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Name: Katy
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Fairfield
Birthday: 11/8/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: singing, listening to music, drawing, painting, playing guitar (what little i can), , shopping, drinking coffee, hanging out with friends, school, playing baseball and volleyball, and eating.
Expertise: being ditzy. sometimes. making faces. posing for photographs. circular arguments.
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AIM:  kdsfrodofan
Yahoo:  katy_sessions
Member Since:
12/16/2005
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| As I Stand Upon the ShoreRushing waves, they bare the sand
This sifting ground on which I stand
To ponder the span of the horizon
How far between ocean and land?
Saturated grains surround my feet
Slowly, slowly their burial complete
Waves crash round them, and wash them clean
Again for the process to repeat
I watch the water recede to its sanctum
Marveling at its perpetual momentum
Contemplating the vastness of the ocean’s expanse
To look from land it would seem infinitum
Turning away I catch a glint
A bright light compels me to squint
Rays of sun illuminate before my eyes
An object small and beautifully mint
Reaching to take it in my grasp
Within murky waves it eludes my clasp
Yet their inexorable retreat again reveals a brilliant sparkle
I snatch it from its sunny bask
Cradled in my palm, a pearl
Pricelessly beautiful as a young girl
As I contemplate its provenance
My gaze is swept into the ocean’s whirl
From its depth it gives to me
A precious gift, to land, from sea
The ocean, boundless, vast, and terrible
Has birthed on sand a sight to see
So as I stand upon the shore
And hear the waves foreboding roar
As I ask “How far between?”
Joy I hold, I fear no more
My eyes behold a lovely sight
This precious piece of light
A beacon for my path across the depths toward the sunlit skyline
Whence it received its beauty bright.
My eyes fixed on this brilliant horizen
My jewel I carry till I reach Zion
-Katy Sessions
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| I awoke an hour early this moring…for some reason I had in my schedule in my head functioning on an earlier time than it should have been. I decided to try and use the time for introspection…with guidance from God’s Word (I feel like I do a lot of introspection, but too often I am guided by my own counsel, and therefore reach conclusions that are not always grounded were they should be).
My ponderings of late have often have consisted of discontentment with my circumstances, frustration with several people, and impatience with God. I suppose without realizing it, I have been living in a way that questions God, wether I have done so in an outright manner or not. What I mean by this is, constant wondering why things have to be the way they are, allowing my mood to swing as a result of circumstances, allowing what people to or say to me affect how I view myself, etc.
So, this morning I opened to Job chapter 38, not purposefully, yet it was just what my restless, questioning mind needed to hear. The first verse opens with God asking Job, after his friends had scathed him with rebuke, “Who is this that darkens counsel, by words without knowledge?” This I thought, would be my own self. The way in which I have been choosing to look at life is a darkened view, because it is mine, not God’s. After this question, God proceeds to ask Job the rhetorical questions, beginning with “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?”. As I read, I thought more and more about all of the things I allow to trouble me. Things that I seem to question God about in my manner of thinking. I began to see, as I always do when I consider the depth and height of God’s knowledge and wisdom, how very very stupid I must seem to Him. Not in a derogatory sense of the word, but how very small, how very “wraught up over nothing” thing that I am before Him.
As I have considered this throughout the day, my inadequacy to understand my own life, and what God has ordained for me, I have been reminded of the words of the apostle Paul “For me, to live is Christ, to die is gain.” (Phil. 1:21) If I am wanting answers to questions about life…and what it means to truly “live” what better place to start.
I feel as though I have only ever had glimpses of the kind of life that Christ calls us to. I have often wondered how in the world He could have been obedient unto death as He was. I look at the lives of the apostles as well, how intensely they often suffered, yet had a greater joy than most people who have all earthly pleasures they could ever want. I also look at people around me, certain professors and fellow students of mine who have been through what we would call an earthly hell, yet they are the most joyful people I know. Why is it that I have so much trouble just “getting” it? I think it is because I lose the vision, the long term goal, the Kingdom vision that Jesus preached about, lived, and died for. The day when He would be King, and all would again be restored as it should be. I live my daily life, for life, not for the Kingdom. I let my thoughts and emotions be caught up in what is happening to me at the moment, or what will happen in the next five years. This is something I see, but I don’t know if I have the strength to let go of. Can I completely let those things, earthly things go…and live as a citizen of the Kingdom to come, where all is submitted to Christ? If I can’t or you can’t, we cannot be part of it. We are then, by definition, “of the world”.
