(dangerous angels, "missing angel juan", 356-357).

Dear Angel Juan,
         Do you know when they say soul--mates? Everybody uses it in personal ads. "Soul-mate wanted." It doesn't mean too much now. But soul-mates--think about it. When your soul--whatever that is anyways--something so alive when you make music or love and so mysteriously hidden most of the rest of the time, so colorful and big but without color or shape--when your soul finds another soul it can recognize even before the rest of you knows about it. The rest of you just feels sweaty and jumpy at first. And your souls get married without even meaning to--even if you can't be together for some reason in real life, your souls just go ahead and make the wedding plans. A soul's wedding must be too beautiful to even look at. It must be blinding. It must be like all the wedding in the world-gondolas with canopies of dove, champagne glasses shattering, wings of veils, drums beating, flutes and trumpets, showers of roses. And after that happens you know-that's it, this is it. But sometimes you have to let that person go. When you're little, people, movies and fairy tales all tell you that one day you're going to meet this person. So you keep waiting and it's a lot harder than they make it sound. Then you meet and you think, okay, now we can just get on with it but you find out that sometimes your soul brother partner lover has other ideas about that. They want to go to New York and write their own songs or whatever. They feel like you don't really love them but the idea of them, the dream you've had since you were a kid about panther boy to carry you out of the of the forest of your fear or an angel to make love and celestial music with in the clouds or a genie twin to sleep with you inside a lamp. Which doesn't mean they're not the one. It just means you've got to do whatever you have to do for you alone. You've got to believe in your magic and face right upon the mean nasty part of yourself that wants to keep the one you love locked up in a place in you where no one else can touch them or ever see them. Just the way when somebody you love dies you don't want to stop loving them but you don't lock up their soul inside you. You turn that love into something else, give it to somebody else. And sometimes in a weird way when you do that you get closer than ever to the person who dies or the one your soul married.