of way. My mom bought me strawberries and soy milk. Yeah. I don't know about you but I like that. I like that. I have met a daring soul friend dude by the name of Lincoln Hawk. I am learning life, life, and dedication from him. I like that. I love how God does amazing things. i am learning to laugh even when I almost got ran over on my bike today. I got real upset with myself but I cannot be just serious all day. So, live life with a mission but do also live it with a smile and a life.

    Can you do that?

Friday, August 24, 2007

  • Music to live by... not die like my mom... eh

     

    Music is my sidekick, my passion (apart from my desire to save my mom because nobody is helping).............

    Should I make a survey right now?

    1. what kind of music do you like? Inspiriational ones. But do I need to name names?
    2. What does music do to you? Give me a new look at life. Wakes me up.
    3. Why do people have so many music songs? Because they are not content but I plan to change that with my music
    4. What kind of music would you, Joey Arnold, write? The kind that would motivate and wake up all those who care to be the best, to make a difference in this world


    So, there you go. Some survey I made myself. But I must learn to sing and write and dance and present, and to be a nicer person of more appreciation, according to my sister Crystal. Yeah. What can I say? What should I do?

     

    To anybody: what is your favorite kind of music and why? And what music do you not like and why?

     

    L4?????


     

Thursday, August 23, 2007

  • My Mom is facing death:

    Mom: Marilyn Kathleen Arnold
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    Mud-stucked jewel
    A heart-filled mother of a beauty-filled family. L4
    Tragedy haunts my mother. Sad mad bad way to start article. Eh. Yeah. My mom needs a job (she could counsel, tutor, housekeep, book keep, account, type, record, think, decide, and so much more with her wisdom, grace, and patience) but I must state her current situation. I pray and dare those who care to spread these words to others, please. What do you think? L4

    Tragedy is this. My dad left my mom. My mom has a job but needs a better job but she cannot just get any job. My mom is amazing in many areas but there are still problems. It is hard to explain. Life does not make sense for me. I was in college in West Virginia but somehow came back home to Oregon to face trouble. I did not want to but who else would help my mom. As a counselor all summer with Salvation Army at Camp Kuratli's wilderness program in Boring, Oregon I was then able to earn about one thousand dollars, in which I gave all to my mom. I am keeping my eyes open because I want to get my mom back on her feet. It is weird but I see God's hand in the mist of all this pain and badness. I cannot understand the good and the bad. Eh. Ok. Yeah. What can I say. Ok. So, let me tell you more. You must understand the deepness to these problems.

    Tragedy started over time. Now, as a disclaimer, I will not blame my mother for the entire situation that is among us in its whole but do know that there are consequences to actions, be it good and bad. Ok. So, I am saying that all the good and bad is because of God, Satan, you, me, and everything kind of in a combination. But I am not saying that you cannot blame people for wrong decisions. Like, if a man kills a woman then do not blame it solely or merely on Satan. Get this. Life is a mix. But here is my mom's story:
    as the oldest, and more study-oriented, child alongside two other siblings, my mother was not liked always by family. After her mother died when she was about 19, she was heart broken, and still remains sad a little. Her step-mom never liked her. My mom had eaten too much junk food and did not take care of herself during her life through until her mid thirties. And during the past twenty years she gain much weight, like a balloon, faced deep depression around the year 1996, and became poor in health about a decade ago. So she went down hill so deep. But do know that is much better now and has lost so much weight. And is now eating healthy and stuff, now. So, life is a roller coaster.
    Ok. So, she was married to some cop she met, Ron Hunter at around age 22 or so. At a young age. But then Ron left her because he wanted kids and doctors said that she was too weak for kids. Sad. Too weak huh? She had four kids later which meant she had labor pains with me which she could have died from Or I could have. Ok. So her first husband, Ron, left. Sad. Ron's next wife was too weak to have kids and so Ron, as far as I know, has no kids. Take that for not having like say faith in God or whatever. Never mind. Sorry but it was sad. And so later my dad somehow follows my mom a couple of years later near the end of the 1970's. He held a Bible in his hand and even got baptized. Let me tell you more about my dad in the next paragraph. But are you L4?

