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Thursday, October 26, 2006

for whatever reason i decided to delete my xanga. probably b/c i never use it anymore. however, the system makes you take some quiz before you delete it. you know what stopped me? it said that if i delete the site, then none of mycontacts will be able to contact me. well, with the way that my life has gone, being here...there...everywhere, i thought that maybe i would leave some trail behind. if someone really wants to find me and happens to stumble across my xanga, they can find me. so, if you're looking for me, you found me! just send me a message.

oh... and by the way... He is still making me stronger.

Friday, June 24, 2005

john 10 : 11-16

"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd gives His life for the sheep. But a hireling, he who is not the shepherd, one who does not own the sheep, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and flees; and the wolf catches the sheep and scatters them. The hireling flees because he is a hireling and does not care about the sheep. I am the good shepherd; and I know My sheep, and am known by My own. As the Father knows Me, even so I know the Father; and I lay down My life for the sheep. And other sheep I have which are not of this fold; them also I must bring, and they will hear My voice; and there will be one flock and one shepherd."

the Lord is our Shepherd. how thankful i am for that. He doesn't leave me or forsake me. He is always right by my side. today i had by checkout appointment with my landlord. i'm leaving france in three days for africa. i'm nervous, but i am certain of my God and His good will towards me. the internship ended well. the Lord has truly broken ground in my life by having worked there and learning what it is to serve in such a capacity as a humanitary organization. africa will be a total change from that. i'll be there for studies and as a guest in someone's house. it'll be good, but it will also be weird to be the one being served. it is so much my heart to go and share life with these people. i know that the Lord will do whatever is necessary in my life during the following three weeks in burkina faso to bring me closer to Him and His purpose in my life. i'm looking forward to it. please be praying for me. i flight out of paris 9:20 am missouri time and will be arriving six hours later in burkina. be praying for the flights, for all of us students there, for the people we meet, the experiences that people will have. and my prayer more than anything for this trip, that although i am going to be going as a student, i want to impact and be impacted. the Lord is faithful and He alone can do that. i'm praying He does.

this is my last post until i go home to the states. i get back to france the 19th of july and will be back in mo the 21st. i miss you all and am praying for you. see you in july.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

i started my internship the 30th of may, and well, there were some bumps in the road to begin with. i'm working at a humanitary organization that is virtually completely run by volunteers, many of which are unemployed men that are trying to fill their time with something to do. and unfortunately, because of their situations, they have a tendency to drink...a lot. and so, no one actually tried anything, they were just making remarks that weren't very pleasant, or really all that respectful in general. and there was really one in paticular that was initiating all of it. so, i talked to my director, she talked to the guys (they had been doing it to the other interns also), and things have been with most all of them except for the iniator good since then. however, the main guy had a bit of a personal crisis of some sort that i didn't fully understand the story, but has cleaned up a bit, stopped drinking, come to his senses and apologized. essentially, he's in a middle of a divorce with three kids and some time back was in a car accident and several people died and he was so drunk that he wasn't aware of what was going on. so, life has been really tough for him. and the Lord really showed me that despite the fact that i wanted to get angry with him and not acknowledge him as a person deserving of respect, he has asked for forgiveness and deserved to be treated how i want to be treated, with respect. he's much kinder now. he avoids eye contact for the most part now, so i think he's ashamed of what he's done. my heart towards him has really changed since i first met him. i was in the wrong. i shouldn't have been mad, i should have been praying for him. i am now.

the rest of the internship is doing good. i have plenty of stories to tell about the people i've met, the things that i'm doing, but i'll save you all the details for now. i can share those stories when i get home.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

hey hey hey... just a few words: i am still in france until june 27th and will be leaving the morning of to go to africa. i will be in burkina faso from june 27th until july 18th. i'll arrive back in france july 19th and will be heading home to the states july 21st. so, there is still almost two months until i'm home. whew, it's gonna be crazy!

i've started my internship this week. and well, let's just say that the Lord is showing me a lot. i'm going to talk to my boss today about how this week has gone thus far and what i will be doing for the rest of the three weeks that i am there. essentially, for those of you who don't know; i am working in a salvation army type of place called secours populaire français. and well, there are some intersting people that have come around and i have found myself confronted with some... well, let's just say VERY forward men thus far. so, i am going to be discussing that with my boss also. please be praying if you guys think of me. this is definitely a learning and humbling experience. the Lord has shown me a lot thus far. well, gotta get back to the whole internship thingy. lunch is almost over.