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| Beautiful LiePeople strive to live to the fullest.. But tell me why when I blacked out according to Simon for 15-20 seconds, I felt free. I didn't breathe, think, or felt anything. Within those few seconds, I felt as if I was dead. Now, I don't know what's wrong with me. I could have some new disease that doctors have never encounter or I could just have a simple virus or an appendicitis. Who knows.. What I do know is that I don't care if I live or die. I think the time spent half dead made me realize who and what I am. I'm a person that gives up and allows things to slide. I accept whatever is delivered and I don't question. Yeah.. this is me. Now, I understand my birthday is tomorrow, and I can't promise myself I'll be okay. You see, my body changes from pain to abnormal temperature. Perhaps the day of my birth will be a normal day. I'm just going to let things happen. I guess ignoring the situation is what I do best.
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| Where my heart belongs... There are times where I can’t believe that I have something oh so great. You’ve fulfilled the loneliness that I’ve buried inside of me. You’ve held my hand and walked me through when I was in the depths of sadness. And when I spilled my soul, you helped me realize the truth within me. I don’t know how I get through so many problems. You are the true meaning of love. I never thought I’d find someone like you, nor did I ever think I’d fall in love. The immense feeling you’ve delivered to me is like a drug. I truly can’t get enough of it. I want to thank you for the great 6 months you’ve given/shared with me. I love you! And oh yeah… Happy 6 months! (yeah, we’re corny, but I don’t care.) | | |
| PHOTOS!!! from my bday to the gamma party 
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| My birthdayWhat more can I say, but it turned out the way I wanted. I think this year was the 1st awesome birthday, and all I did was eat sushi with a few people. This and next week will be awesome. I'm actually going to go all out, and not get distracted with this stress i've been holding in. Hmm.. thursday, friday, sept. 15, and sept 16 are going to be memorable.. simply because i'm just partying those days. I think I deserve it. I've been buckled down with my studies that I'm about to explode. I'm excited for next week when I arrive in Houston. I'm going to be with the people I love on my birthday. I'm not sure where I'm having it, but why does that matter. I'll be in Houston, and it can't get any better than that. There will be info on where and when the party will be held. I guess I gotta head back to my studies. I can't get too distracted in my excitement... things are kinda looking up :) | | |
| Back in HoustonHugged my sister who I haven't seen in awhile. Maybe it's been a short two weeks that I haven't seen her, but I feel as if I lost track in her life. I've spoken to my mom on web cam, since she's in australia. It still breaks my heart everytime she says, "I love you.. please come back home." At times, I just want to cry right infront of her, but I can't. I even choked on my own tears when my sister gave me a hug when I arrived in Houston. I know I have a mission, and it is to do well in Austin. I need concentration and I left to runaway from distraction, but my head is so tied up. Luckily, I have people that give great advice, especially those that recently left comments on my page. Thank you... So, I just had a conversation with Simon. I've examined my characteristics that make me so pessimistic. I hate to admit, but I am a coward. I'm afraid of many things, and that holds me back from great changes. I really need to work on my fear... I just don't know where to start. Maybe the cry for comfort will lessen.. Who knows... I guess I just have to have faith. | | |
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