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Sunday, July 23, 2006

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 16:50:38 GMT

i feel so wanted,even a lil sadistic and yet this is one line i dare not cross over for it may create unsatisfactory. Mutual grounds is not reflected just yet, i shall be humble to take every moment as they appears, this feeels great..as there are no boundaries, just melancholy.

PMS is in.....grrrrrrrrr....my skin is peeeling bad another grrrrrrr...and this internet connection is causing me rage...grrrrrrr

Oh..so lucky that ill be catching my first concert here in Melbourne, thanks to the boys, MOGWAI babyyyy.....cant wait. Classes start tomorrow..so here it begans....everything rapidly changing for the better, i suppose so.

BIG BROTHER is so overrated, all these reality tv shows just promots high frequency of audience but what meaning does it bring folks, don't know whats all the fuss about it, except for its bunch of living gay boys in it,,everyone is a dramaqueen.drama drama drama.self absorb....TV channels here are such a bore.....wish i had foxtel at least..bahhh

The advertisements here are soo infomercial, and too direct to the point, no class whatsoever..does not even catch my attention, and the sms' flirt ads are just a nuisance, ! dont these aussies ever know proper social skills? That hardup and desperately seeking a mate through all those ads...silly.....

Monday, July 10, 2006

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 16:59:15 GMT

It has been a week passed since my arrival. Never occured to me how the weather trancends unpredictably as it is super duper cold. Winter chills! Importantly, i carry my gloves,umbrella,lipbalm,and my face moisturizer everytime i step out. That will be my nessesity for the next three months ahead. The city is lovely,now i know why everyone loves Melbourne! and would not want to leave it.. Often blinded by the trafficking of fabulous stores and outlets never fail to catch my attention.Plus the flinders train station is very victorian! nice that i live opposite it, just walks away from the yarra river..view is so spectacular!... money must be spent wisely,because it is pricey for the rate i;m at, it just shows that being a student abroad proves to adapt alot of independency skills, and initiative to get what you want, and patience. Life here can be harsh when you do not know many, but i am able to cope so far since i have Shikin.

For the past one week, one big difference seeing how i am here and when i was back home, is my willingness and effort to walk. Everyday is a walking routine up and down the streets, even i hardly use the trams because it does get a lil costly considering it a day to day purchase. Well, anywhere within the city is just as convinient to get from point A to B. Noone is lazy here, day starts early, and ends early too since it gets pretty dark by 6pm!
Theres still a few more things to do , before i settle down...like waiting for the goddamn classes to commence! Then i will be ocupied and start mingling and seeing Melbourne as my new home.

For now, it is all trial and error. The dangers and the insecurities never go away, all i can hope for is to choose wiser friends, and stand on my own guard. But overall, it is alright since there are many asians around. Melbourne is very diverse and diversity sits on top of every partial request.Met Jools and Frans for the first time. I like them alot!, So warm with welcome and friendly...i feel at home.
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Just in one week..i;ve already been to many places surrounding the city and suburbs.....can't get enough of the suburb to be frank..but it seems much colder . So far, am in love with Chapel street. Must go there more often..Plus,i even got the chance to watch the final match at Crown Casino! how cool is that.:).Tomorrow is another day, all i can do is wait till the morning sun rises.. ja ne!

Your grace, my hatred

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 16:10:32 GMT

Your grace, my hatred

Been shopping like an insane cow, ya madcowsyndrome as what Chie calls me....mooing away for something, and everything i suppose.eccentric funny i would put it.But mostly ive been buying IT related gadgets..finally got my notebook, Compaq Presario v2000 Amd turion..AMD rawks! good processor, better than Centrino in many ways, apart from the mobility on battery life..Got me portable harddisk, and a webcam, which was something i didnt want, but Mum insisted i get one, so that she can monitor me from time to time, whether i;m alive , gain weight , and whatnots..funny.!

He who thinks he gave it all, deeper than anything she has felt
A sudden incident which took it all away,
why she ask, questions arise in disbelief.
Only he knows the truth, and every action has its consequences
To be in ignorance ,shutting one eye and closing an ear
no disregard, but she could only swear on retribution someday
And if there would be a time when things rewind,
Disclose from the past , he has no future in her arms.
Beg to differ, so be it,
We have spoken and taken a trail of our own
the thin silver lining ends.

.....and to leave this all behind, i;m only waiting for my departure, where i would miss the great, but at the same time miss what has given me better will power from the let downs, cant wait to get out from this place. i need a fresh start!

