hullo xanga, haven't written in you for a while....

so this entry is kind of a rant because i need to get this off my chest. 

i consider myself a feminist and really have faith in my sex and all, but i HATE it when, for example, you have a debate with guys concerning sexual rights and you feel like you're the only one speaking up.  ESPECIALLY when you know for a fact that the other female agrees with you and would have spoken up in private.  I really hate it when women acquiesce to a man's opinion, because god forbid if he mistakens her for one of them radical feminists and consequently does not think her cute anymore.  I mean, i'll admit, I sometimes do it too (and get really mad at myself when i do).  But i think for the most part, i at least try to stand up for myself and my sex, EVEN if it makes me look unfeminine.  But honestly, sometimes, i really just don't care about seeming feminine or cute.  Like, if you're strong, show it dammit.  Like, if you punch a guy on the arm, don't wimp out and pretend that's the best you can do.  I mean, maybe i go overboard when i (jokingly) hit guys, but I feel like I have to make up for the countless other feigned punches that women sometimes give. 

and also, i really can't stand it when women are sometimes like "me a feminist?  do i believe in sexual equality?  nononooooo....I want a guy to open my doors and provide for me".  Like being a feminist is some sort of disease that you have that wards away all potential suitors.  I mean, you don't necessarily have to believe in all the precepts of feminism, but YOU'RE ON OUR TEAM!.  It's like, if you're anti-war, you should still support our troops in the sense that you are concerned with their welfare and wish them a speedy and safe return.

I don't want to imply that women in general are by any means solely concerned with finding a man (or woman) or that that is the only reason for not expressing one's opinions.  But i think that is the case often enough (because a little part of me feels the same way) where it's kind of a problem.  Goodness knows, I am totally guilty of what I condemn.  But it doesn't mean I have to be content with that.