I was foolish... and in a year i will look back at who i am now and believe the same thing still.

That means that i'm growing and learning still i do believe, this is good.

Looking back on who i was, i wish i could have opened my eyes.. i was missing out.

Have you ever felt like you just don't belong somewhere? I have and i do. There are different places that i just don't fit. That is why i need things to change. So, i'll change them. I still feel like God will use me to change the world in some way, but as for now.. i really have no idea how this will come to pass. All i know is that God will show me the way.

I pray for you, all of my friends; past and present.

I am happy that i am with Kristina, most definitely. I don't want that to change. She makes me happy. Her and I get along quite well. I'm looking forward to seeing where God takes us.

Pray long. Pray Hard. just pray.

who knows

so.. i came back to this. I thought i would drop in and leave a little message for.. well, i don't know. myself?

I'm really tired right now, the second day of classes of the 2nd semester of my first year of college done. now... the rest of the semester.

Hopefully i will get used to getting up at 6:30 to go to class at 7 again sometime soon. that would be nice i think.

did i mention that i'm really tired? If not, I am.

I guess i'll leave you now, i was bored and just got done reading part of a commentary on the book of Acts. pretty exciting right? yea, i thought so too.

If you don't know this already, I have a pretty amazing girlfriend.. its nice.

well, to all of you who will read this... or.. just to me rather. have a nice day.

toodles

Its funny how the mere thought of your past can make you hurt so much. Things i have done that i wish never would have happened. Pain caused that could have been avoided completely.

remember that what you do now could effect the people you love tomorrow... or the people you will love who will love you.

I wish more than anything that i could change some of the things i have done. but i can't. everyone knows that. I don't need people telling me that i can't change my past. duh. i would have changed it already if i could have.

what we have to do is forget what is behind and strain toward what is ahead. We can't let satan bring us down because we have screwed up. The apostle Paul had a lot to regret. but he did amazing things. I have a lot to regret. and hopefully, through me, God will do amazing things.

I pray now, for my life.. for her life. For the lives of all the people i love. I don't want to forget the importance of the people around me. My life is about relationships. My relationship with Jesus firstly. and everyone else comes after that.

i don't know why i would ever write on my xanga. no one will look at this anymore. no one will see my thoughts. but i don't think it is important for you or anyone else to see what i think.

remember. have fun. be safe. don't do anything that could hurt the people you love. its just not worth it.

I hate it when stuff like that happens. i always feel really dumb. but i'll get over it. I don't mean to think about stuff the way i do. it just kinda happens. but i'll deal with it. i can make it all go away. i have control over my mind right?

I have had a headache for three days.. it won't go away. it does at times.. but it comes back.

I am ready to go home tomorrow. I need it more than normal i feel. this weekend will be good. hopefully i will be able to make some money as well. that would be good. i need to be saving money for some stuff.

overall, life is good. which is exciting.

If someone were to tell me i was wrong. I would let them know that they have no idea what they are talking about. I know what i'm doing now. and its a good thing.

Prayer is the best gift you can give someone you love.

Much love

I'm so much different than i was.. it is so weird to know how you have changed. and to actually be able to see it.. and understand why it happened.

Life is wonderful.. its so strange how things work. I quit looking for what i wanted. and i found it. or.. Her rather.

God has done some crazy things in my life.. i'm very thankful.