i need to update my accounts;
i have only been concentrating on myspace that i let my xanga get loose;& as well as friendster. i`ll get done with it, soon. i need to just get my life back straight & figured out how to get it back on the road. i`m so confused on what road i am taking. let`s just see. [;

well i need to go now;
i`m watching the tyra bank shows. male models, yee! i`m going gogo gaga. this is not called cheating right? haha. i`m loving it.

<3

a surviving xanga user.
* i didn`t win xanga-whore for nothing; haha!

anywhoo; i deleted half of my entries that i made in guam.. they were all too short & didn`t sayy much. so here`s an update of *mszcheysser; i`m at the philippines right. i left guam on may six; [why do i always leave on the number six? wtf?] erika, jay, carlo & steely were at the airport. although.. i didn`t even tell anyone the time i`m leaving. that was sweet of them; i felt fuck`d up for leaving them so fast & rushing them to say goodbye to them. i hate that crap; it was super busy at the airport & the plane was going to leave me and my family.. again!! gah. the whole walk through the gate suck`d. i was more mad than sad that dayy. or better; i was super confused about everything. i guess; i didn`t have a reality check when i was leaving. i felt like i was dreaming.

&& oh yeah;

i have a boyfriend now. his name is jonathan; we became oficial on maytwo. & we`re still together, growing stronger. nd case your wonderin` me nd him are long distance relationship. his in guam & i`m here. long distance sucks. but i`m seeing him on julyy & i can`t wait. afterwards; it`s going to be 7-8 months that i won`t be able to see him. next time, i`m seeing him will be at my graduation. that`s right, im a senior now. & afterwards; i`m moving to guam AGAIN!! mind yuu, it`s my choice. i can`t stand not being in guam, for another year. i`ll just suck up my senior year & just attend uog in guam; next year. if things go right, me and jonathan might go to the states for a year to try out college for one year or so. kinda weird hu?

&& oh yeah;

i know i told some of you guys; that i`m going to visit guam in november, well that`s canceled because when i was in guam; i didn`t even know i was going to, come back after grad.. but apparently i am! YEE! can`t wait. haha; & was my trip to guam, worth it? heck yeah it was! so here we go again. another chapter of my life.

stay in the philippines;
take two.

here i go...
<3

wish me luck [;

three weeks from now,
i`ll be leaving & returning back to the philippines.
it`s a depressing thought, but its the truth.
&& now i wonder, why do i bother?

i waited for so long this moment to come,
but now that i`m here,
i realized that after three weeks, i won`t be back utill late 2007.
people will forget about me & memories of me, will be stored behind along with the rest. by the time i`m back here, many would have left, many would have moved on, many would have forgotten & many would have been joined with their other halfs.

i finally solved what i've been pondering for day after day.
should the memory of guam be my inspiration or just be a cherished memory?
</3

happy belated april fools.

You know what's the hardest thing to do? Pranking Ron. He kept getting me over & over but after bending some of the rules, I finally got him. haha!
YOU CAN`T BEAT ME (=

it was import night last night.
i didnt really think it sucked. it was ok.
i saw alot of people; that i didnt get to see in a long time.
& i saw him.
he was so effin cute -- he pretended that he was ignoring me.
but he would turn around nd smile at me.
awh. i wanted to go up to him & hugg him but..
he was with his friends & i was with mine.
i didnt want to ditch rundie nd those guys,  cause i might get lost.
but when things got boring, i went out to look for him.
he left already.
wah.

i saw alot of my ex-krews. i didnt bother to say hi though.
it felt weird. after all i went through with them, back in the days.
but somewhere deep inside of me, misses them.
and i always wonder, how my life would be if i sticked around with them.
ewh. on second thought, im glad i went out.
one of them tried to take away my precious gift,
if you know what i mean.

omfg. this is such a lame entry.
www.myspace.com/laydeexchanted
you know how i do. <3

incase u didnt know; im here in my hometown.
GUAM! :]
feels great to be here; i missed everyone here. i`ve been hanging out with thee crew & the girls. imlovingit. i dont want to go back to the philippines. this is where i belong; but it`s alright. my future lies in the hands of the strictness nd boringness of the philippines. haha. but i got to admit -- i hecka miss my laydees in the philippines.

anywhoo. today was nuts; me nd rowell went to the movies to watch she's d man and its a good movie nd all, but after when we were going home. we got in a car crash. omfg. i am still shaking from it. i almost got hit. wah. but idk. the Good Lord is always watching me, even though im a loser nd i hardly talk to him anymore. maybe it`s a sign? idk. i had so much signs, im just a stubborn [beep]

well everyone. not much to say.
hit me up at myspace.
myspace.com/laydeexchanted

that`s where the party is at homies.