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Thu, 04 May 2006 00:01:08 GMT

Celebrities are mad. Over spending i am talking "EXCESSIVELY" on the simpliest yet unimportant things which don';t really say value. Plus they give ridiculous names for their babies.Pity how these kids would grow up living to deal with their names.Plus as they get richer, they dress uglier. have you ever notice that? But again, definition said to be a celeb is pure attention. Striking as the most glamourous or the ditsiest still shouts for fame. I've been reading too much of tattle tales!.hikkss

I like it that now i can come in and out as i please. and do as i see fit. Not having to worry for what will happen next but to just let things take a toll on its own.. life is great!

Time is catching up. There are so many things to prioritize. but what comes first? i do not know where to start though i should quickly get to it. Now is the right moment for a little bit of time management 101. .....get organised aly!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 18:18:20 GMT

The jabs was something i never hoped to experience, in such brutal way. plus i'll need to go do another one, more poking in the veins. not a threat.especially when it took minutes just to get the damn needle in, the process was a staggering painful minute to bare.

oh, my friend has finally gotten himself a turntable, with djm800 mixers!..good good choice..so, i'll have all the good reasons to go over and start mixing ...weeee.
better than wasting time outside, let's try be homey for once.

I need to go to chow kit next week and hunt for tees.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 21:54:23 GMT

Having many things in common with someone can be quite exhilarating, but when you have too much of coincidentle similarities, it can be daunting. I am amazed to discover how alike we are yet we come from a different background all together. Nowadays i get so alarm by people of individuals with a common wave length as me.I wish i could meet more , it would have make life more meaningful :)

RAM has taken full capacity .and my computer is driving me nuts.arghh! can't wait to get my laptop soon. I have browse around a couple of good notebooks and i know exactly what i will be getting in a months time. Base on the specifications and performance which will suit both my normal and graphic use, it came down to both of this.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 06:04:54 GMT

Now that i am able to figure out how to upload pictures here, kolot kolot me.har har..so heres some taken recently. It is a little random, enjoy.!

Inaz, shikin, me @ our usual spot at loft

sugoi!

love them to bits

narcissismm

oh lord, a buggler looking izmi

moussy moussy!

us girls@ boring Luct

my cadets

sexy shah and me

ma andraa..pecah!

Jakarta and KL united

ma Beny

moomoo lubby

posse

der schatten mates

Friday, April 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 05:31:17 GMT

This is the finalize shot by Robert, and i think he did an amazing job. Like the composition of dark tones which gave it a mysterious look, and how he combined both images as one. I;m happy with it!

Two_Meets_One

Back_alley

Cross_Over

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 20:04:22 GMT

Realtor agents can be a bitch. I think i;ve send out over three exact messages without getting the appropriate feedback..quite the cocky some aussies are.pfffff.

Been having the cramps..don't you just hate having menstrual cramps, doesn't help even with the pills. It felt so agonizing trying to get up on my feet and walk, i tend to slouch due to the pain so the whole day i stayed in bed. Mum thought i was dead.lol..funny that always happens when i lock myself in the room, unable to get me when i sleep.

People with body dysmorphic disorder believe they have a defect in appearance that in reality is nonexistent or slight. The disorder usually begins in adolescence and is believed to occur in men and women equally. I saw this on Oprah and was just mortified to know there are actually people which this problem. by fact, they look sooo normal. I don't understand them, or what goes in their head, the first guest was just normal, she even looked sweet but she has this urge to go back to check her face in the mirror every second. It is really sad because such problem affects people around you, they start to avoid you and you tend to isolate yourself from them. sigh. I really hope they wake up and realise that there is much more pain and suffering going on out there, instead of comtemplating with their physical insecurities...which may subject to plastic surgery..which is even horrendos! when it goes overboard. burukkkkk you know.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 16:17:25 GMT

The entire weekend for me was like a marathon. There wasnt one minute where i stood still, there was always something to do or to go to and this made me feel alive when productivity is at hand.!

The photo shoot went well and i had no idea it was so much fun! despite the sunny weather of the heat glaring right at my eyes everytime i try hard to look my best. We went to a couple of places in KL, mostly walking so you can imagine how tiring it was to walk from one block to another, under the heat! I had to strike poses at the back of some alley, mostly focusing of the rustic walls, then we went to Taman Perdana that took sometime walking down the steep steps. So i had to do jumps, sitting, squarting, basicly all spontaneous movements and motion of expression, under the hot sun again! We had alot of laughs, especially during the jumps because i keep trying to avoid landing on him as he was only inches away. Plus Robert is cute cute! All in all, the pictures came out great according to Robert. he told me out of 50 shots, 5 came out perfect which is indeed satisfying for a photographer ,as he pointed out that it is usually a ratio of 2/100 shots that only comes out good. So yeah, i;m very happy plus it was a great experience for me, much to being overwhelmed. And yeah, now i know how hard it is when models go for shoots, perfection on the exterior, high tolerance to patient and full focus on the inside.