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| Days like this I wish the sun wouldn't set, I don't want to forget.Today's oral was pretty screwed..I mean, I love my examiner because she's really friendly, nice, funny and stuff, and yet I still screwed up. Boohoo. I really hope I can still get a 27 and above, but I think that won't be possible  Oh well, aim for 25 and above, then. If that is not possible, I'll just go kill myself. Seriously.
I don't know what is wrong with me, I totally get panic attacks during oral, and the examiners are all our school teachers, imagine PSLE..don't wanna talk about it, don't wanna think about it, just want to let it pass.
Oh forget it. I don't think I did that badly until I'd fail, because nobody in my class will fail, definitely. 6 Endurians rock on 
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Cross my fingers omg omg omg. I seriously hope that I can get 27 and above. Better still, 28 and above. AHHHH
And my examiner was seriously very nice, whooooooooo
Chinese oral yesterday was actually pretty okay because thanks to 詹老师！
I am going to thank my lucky stars if I do manage to get at least 38 and above for Chinese oral and 27 and above for English oral.
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Absolutely cannot wait for tomorrow! Although F and I am going to do some research thingy based on statistics(printing out surveys and possibly handing them to random strangers omg), we shall only take about half an hour.
And then the rest of the time will be devoted to shopping♥♥♥ and going to Starbucks. We R sh0 lam3, euu ar3 berriiex envii0us 0rf ushh.
And we'll be, like, leaving very very early so that we can get it done quickly and then ahemz proceed to shopping ahem ahem yea.
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Those who got ________ for your oral examiner(English), good luck! Doesn't matter what marks you receive because what matters most is that you have the ability to carry on a conversation well, read passages well and describe pictures in length well. Don't let him get you down ^o^v
Shall stop here for now, I'm very very tired ttm.
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I thought Americans/Westerners/Angmohs are very flexible and stuff. How come Faith's golf instructor is not! Thank God when I was learning golf, all my instructors weren't like that. K..irrelevant. Anyway YOU AREN'T GONNA GET ME DOWN. What makes you think that you have the right to decide what Faith does? She just frikkin' skipped a few of your lessons, big deal. Like you aren't getting paid for it? You are.
And what makes you have the right to say that Social Studies is not an important subject just because we don't get tested for it during examinations? Social Studies is as important as English, Math, Science, Mother Tongue. We need to get a good grade for this project, otherwise we'll fail the class. Hello, if we want to put our heart and soul into doing a very wonderful project, you should be encouraging and understanding, not demanding, miserable, with a totally screwed-up attitude.
Ugh, now I know why I sometimes hate golf, it totally interrupts my day. Piano is enough.
So please, don't think you're all that just because you're a golf instructor. FAITH I DON'T CARE must go tomorrow, otherwise our SS grades will suffer and I swear my parents will kill me :(
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| All I really wanna do is love you and love you and love you.School today was w-e-t. Very, very extremely wet. EXCELScience was actually quite fun. Stupid Lionell Loh go and die please. Bleh.
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What's the use of frikkin' pretending? One minute, you deny what you did. The next, you admitted it and kept apologising profusely. Hello, miss, like that is gonna ever work? Get real.
OMG CANNOT.WAIT.FOR.SATURDAY!  I am going to blow money blow money blow money whooots Daddy going broke bankrupt OMG NO I AM GOING TO EARN MONEY.
But I don't know how. I shall work as an intern in their company, but they lose money 'cos they have to pay my wages HAHA LAME.
Faith I cannot wait for Saturday yay.
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YAY DAD FINALLY GOT THE 2 CAMERAS FIXED. Miss Tiong TingShan spoilt both of them, causing daddy to pay $170 for each camera's repair job. K lame, dad go and make Tingshan pay go go go
I AM SO HAPPY AND UNHAPPY.
Happy because..of some private stuff.
Unhappy because of some not-so-private stuff, refer to the previous post. By the way, e, I'm not referring to you.
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I have lost the ability to make some sense out of my words..hmm never mind never mind the Sun must be frazzling my brain, but no, it's raining very heavily x1000 and I don't like it POOR LEON. So we let him come in and then he went to the sofa and jumped on it to grab Mom's food eeeee pig.