    My dad's dad died before he was two and his mom died later. He was born around Los Angeles, California but then was adopted around the age of two. Then lived many years in Medford, a city near the bottom part of Oregon. Life was poor, unlike my mom who had wealthier parents (who are not interested in helping my mom, today). So, life was depressing to him but he got use to it. My dad learned to work hard outside in landscaping, maintenance, like hard work. My dad has much charm, personality, a spark to his eyes, often content and lovable, caring, ever so hard working beyond anything I ever have seen, a heart for caring (but in only what he knows), and a heart never to give up on getting jobs done; yet not patient or always teachable or understanding. So. Like. I am trying to say that my dad developed the foundation to who he would become early on in life. He played basketball in school through college and then city league. In college he was a very good point guard at five feet and six inches, and he played alongside my Uncle "Woof" Jim Williams, 6'3" or so. They played at Umpqua, a college, known for great ice-cream, in Oregon by Roseburg. But like, my dad fought a lot with kids. Normal. Sure. Wrestling. Football. His new adopted parents were Mormons. My dad just went along with. Did not know that there is a difference between Mormons and any other religions. He did not think much of it but it got into his head. Sadly. In his twenties he would drink a lot and get into many problems any where. My dad is a great guy but makes bad mistakes and from his teens developed the habit of swearing and so still swears all the time to this very day, and is a little drunk all the time to this very day. He has lost his license many times and currently has none.
    Jan was my dad's first wife. They were married and divorced around the same time my mom was married to Ron. Somehow, when my dad was not married, he was taking care of his adopted mom when he was about 25 (almost like how I am) until she died. Ok, so somehow Jan just left him I believe. I do not think she died. Later she had kids I think. But then again I don't remember. But he held onto her Bible somehow. There are a lot of things I do not know about my dad because he works, normally, every day. "In a heart beat," my dad would say. "Like totally."
    Married about four months before the oldest, Katie, was born in 1980. Weird how my dad went after my mom and somehow acted like a Christian with his Bible. It was not even his Bible, we discovered several years ago. My dad would go to church sometimes and stop drinking for a few months a few times in his life. One time, get this, he was drunk around the year 1982 but my mom somehow managed to get out of the car with my oldest sister and walked probably more than a dozen miles to some destination (with Katie on her back). Later, my dad crashed into a cement wall. He was cussing all around the doctors and everything. Sad. It was like God saying, wake up and trust me as your only Savior. My dad has had many wake up calls in his life. Too many things have went bad. My dad should be dead by now because of all the tragedy and mistakes but God's grace. I do not understand it completely. It blows my mind away. Too many things.


    Tragedy because my mom married my dad, you could say. Some people would want to reject any good from a situation like that but I find that all this evil helped developed me. So, from early on in the marriage in 1980, my dad started showing his true colors of being the unsaved, verbally abusive, and alcoholic/workaholic fool that he has somehow became. Can I call my dad a fool? A fool says in his heart that there is no God. well, my dad has expressed hate for God. Like, why does God let bad things happen. My dad has witness many bad things. Who does not want to hate God. But what about God's justice and even His grace for how God has taken care of so many people, including my dad. My mom has witness to my dad so many times during the last twenty-eight years. It is sad. I do not know what to say. My dad has had girl friends. Bad things. I am not aware of everything that my dad does. But it is sad.

    The problems:

    She is not officially divorced or widowed but it is sad to have lived with a drunk for almost three decades. She had spent most of those years not sleeping at night and in high stress, emotional trauma, and so many other things. She cannot have a job with deadlines or strict requirements. This is sad. She is good at many things but does not have the official diplomas or degrees to let her do what she is already qualify to do. She could counsel, tutor, housekeep, book keep, people keep, learn, teach, study, write, type, be a secretary, human relations, be a health expert as she knows so much, counsel people with God's word, witness, love, care, and so much more. I have looked for jobs for her but cannot find one. I am sad. What do I do? What can I say? What can you do?

