I'm trying to figure out why some money hasn't been refunded to my checking account even though PayPal status is "refunded." 

i go through this whole automated thing "say 'yes' or 'no'" etc... that always freaks me out.

then the computer says "refunds with credit cards can take up to 30 days to process."

in the background is this sound effect of a computer keyboard as if someone were really typing the email. 

"i'm sending you an email with this information in it.  would you like for me to repeat anything?"

i got a stomach bug a few days ago from a friend that just kind of lingers.  doesn't do much else.  not completely debilitating, yet not completely normal. 

i was supposed to go to a wedding tonight with my roommate.  i wish i were there.  it would be fun.

but sitting on a bus in semi warm weather for 2 hours to get to the place where the wedding was just didn't seem like something that i could do.  then, i might have to eat food at this wedding.  probably not terrible food, it's usually pretty good here.  but real food doesn't sit well with me. 

actually it sits better today than it did yesterday.  but i was using yesterday as a gauge for today.  it was an inaccurate gauge.  i probably could have gone.

instead.  i'm bored and have read so much that i don't want to read any more. 

I AM A SOCIAL BEING.

i'm also an extrovert.  a big one.  27 out of a possible 30 points on the MBTI. 

i won't bore you any more.

a friend of mine is working to be a midwife in a country with an incredibly high birth mortality rate among women.  i'm not sure if that's the right way to say it.  but something like 1 in 7 women die in childbirth.

she just sent a note to ask us to remember a friend of hers before the Father.  the girl is 30 and just had her 8th child and is not doing well. 

i'm 30.  difficult to imagine.