Anyway today was Chinese oral..surprisingly I think I fared better than last time. My examiner was the same, though..I doubt she remembers me man hahaha. Anyway it was rather okay, I was like damn nervous, but oh well. Some things cannot be helped, and I am actually quite okay about my performance. Definitely have much room for improvement, but given my standard, it's a-okay. EHHEHE lousy Chinese ftw :/
I totally hate rainy days SO COLD SO COLD SO COLD!!! Can't take it.
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Seriously cannot take fakers anymore cannot cannot cannot cannot cannot ABSOLUTELY CANNOT.
English oral's tomorrow..I'm afraid but oh wellllllll. PSLE Oral is the one that counts, anyway.
Can't blog so much because I feel like I've lost the frikkin' ability to actually blog a half-lengthy post. I blame the previous post for draining out all the energy in me. Hehe.
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I saw a picture of us (Faith, Me, Denise, Deon, Felicia) and it really made me think about the inevitable future, and us getting separated and all..I don't know why, but I know that I'll definitely miss them the most, and my vball teammates will come in second. Seriously, when I see all our faces, being together and stuff, I can't help but tear a little. It's all gonna be over, yet we're not cherishing each other, we've taking each other for granted. What the f? Not referring to the 5 of us, but other..stuff. I suppose Faith and SM and Max know what I'm talking about.
Seriously..damn. I will bloody miss the good times, and even if I move on, or rather, even if we move on, the 5 of us will always be together in our hearts, yes? I don't fricking care how sappy this sounds, I don't want to care.
I'm already starting to miss the 5 of us together, it really feels weird when we're not together. We totally must cherish the remaining 2++ months together, I'm sure not all of us will end up in the same secondary school. Although if that happens, I'll jump over the moon. K joke.
Anyway, yes. I love the other 4 of you, and thank you very, very much, for giving me an unforgettable time when I was studying in the school. Love y'all to the max.
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| Can't forget it, won't regret it, 'cause I'm still in love with you.To think that some people are fake. They are completely effing retards. They were totally fake right from the start.
To you: You might say that I'm Pot, calling Kettle(s) black. And if you don't know, I'm actually referring to the line above. Well, say what you want. Think I'm fake, if you must. Just so you know, I didn't pretend in front of you, okay? I don't pretend, contrary to popular belief. So you tell her I'm fake. You don't know that I'm not pretending. You don't. You freaking don't understand me, and you hurl bloody accusations at me. That's quite..immature of you. Please get this clear before accusing me, please get this clear before opening your mouth next time. Since when did I ever dislike you? You didn't try to get things clear before speaking up, you didn't try to ask me and just bloody speak whatever comes out of your mind and mouth. So you say that I'm fake because you think I dislike you. What if I didn't, and do not dislike you? What if I actually treated you as my good friend, my best friend, my true friend, and you actually claim that I am fake? Did you ever stop to think that I might not be acting in front of you? I said it before, and I'll say it again. I do not act, pretend, be fake in front of others, contrary to belief. Calling me fake is a despicable thing to do, it's very insulting, and plus, you didn't try to get things crystal clear before desperately claiming that I pretend in front of you, that I am (gasp) fake. Please, stop doing meaningless, dumb, pathetic stuff. It actually shows your character. I won't ever trust you anymore. You're out of the picture of my life. I only trust(and I mean only) Faith, Denise, Felicia, Deon, Yushan, Tingshan, my family, Leon(what, I totally confide in him), Eunice, SM, Jozoe, Max, Huilynn, Darling, Samantha, other Marsilians. You totally cheated my feelings(lol). You took advantage of my trust, and hurled it right into my face. Well, suit yourself. I know that I am better off without you. Call me childish to do this, to post this whole chunk of words on-line, but whatever. If you think that I'm not aware of you backstabbing me, think twice, that's where you're wrong. _____ & I are totally aware, and I will never ever trust you again, no matter what you say. To think I actually wasted my time bothering to post this when I'm down with a slight fever. Tsk.
