| dang...looong time... i live in columbus and my aunt died. i work three jobs. thats about all thats changed... i completely forgot about xanga cuz i write on myspace. i really want to get back in school, but i need to be working like 70hrs//wk so... |
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| homecoming was awesome...i got to see shane again...we didnt really "talk" talk, but thats okay...ill be up to see him once i get my jetta... which i know isnt for another couple months, but considering ive only seen//talked to my best freakin friend less than a dozen times [[in person, online, & phone]] w/in the past two years, i think i can wait another couple months... besides. im used to waiting... but yeah. i thoroughly enjoyed seeing shane again. you dont even know. but i was royally fucking pissed the fuck off because i didnt get to play tuba. that crushed me. i wanted to cry. i <3 tuba. so here are my tears  ::sniff sniff boo hoo:: im serious...i was so totally looking foreward to playing tuba... if only if only... god damm mother fuckers... ight im done...im getting a lil mad... |
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| yeah, i dont believe ill be going back to northern. im going to take a class or two at osum next quarter, and go from there. i dont think i need to jump head first back into school, when i havent actually worked and tried since...oh id say eighth grade...so after i take a couple classes at marion, ill see if i want to go back to onu, or just transfer to osu main campus. my life just keeps getting better and better...not. every step i take foreward only leads me two fucking steps back. how and the hell am i supposed to get ahead in life? its fucking impossible and im about fucking sick of it. nothing works out even close to how it should. i just wanna crawl in a hole and fucking die. thats how i feel atm, and thats how ive felt for a while. and thats prolly how ill continue feeling for a while. because im always drug back and pushed further and further into a hole i cant see out of... |
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| you can see my tat in my profile pic. its pimp. i <3 it!
so ive heard from him his reason for breaking up w/ me...idk if i believe it or not thought... but i also dont really care atm. all i know is that there are several guys who think im hott and are interested in me...so ima have some fun for a min and see whats up...theres this one dude...omg hes totally gorgeous. i chilled w/ him all night a couple days ago. it was fun...and i mean alll night.
ight well...yeah. yalls need to check out my myspace site. http://www.myspace.com/madhatter0420 its pretty cool...i like it at least. it wastes time. lol.
peace yalls. |
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| so...apparently i was wrong about why he broke up w/ me...so idk what the real reason is. all i know is that in a couple months ill be back at onu, and away from this hellhole of a town... |
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