    More about her:

    There are many things I can say about my mother. She is a singer, song writer, thinker, and everything else. there is both bad and good to say but mostly good. Oh by the way, if you are taking notes then I have this home-videos collection at home that I need transfered to DVD. Think about it. I want to save the world. Oh, and I may be going to Hawaii. And, this trailer we have been in for the last 22 years is nearing death in many ways. Help, anybody. Life is weird but God's hand is among it all somehow.



    What do you think? How can you help? L4

Monday, July 16, 2007

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    3. Third: go to my notes:
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Thursday, July 05, 2007

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

  • BLESSINGS-UNKNOWN:

    BLESSINGS-UNKNOWN: My mom lived through haunting life-threatening circumstances but with lacking the support & love from most friends & family. FOR ME, THIS SUMMER: RETURN HOME: OREGON: My one-way airplane ticket [5/13/07 s] takes me to what I love & hate most in life, "Home." I have been requested to help my mom, but what about my college-education??? Will I be stuck there forever?????? I want to help her but I also want to help others. TALENTED/ VARIOUS: Nobody trusts her but she can help other: she knows much about health, home-schooling, relationships, cooking, & so much more. Most people call my mom crazy, mainly because of my mom's health problems. Everything seems impossible, even more than the circumstances of the past. My mom is taking college courses but my dad is against her & I am amazed that she is still alive. Due to many problems my mom can't simple get a regular job.



    What would you do?


     
     

Friday, March 23, 2007

  • My College Search List

    SEARCH: Make a simple list as follows of colleges you need to try, pursuit, and even reject [at least for now].

    I. TRY

    II. PURSUIT

    III. REJECT

    I. TRY

    ASA >$9K…. ARIZONA WESTERN COLLEGE: Institute of Business and Computer Technology >$11K. www.asa.edu.

    http://www.azwestern.edu/student_services/financial_aid/cost_of_attendance.html

    MGC ,$8K. https://www.mgc.edu/admissions/pdf/Fall%20Fees%202006.pdf. Middle Georgia College. $67/credit hour. https://www.mgc.edu/admissions/pdf/Fall%20Fees%202006.pdf

    Cochran, GA. http://www.middlegatech.edu/admissions/finaid/

    OSU Oklahoma State University: Okmulgee. Okmulgee, OK

    State University of New York College of Technology at Alfred. Alfred, NY

    II. PURSUIT

    ABC: Stay here as long as you can because it is great here despite possible loan-debt.

    PCC $4,305/06-07. PORTLAND COMMUNITY COLLEGE; PCC: Affordable, and you can help your mom while doing that.

     

    WTS $7k/yr apx. Western Texas College. http://www.wtc.edu/counseling/packet/admissioninfo.htm. Computer Science: http://www.wtc.edu/academic/computerscience/index.htm

    III. REJECT

    ZION BIBLE COLLEGE: <$12k. Zbc.edu bible BA

    LAKE WASHINGTON TECHNICAL COLLEGE: $71/CREDIT OR $604/12 CREDITS BUT NO ROOMS?? http://search.atomz.com/search/?sp_a=sp08015f00&sp_f=iso-8859-1&sp_q=fees

     

    MOODY: Didn't accept me for 07-08. http://mmm.moody.edu/GenMoody/Media/MediaLibrary/under_academic_programs.pdf

    PENSACOLA: Financially, maybe, I would still owe them around $4k/yr. http://www.pcci.edu/Academics/Majors/Business/ComputerScienceSoftEng.html

    TEXAS BAPTIST COLLEGE: <$8k. http://texasbaptistcollege.org/catalog.htm. 1/4/07 Thur 12:30PM AST. But only like Bible majors and not anything of computers, arts, drama, writing, or anything not of Bible.

