lady_of_winter's Xanga

Friday, December 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 01:35:11 GMT

Somewhere between life and college apps, I fell very much away from Xanga. Yep.

Facebook ftw, much?

That's what I thought. Yay Facebook.

So nervous about college. So so so so--

--whoo, insomnia. -swoons-

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 23:16:07 GMT

sakushi: Hamasaki Ayumi
sakkyoku: Ferry Corsten
henkyoku: Ferry Corsten

mikakete, mitsukete, misadamete iru
mitsumete, midarete, mitasarete, iru demo...
miagete, mikakete, mikurabete iru hora
mikubiru, mitoreru, mihanasarete'ru

sou bokura wa arayuru subete no basho de tsunagatte iru kara
kono kotoba ni tsuite kangaeru kimi to datte mou sude ni

aa bokura ga itsu ka eien no nemuri ni tsuku koro made ni
totteoki no kotoba o hatashite ikutsu kawaseru no darou?

---
I see, I find, I make sure.
I stare, I'm fascinated, I'm satisfied, but

I look up, I see, I compare.
I despise, I stray, I'm abandoned.

We're connected at each and every place so
when I think this word, you'll already know.

Oh, by the time we sleep deeply,
how many precious words will we have exchanged?

That bit of lyrical beauty over...I don't know. I'm walking into an irreversible future. I might not even reach it before next year. I'm full of confusion and resentment and grumpiness and self-righteous teenage raaaaage [/harry potter] but somehow, I'm regarding my impending implosion with calm and a grain of salt.

...no, I'm not sure what that was, either. Aaanyhow.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 19:17:14 GMT

And now, the actual entry!~

...Actually, no. Everything perninent has already been rambled out on my LJ, meaning life, liberty, school-college-theatre. But if you want to catch up, e-mail meh at -artemis dot winter at gmail dot com- (what? I fear spambots.) and I'll send you my cell number.

...

Seriously, I haven't talked voice-to-voice with some of you since-- well; Miramar kids, 1.5 years. Non-Floridian kids, 5 years and counting. What I find almost absurdly entertaining is how everyone's voices have changed but in the most fundamental way, we all look the same as we did in elementary/middle school. Gaaack.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 19:01:51 GMT

New transliteration.

"KI-SE-KI" (Mi~ra~cle) by BeForU

Uncertain bits are in brackets. Also, please don't use without credit-- I seem to be visited by random people...

[t]ookiku nanika ga ugoki[ru] shiteru
mou sude ni nanika ga hajimeatteta
hitomi no okunimie[na]
kasunderu keshiki ni wa
sorezore no hana ga saku
me wo kimeru hana

ima koso [ana]ta na
tobira wo [kiraku] toki
soko ni wa watashi ga iru
anata na sekai ga aru

-shinjitete sono kiseki wa
tashun[kana] kagayakiri michi de
[tabu]chiru hikari no zumu
subete wo kaerareru
inochi nakushita hana ni
hikari no shizuku o[do]shinara
kumou [z]ake mi nareru
jiri yukou tomoshirazu ni

[do]reku rai aruki tsuzukete darou
mayoi tachizuku miyura ugoku kokoro
kooru wa toikara koso
sutawa [k]osuru imi ga aru
sou [o]iki kase nagara
watashi wa takamete

yuku dareka ni kizuite
goshikute sakendetta
watashi ga koko ni iru to
anata na watashi ga iru

-shinjitete sono kiseki wa
mabushiku kagayaki tsuzukeru
hito[tsu]ji no hikari wa
unmei no [u]jishirube
inochi wo buki kaeshira
kiseki no hana wo mitsuketara
umare kawareru koto
utsukushii sono imi ga wataru

ima wo ikiru subete no mono aruki tsuzukete yuku
shiranu uchi ni mayoi waki e harukana mirai e to
anata ni mou saku toki wa kumu unmei no hana
kiseki wa otozume soshite kagayaite yuku darou

[n]atto sou anata wo tobira wo [u]raku toki
soko ni wa anata ga iru anata na anata ga iru