I love Faith :)
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Well, Faith and I got it out of our system. I feel so much better now, and I trust that Faith does, too. Thanks for being there for me, bestie. Love you so, xoxo.
What you've said are nothing but a bunch of lies. Lies. Lies. Thank you for deceiving me, thank you for treating me like a lifeless puppet, thank you for every single bad thing you've done to me, I will take it as a life lesson learnt. Thank you for letting me distinguish from right to wrong, from good friends to bad friends, from liars to truth-speakers. Thank you so much, because if it weren't for you, I'd end up getting tricked and being deceived endlessly. Thank you for doing all those shit, because I would not be where I am today otherwise. As from now on, we will have nothing in common, except the fact that we all live on the same planet, live in the same country, stay in the same town, go to the same school, and coincidentally, are in the same class. We are nothing but classmates only. Thank you very much for everything you've done, be it the good or bad. We aren't friends anymore and I suppose it'd be tons better this way. No hurt caused.
Thank you for fucking taking advantage of me. Thank you for fucking taking my trust, and Faith's, for granted. Thank you for all the hurt you've caused. Thank you for backstabbing me, bitching about me, and only me. I wonder if I should be glad that I'm the only special one, if I should be honoured. Might as well take this positively, nothing you do will get me down. Absolutely nothing.
I don't give a damn anymore. Why should I care about someone who doesn't even cherish our friendship? Why should I even bother about your feelings, since obviously, you don't give 2 hoots about mine? It's better without you, I won't get up getting hurt again and again, after countless lies and empty promises. Promise is a big word, it really is. Do you take promises for games? If so, well then, that explains everything. Goodbye forever.
Thank you Faith, for everything. Love you xoxoxoxoxoxo.
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| Do you remember, those cold Decembers? With you wrapped around me as tight as a glove.I need to ask myself what I'm doing here, blogging, WHEN MY CHINESE PRELIM ORALS ARE TOMORROW?!
Seriously, can someone gimme a tight slap and wake me up 
I am such a bad girl, I swear I am going to rot in Hell tomorrow eheheh. Nah kidding, but anyway yeah Chinese prelim orals are tomorrow, God, oh God.
I am so afraid of how I'm gonna fare for Chinese oral tomorrow..totally. Hi everybody I love you so pray for me ehehehehe love yazzz.
K, so I found out that Xanga can do cuts, thanks to Tiong Ting Shan oh my God, Livejournal, anyone? (inserts super diao face here)
So anyway, YES I AM TOTALLY REVISING FOR MY ORAL I SWEAR I SWEAR *whimpers. I is very good girl!!!
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Today's Racial Harmony cum Be Yourself Day sucked to the max core ozone layer apple core pear core all cores!! Seriously. Some 'concert' it was..hmph. The only entertaining item was the one of Mr Ng *ahem* reciting Man Jiang Hu(WHOA MY CHINESE SO PRO. Ha-ha-ha I'm such a Chinese noob somebody kill me) and it's quite hilarious, plus he didn't just recite in this great, boring monotonous tone. It was like, all those opera-performers or something? K whatever, it was the only entertaining item, and all 6 Endurians(the girls, mind you) screamed themselves hoarse, including yours truly.
Oh yes, my sku famileeeee was founded on Racial Harmony Day '08 hahahaha. Apparently, my mom's Denise(WHOAAA) and my dad's Ming Long(HOLY SHIT.), LOL! But anyway they aren't together, they just happened to sit beside each other in class because Mrs Ong arranged our seats Whatever happened to freedom?! Okay I shan't complain becuz I am sitting beside Steffi, and I'm not unhappy with my seat or anything, nope.
Anyway, back to my family members! Denise is my mother, Ming Long is my dad, Deon is my grandmother, I am grandfather-less(whoa sad), Kaiyin is my younger brother and Aaron is my older brother(I TELL YOU HE DAMN SCHEMING AND CUNNING I CAN'T BELIEVE IT BUT OH WELLZZZZ IT'S TRUE K RETARDED) and erm Sean is my nephew and apparently a bitch is my grandniece? Bitch = His female SOFT TOY DOG.