    SHASTA BIBLE COLLEGE: >$8.4K. Shasta.edu. B.A. Degree in Bible and Theology. Shasta Bible College & Graduate School. Admissions Office. 2951 Goodwater Ave. Redding, CA 96002

    CAMERON $16,528/YR. Cameron University; Lawton, OK. http://www.cameron.edu/admissions/international/estimatedcosts

    GLOBE: >$10K/YR BUT NO ROOMS? Globe Institute of Technology. Tuition: $4,475/sem. http://www.globeinstitute.org/Programs/TUITION%20AND%20FEE1.pdf

    New York, NY

    UNIVERSITY OF FLORIDA UNIV >19K UFL.EDU

    EASTERN KENTUCKY UNIVERSITY >$8K TUITION ALONE: JEN MOORE PLANS TO ATTEND THIS FOR FALL 07. EKU.EDU

    UNIVERSITY OF OREGON >$15K UOREGON.EDU

    UNIVERSITY OF FLORIDA UNIV >19K UFL.EDU

    Oregon state beavers >$17k. Oregonstate.edu

    WESLEY COLLEGE: <$20K. WESLEY.EDU

    TOCCOA FALLS  COLLEGE >$18K TFC.EDU WRITING

    Covenant: >$22k. Covenant.edu.

    Grace: <$25k. Grace.edu.

    BELMOUNT >$18k UNIV Nashville, Ten. http://www.belmont.edu/

    FLORIDA STATE UNIVERSITY >$10K I THINK:  HTTP://WWW.FSU.EDU/

     

     

    WOLBI: <$14k. wolbi.net. Already attended: 04-06.

     

Thursday, March 22, 2007

  • Anyone know anything about computer-major colleges in Europe, Australia, Florida, Russia, Japan, anywhere?

    Teach english as second language but how..... How could I find a college or something that can teach me how to teach Koreans or anyone English???? I am still thinking of a community/ technical/ computer college ......... this is actually the day that I thought about this after talking to a friend who will go to China or something to teach English after he is done at this college [ABC]. That lunch conversation inspired me and now my eyes must be open for such because the windows and opportunities and experiences are out there and I must not turn from such blessings and potentials as such.


    but I still want to take a few like electives like such.

Monday, March 19, 2007

  • COLLEGE SEARCH: 3/19/07 m 9-11am, in reflection: my college search, during my life, as follows: a brief thought arrived during tenth grade, but I did not worry because I assume that I it would be a long time before I would have to worry about that. During my Senior year in high school, I somehow failed to find anything except for Word Of Life Bible Institute, a school that I did not need because I knew the Bible, I thought. If anything, I would attend WOLBI in Florida because New York is too cold. Later, while at WOLBI in NY, I spent many hours searching for farther education; yet have failed at finding what I wanted to find; thus, I am now at Appalachian Bible College, in West Virginia. I did not think I would need to attend ABC, but it was exactly what I needed.
    Somehow, I am still searching [as if I just never learn], and still trying to avoid what seems to be as a mistake. I want to avoid debt; plus, I want to be at a more complex school with more people, options, problems, solutions, and such. I want to learn computer trades and somehow use that for the rest of my life. I want to get a doctorate in something Biblical, like Theology but I want to have a grasp on computers first. My search is tiresome but I am not sure if I will ever get anything out of this search. I feel like I have already learned about colleges, searching, and such because of the search but how do I know if I have searched enough? Am I wasting time? Is it foolish to assume that I know what I need to know about colleges and that I should not continue looking for a college that probably does not exist? How am I both excited about the school I am at right now [ABC] but yet burden for finding my next school for next year; all this both at the same time?
    I love my school [ABC] but also hate it at the same time, but how is this possible?

Saturday, March 17, 2007

  • CHEAP WEB DESIGN COLLEGE SEARCH

    How can I find a cheap computer-science or web-design [major/ degree] college?

     

    I have looked and have not found anything. My best option is to stay at my current Bible college, ABC, and maybe somehow avoid getting another loan for next year and then next somehow register for online classes for next year..... My second best option is to attend a community college back at home but this is not a suitable option due to a scary home..... my third option does not actually exist but it is a dream of somehow finding a cheap computer college somewhere, like maybe under $5-10k.yr.

     

    Is it ok to dream? What should I do? People normally go in debt while in college, therefore, why would you even want to help me avoid what is only normal?

Thursday, March 15, 2007

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    • Will Smith
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