So, with this I have challenged myself..or rather, Christ has challenged me. If I cannot count the things which are gain to me as loss for the sake of Christ, if I cannot let go of those things which I allow to dictate my attitude, my mood, my outlook, I cannot call myself a follower of Him. I must indeed make my hope in Him, allow His peace to rule in my heart, His joy to overflow, and His love to change me daily.
As a reminder to myself as well….to be happy and to be joyful are two drastically different things. Joy, yes I can find in Christ, even through suffering. But happiness is a thing that comes and goes with the wind. Those who seek it will never find what they are looking for.
-Katy
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| Its a New Year!! How exciting!
I am sitting on my bed now, redesigning my xanga, updating my profile on facebook...annnd, fixing to watch an A-mazing episode of "The Office"...so you should be able to tell that I'm bored and have nothing to do...otherwise I wouldn't spend my time so worthlessly..lol. I just thought I would say hello...since I hadn't in awhile and hope all my xanga friends are having a GREAT holiday season!!
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| So yesterday day was the dawning of my twentieth year....I find it rather hard to believe at times. Not that the number 20 is so weird or different to me, rather that the dreams and hopes of the future that surrounded it in my mind when I was a child, being now my present life. I laugh at some of the things I used to imagine I would be doing at this age...things I now understand better and are just part of everyday life. Its strange how I never really thought that much about college if I remember right....I was more into what proffession I would be in, job I would have, etc. Also, the highlight of course was who I would marry and thinking I would probably be married or at least in love by this age. Also I imagined I would be so mature and godly by 20..haha...a level that exceeds where I find myself at right now. Now I understand how much more slowly life unwraps itself..that you can't have a proffession until years of college work has been put into it, you can't get married until the right person is found, you can't be be godly without much prayer, seeking, and discipline.
So, now I guess I would say I'm still just in the process of attaining those goals. So I suppose childhood dreams are much like books..they hit all the high points of life and leave out alot of the time in between that is spent working one's way to those highlights. Authors leave it out because it would be boring just to read...but actually it is those very things that shape the outcome of the protagonist's life...the daily things that he or she spends time doing, thinking about, and saying build one upon another until they produce the outcomes that we all dream or imagine as children. Thinking about this makes me desire to make the most of every day in drawing closer to the Lord, working diligently at my school, and developing deep and lasting relationships with family and friends. Sometimes I find myself very unhappy because what I imagine or think should happen doesn't and life just rolls on and on. It irritates me sometimes that the world won't stop when I'm angry about the way its turning...haha. This however, is sinful...because first of all it is questioning God's will and plan for my life, secondly, it is be discontent and ungrateful for what He has blessed me with, and thirdly it is not focusing on the present and making the most of every moment.
My goal then, is to make these days in which I am working, studying, and living life...a beautiful aroma to the Lord...and not waste the precious time and people which He has given me by always looking at what I want to come about. I find if I focus more attention on these everyday things..I don't find myself as unhappy and disappointed because I haven't set my heart on anything but what my Lord and Master brings about to happen. I know I won't always be perfect in this...far from it at times I am afraid. But it is a goal I find comforting, encouraging, and one that adds brilliancy to the sometimes bleakness of the every day.
There is much to be excited about this time of year anyway!!! 1. The weather 2. Thanksgiving and school break! 3. Christmas around the corner 4. David coming home!!
I am absolutely loving school, I enjoy all of my classes (cepting maybe OT survey). Greek is so cool...Dr. Berry makes Church history amazing...and of course Dr. Spencer makes Ancient world incredible!! The studying isn't too hard for any of them and really like all the stuff I get to learn. Other than that, the people I am blessed to have as friends are great! My commuting group is an amazing support to me..and I really enjoy the hours of talking that I spend with these people. Others at school are awesome too...lot of people that love the Lord and love life too.
As of this weekend I am sitting at home doing nothin right now...going to wash some clothes and clean the house in a little bit. Tomorrow I my grandmother and I am going to Dallas to do shopping, I finally have some money to shop with...I have been so broke this semester.. And also...tomorrow night....SHANE & SHANE are in Dallas and I'm going to see em!! whoo hoo...this is their "Pages" tour which is gonna be so amazing live...songs like "Burn Us Up", "Over the Sun", and "In You", great stuff. So I am excited...tomorrow will be alot of fun..Lord willing...and here I will end my update...for it is gotten quite long (once I start writing, my fingers and thoughts won't stop).
Peace Out.
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| I LOVE THE COLD WEATHER!!!!!!!
yay. fall is finally here! i am thankful to Lord, for He has given me something to smile about. 
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