Kkkkkk what if Leon becomes that bitch's boyfriend eee don't want lol. SEAN, I TAKE THAT BACK. Leon shan't be my grandniece's boyfriend ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha funny how our minds can think of such immature things, even at the half-mature age of 12. Funny, really.
Amazing.
I need to be a good girl and revise for oral you know why if I flunk Chinese this year(my definition of flunk: below 77, at least), I can say goodbye to many things I've been coveting HOW SAD.
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I'm still up, revising for my Chinese oral tomorrow. Yay I 'R' good girlzxzxz w0rhzzx :O
So anyway I'm trying to memorise what Zhan Lao Shi made me memorise the other time, when I stayed back with Felicia and Nicholas to do the oral thing..yep I think I can remember.
Okay I just heard Tingshan screaming/squealing/making weird noises plus an excited "OH F_CK!", if I'm not wrong. Oops am I not supposed to tell? 
So anyway this oral picture that I'm currently trying to talk about, is one of a 夜市场。That's how you write it..right?
I think I'll have to refer to the 图片内容, because..I doubt I can still remember, the oral session with 詹老师 was 6 days ago. Yep, and during the past 6 days I had to cram lots of knowledge/stuff/info/etcetc inside my brain, so it's no wonder I can't totally remember!
In fact, I'm surprised that I can even remember. Yay me.
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Okay I'm done with one picture.. Darts. I need to start revising and revising lots and lots. Thank goodness 詹老师 kept going through oral stuff with us, or else I'd be a totally clueless bunny. *hop hop*
I am 华语COOL Lame, lol. But my Chinese totally sucks and I have no idea why..haven't been studying too hard? Man. Oh well. Actually I'm not all that concerned about the 朗读篇章 part, because it isn't that difficult compared to 看图说话 and the 会话, sobzzzzz.
Okay, 会话 is pretty much the same, you just have to speak the right stuff, and they remain the same for all similar situations actually. Very good.
看图说话 won't be that bad if I actually knew how to speak a decent amount of Chinese. I shall work hard, very hard, and buck up. It's weird, not being able to master your own mother tongue well. Really, really weird.
I think the excitement, anxiety, stress, fun(I must be outta my mind), nervousness, fear is part of the job. I mean, it'd totally feel weird not to actually be a little nervous, afraid, anxious and all that..right?
I really must get down to reading more oral, although I can't seem to remain awake because it's 10.54pm(ooh) and I really feel very asleep. Damn!
I feel very accomplished today because:
- I finished my homework before 8pm.
- I practised my piano pieces, but only the Sonatina album ones though 
- I did some revision for oral and I practised.
- I did my PSLE Math book seriously(not really HAH.)
- I want to see how I will fare for the PSLE Math Practice Paper!!!
- There's no Chinese homework, which gives me more time to revise for oral.
- I finished You Know You Love me.
I don't feel very accomplished today because:
- I've not revised enough for oral.
- I am certain that I am going to fail oral tomorrow. (I can't help being very pessimistic at times, really.)
- I am very very very sleepy right now when I shouldn't be, because I totally have to read through all oral-related stuff.
- I want $$$$$$.
- I totally wanna shut my eyes and sleep but I really cannot because..I've not revised enough omg could I totally put more emphasis on this point? I don't think so!
- SCREW LIFE AND CHINESE AND EVERYTHING ELSE.
- I really don't give a damn anymore.
- I SHALL CONTINUE STUDYING TOMORROW.
- I think I am still gonna revise a little more, though.
- Since I have the oral CD.
Boohoo, the stress is starting to get to me. Big-time. Ahhhhhhhhhh forget this forget this forget this. I'll just go study for oral and ace it tomorrow(ha. Fat hope.).
I can't help hoping for a miracle.
Maybe everyone remembered the date wrongly, it's not tomorrow! Oh I do hope so, but it's still highly impossible..nyeh.
Goodbye.
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| Things are so much harder now, no matter how I try.Erased everything in this dumb, stupid, totally meaningless post. I SEE NO POINT IN BROODING OVER IT.
