Its funny how the mere thought of your past can make you hurt so much. Things i have done that i wish never would have happened. Pain caused that could have been avoided completely.

remember that what you do now could effect the people you love tomorrow... or the people you will love who will love you.

I wish more than anything that i could change some of the things i have done. but i can't. everyone knows that. I don't need people telling me that i can't change my past. duh. i would have changed it already if i could have.

what we have to do is forget what is behind and strain toward what is ahead. We can't let satan bring us down because we have screwed up. The apostle Paul had a lot to regret. but he did amazing things. I have a lot to regret. and hopefully, through me, God will do amazing things.

I pray now, for my life.. for her life. For the lives of all the people i love. I don't want to forget the importance of the people around me. My life is about relationships. My relationship with Jesus firstly. and everyone else comes after that.

i don't know why i would ever write on my xanga. no one will look at this anymore. no one will see my thoughts. but i don't think it is important for you or anyone else to see what i think.

remember. have fun. be safe. don't do anything that could hurt the people you love. its just not worth it.