The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life... and sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again... for some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person... in my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else... most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love, love is always present. it's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little... as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left, maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right... most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for passing time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger... so here's the piece of advice; let go when you're hurting too much. give up when love isn't enough. and move on when things are not like before... For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more...

-anonymous

[.Where it comes from.]

I get this feelin like I could just freak the fuck out on anyone and any given time. I was to hit something, hurt someone, or maybe I will do it to myself.

Today I dont feel alive. I feel like a living dead girl. I just have this overwhelming urge to freak out on just about anyone right now. I am overcomed with alot of anger that I have no idea where it came from.

As I am sittin here trying to write all of this it just makes me that more angry. I am not feelin depression. I am like I said feeling alot of bottled up anger. I know that I have to keep it to myself cause Im not nice when I release what I have kept bottled up for so long. I can feel the tears forming but I will not let this get to me. I have to be a stronger person.

Im victoria. I am the one that takes over. I am the one that no one can get through to. I am the one that controls her the most. I am the one that will be the death of her. You maybe thinking right now...Damn this bitch is crazy...You have no idea...You could never begin to understand who I really am. You could never understand just what I might be capable of. I want her to die. I want to take over. I want to be the only one. I am tired of sharing my spotlight with her. She has been winning for way to long. And now I am trying to bring it all to an end.

I sit here and smile only cause she is so weak and she is letting me take her over. Why do you think she allows me to live inside her head. Why do you think she allows me to still exist? The tears that she cries are her way of trying to fight her way back to the surface. This is her way of trying to push me back to dark place in her head. Listen bitch I run this. Nothing that you do will ever make me leave. I own you. I own everything in your life. You have kept me locked up for way to long.

You are sad and pathetic. You are a fake. You wear a smile so that everyone can see that you have changed. You are still the same person. You have just gotten better at faking it. You can lie to all of them. But I, Victoria, I know you Danielle. I know what you really want to do. I know how you really want to solve all your problems. I know that you are craving it. Just give into it. You wont be able to fight it for much longer.

You are beginning to shut down. My allies have backed off. They have stopped fuckin with you and in turn have fucked me over. I almost had the spot light back. But no. They had to just give up. Thanks to the both of you. Thanks for ruining it for me. All I needed was just a little more time and she would have been gone forever. I am fighting off the tears. I know that you want to cry right now Danielle. I feel your weakness. I feel you letting go...giving up. Just a little bit more....

Bitch. God just let go. What do you have to hang on to really. The only person that could have actually loved you...left you...he figured out your shit and now he is with the one person that he will forever love. You two would have never had what they have. He dont love you. I know that you still hold on to that...HE DONT WANT YOU. You will never believe it and you will never move on from it. You wont meet others cause you dont want to be with anyone but him. Well I am going to be HONEST. You will be waiting forever. Hope you like being alone.

You know what is more sad..not only does he not love you but your own parents cause stand the thought of you. How do you feel. The one person that should love you no matter what cant stand to call you her own kid? That really has to suck that your own parents love to see you fail. They too like to see you miserable. I love it to. The more you fail at life the weaker you become. Pretty soon you will be mine. You will no longer exist. You will be the hateful bitch that I am. No one will want to be around you. Talk to you. You will be all alone. Just how I like it.

God I can taste it. I cant wait til that day. The day that you break then I will be waiting.