-shinjitete sono kiseki wa
saigo no kagayaki ni michi de
nani mo kamo wo [tsutsumi]
subete wo kaete yuku
inochi nakushita hana ni
kiseki no hikari terashi [na]ra
[kou] [aniz]aki tsuzukeru
ji[r]iyuku koto mo shiranu mama

-shinjiteta sono kiseki wa
saigo no kagayaki hana [a]tte
nani mo kamo wo terashi
subete wo kaete yuku

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 17:25:44 GMT

Because while glaring at the college application on my desk (funny that the ones that sent me applications are...the ones I've gotten awards from?) and lamenting my utter suckage at life (in the sense that life equals credentials pre-college. I win and am queen of everything else) while listening to the utterly gorgeous "pearl : the best collection" album by the lovely and flabbergasting closet geek Kokia, all I can offer is these words to ponder:

And lo, they came upon life, and decided that opposable thumbs were merit enough to create an economy, an educational system, and an actual way of living determined to thoroughly defeat the purpose of nature.

-facepalm-

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 22:15:25 GMT

The Muse website has the most awesome layout ever known to man. Here.

http://www.muse.mu/

And Knights of Cydonia is a great song.

-hugs Mobius- *____*

Monday, July 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 18:13:36 GMT

(Dani, I was speaking seriously last post! XD It's a long story.)

This is practically going to be my transliteration journal because I keep finding songs out there with no lyrics, and so I have to write them out. I love this song.

Except, it's in English this time. LE GASP.

So It Is
--QED

birds of a feather flock in a pack
you can't fight the government or paint a cloud black

so it is written, so it is done
the writing's on the wall, but the hand's got a gun

so it is destined [destiny?], so it is sealed
if a tree falls in the woods we're all left in a field
we're all left in a field
(birds of a feather flocking in a pack
you can't fight the government or paint a cloud black)
all left in a field...
[can't make out the background words here]
(blood like wine...)

so it is written
so it shall be done
(shall be done...)

oh why (oh why)
oh why (oh why)
*oh why do we kiss the dream goodnight
when we know it will never see the light
and smile when we look into the eyes
of a child and there's nowhere left to hide
oh why (oh why)
oh why (oh why)

we're all left in a field...

*repeat x 2

oh why (oh why, oh)
oh why (oh why, oh)

oh why do we kiss the dream goodbye
when we know--
(so it shall be done)

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 13:58:24 GMT

Oh, right, I have a Xanga. Uh.

School continuously tracks my every move during the summer. And I've been surpassed (scorewise) in APs and SATs and bleh by people who I'd rather didn't, at my school.

And yet that doesn't matter so much, because suddenly (outside of school, of course) I've discovered more friends and support and whee. It's a lovely fuzzy (and, much to the dismay of my mother who doesn't know the cause of my sidetracked-ness, very distracting) feeling. Ahahaha.

Right. I miss you Miramar kids, although I've been called by a grand total of two this year, IMed by two, and one of them was for a totally ulterior motive. I still miss you. But it's okay, this mutual separation...

Life goes on, but the seniors have all graduated (and now I'm a senior, wtfspit.) leaving me sad and bereft of people (namely one person) and yeah.

Can I just run off and be a dorky C-pop star?

Stuff that has ensued since my last post:
a) AP and SAT II scores
b) a trip to China
c) lots of volunteering
d) ...*glee*
e) being constantly hounded to get my college applications into gear and something like "with these qualifications, you'll never get into [insert univ. here]! raaaah!"

oh, and although I doubt this person reads my journal-- your mother is an ungrateful friend to mine.

let the currents of life sweep you along but never let yourself be lost amidst the waves.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Tue, 16 May 2006 02:56:41 GMT

Maybe it's the rain lashing out in fury against the window.

Maybe it's "Chou no Mori" playing in my earphones.

Maybe it's the 3-AM reading on my computer's clock.

Whatever the reason, I feel lightheaded and afraid.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tue, 09 May 2006 20:55:12 GMT

I give up on this all.