i forgot about this thing.

how strange. that there are so many bits of me floating around in here...

one thing i do miss about xanga....those really vague entries where you rant about someone but never mention their name and so everyone except your closest friends are wondering who it might be... could it be them you are angry at? Could it be your boyfriend they think is hot? could it be your cat they ran over?!?! we may never know....

my turn

So i wonder about you....am i your dream come true? or a mistake?  or you continuously disappointed in me?  Are you enraged by me every day or do i just make you cry? I know i am not worthy, never good enough.  I know you ask hard things of me that i don't want to do. so i hide from you...every every day.  Because i want to be someone's princess. i want someone to say i am perfect and beautiful and you...well you are so perfect and beautiful i am nothing in comparision. i do not like being nothing.

i am a very self-centered person. 

Do you remember when...?

i read through a lot of my old xanga entries...haven't been on this thing in forever.

i re-discovered my Sheila story and laughed myself silly. i also read all those comments...especially the ones from TIPsters.  Dang, i miss you guys. So much.  I haven't kept in touch as well as i should have.

So, if anyone wants me to get back on the ol' horse and write that Sheila story then i shall do so and post it here.  If not, then i shall write when/if i get inspiration and just keep it for my personal enjoyment.

I love you guys.

Go to YouTube and type "Love corner- A zebro short".  watch the movie.  your life will improve by 16% just by doing this.

Happy Thanksgiving!

This is the entry that will change your life

did you really believe that title?

whateva.

a poem.

Two-sided Conversation

If you asked God

            “What’s happenin’?”

I bet the answer

Would be strange

            And sad and beautiful

            And would fill libraries

                         Times libraries

                        Times grains

            Of sand and small

                        Round pebbles

i don't think i've ever been hurt this much by anyone.