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I nearly lost my phone today okkkk I suppose I was half sad half happy.
Sad = inform everyone of number change again, adding all contacts again, and changing personal info all that again, after just having done so exactly a month ago.
Happy = can finally change my stupid phone which turned out to be da ahlian phone. K I'm not insulting anyone else who has the W910i, I just find it really common. Way too common, in fact. So yeah, but whatever. K what am I saying! I should be very very very very thankful(I hereby announce that I shall pray before every meal, although every prayer won't be totally complete because it would end with the word "PENIS", as a result of Bart Simpson flashing his ______ while I'm saying my prayers, because his totally dumb and silly dad dared him to skate to the donut store and back totally stark naked(or whatever, I've not watched that movie for, like, a year!!!), and well, he went SPLAT on the window, ugh FLASHER!!!).
Cancelled that totally dumb bracketed paragraph above, I don't seem to be making much sense, I find.
So, to end of this part of the post: I am a very very lucky bitch. AND that my phone isn't the ultimate ahlian phone because..well, just because. It is not it is not it is not, I wurbbbx myiie ph0nee hen du0xx w0rhhsh =)
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Wow, today seems to be bloody fantastic, only because:
- I completed my homework early, which is quite a miracle for me, especially on Sundays.
- Daddy's currently cooking steak & chicken for our very late dinner.
- I'm almost done with reading You Know You Love Me.
- Leon smells very good because he just had a doggy bath. ^^v
- There's no test tomorrow.
- I don't have to study extra.
- I HAVE COMPLETED ALL MY HOMEWORK!!! And before 6pm, too!
- We went to Cold Storage at K.A.P(EDINA, ^^^?) and I totally feel accomplished because I've bought lots 'n' lots of sweets and candy and chips..which spells F-A-T-T-E-N-I-N-G. Piggo.
- I don't feel giddy
- I don't have to rush my homework and I feel totally..free!
- I finally added new songs and synchronised them into my iPod.
- I FEEL SO EFFICIENT TODAY
- I found out that mugging is, actually, very very fun.
- I like to be a geek y'know!!!
- I want to shop like hell - online.
- I AM GOING TO GET TINGSHAN TO PAY FOR ME.
- And then get money from dad+mom and pay her lol.
- And I have this sudden urge to start buying bangles and bracelets, they look so enticing EHEHE.
- Yesterday was the absolute worst day in the world but it's okay, RIVER VALLEY WITH FAITH<3 INSTEAD YAY.
- I smell wondahhhful chicken and steak.
- I am sorry to all vegans reading this.
- I CAN'T HELP IT!!!
- I love you :)
- I love myself, too.
- This is all crap, I think the only reason why I'm happy today is because of reason number 1, and because I don't feel like, 'ugh I have to freaking rush out my freaking homework till 10 bleh'.
- And again, because I love you yay.
And again, because I love myself.
- BECAUSE I AM TALKING TO TWIN♥, and it's so fun talking to her yay twins 
- I saw Xiaxue and Dawn Yang on the newspaper HAHA FUNNY SHIT.
- Yay chicken is done I am going to eat it now.
OVERALL: Today is a velly velly nice day :)
Happy bitch to the max core ozone layer apple core pear core all cores!!! :)
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. I like Hollywood celebrity gossip and reading magazines. After all, (almost) everybody likes gossip! And I said almost everybody. I think E! Entertainment Live, MTV & TVB dramas are the love. I guess that's basically all you need to know about me. And yes, I find myself quite amusing in a (bemusing) way. Oh, I'm ironic, really. And also, I have mood swings. At times I'm totally hyper-high, high, hyper, retarded, spastic, and at times I'm just silent, all stoner-like(teehee), the total opposite of my hyper self. Of course, I don't have a split-personality disorder. Right, enough of this. I really wouldn't want to torture you any more. I guess this just about sums up my introduction of some sort, and I'd like to say, "Tag before you leave, or I'll have the gun pointing your head." Yeah, I know, I'm weird like that. Oh, and one more thing: my chinese sucks. Boohoo. 