lil_jenny202's Xanga

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 18:21:17 GMT

Im The girl that holds All in and Regrets it later...

maybe someday it'll all changed...

but evrything happens for a reason...

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 06:16:53 GMT

nywayz a lot of things happened for the past week... i dont knoe wat to say.. im speechless right now..

nywayz im plannin to write her from the start of tomz..

soo for now on,..

im just..

keeping quiet..

"i HATE this quote or this sentence

Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

it might not be ur friend but any otha chick.. arg! hate this just gets me fuming!!!!!!!"

Friday, April 21, 2006

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 07:42:21 GMT

hmm its been ages again, i should seriously start goen back here again i knoe i keep sayin it but neva happens which is realli sad.. but we got myspace i go der more than here now.. but i love myspace coz u get heaps of comment n yeah its just addictive in otha words,..

nywayz a lot of things happen during the past week, i thought me n my boi wouldnt work things out but it did evntually as otha people says it..

u love more u hurt,.. n get hurt in da process..

nywayz i watched a movie todai it was good, i think its name was the time machine.. i like it very much probly coz how the story line goes.. u can never change da past.. wateva happens happens just need to accept wat happen n move on but havin to move on doesnt mean u have to forget bout evrything or da person that u treasured the most,..

hmm dat realli made me think of how much evryone has been through wit der lives specially losin someone or losin a dear friend or movin to diff. states and still leavin der life wit something.. and dat something depends on each and evryone of us..

Monday, April 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 19:58:28 GMT

its been sooo long that i have written in this journal.. nywayz a lot of things have happen..

ive let down the person i love the most, im soo afraid to talk to him.. im afraid knowin that i hurt him soo badly.. i hope im not over exageratin..

why do we feel this way, do we deserve such things.. is it worth it to be hurt..

is it all worth it to be wit me..?

why cant we find, happeniness which each otha witout havin to be hurt wit each otha, why do we do this things.. i didnt mean to hurt u.. i didnt mean to make u feel dat way.. im soo sorry.. i apologised from the bottom of my heart..

i know ive let u down so many times why do u still choose to be wit me.. im confused,.. im lost,.. lost.. i dont know why,.. i know ive change a lot.. wen eva we argue or wat so eva.. i always try to fix it but why now i cant do that..

im afraid of knowin that i did it again.. as always n expected of me..

i wish i could turn back time n do da rite thing, its hopeless..

i love u, i wanna talk to u, but im scared.. not scared of u but scared of knowin that i hurt u..

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 02:54:30 GMT

Today was interesting i worked early morning as usual,. it was da first time dat i have breaky shift wit this new manager of mine.. he was good but annoying at the same coz he kept telling me to go to drive trhough or go to do hash browns or do this n dat.. it kinda pissed me off.. sooo annoying.. but yeah it was awright.. soo funny coz he wanted me to stay back for another 2 hours but i cant do dat coz i was stuffed as it is.. i was going loooney n stuff.. ruby kept laughing.. but yeah

nywayz got home i played final fantasy 10 for lil while n after dat i just have my shower n after dat i went to go to bed n have my nap-nap.. ^_^ which was good heheheheh!!!.. n now im on the net typing on my xanga n talking to noha which is soo annoying coz i cant understand wat she's saying on msn coz her font is being fucked head.. so yeah but now im talking to her n i can understand wat she's typing lolz.. well i think ill go now coz i have nothing to say..

Sometimes I wish I was dreaming so I wouldn't have to cry,so that way all my tears and my life would be a lie,sometimes I wish to wake up and everything be the way I want it to be,no more hurting for anyone, especially not for u n me,sometimes I wish I could leave, or run away,or edleast change who I was,and who I am today,sometimes I wish that I could fly high like an angel in the sky,and sometimes I even wish that I would die,even though i know my wishes will never come true,I hope edleast yours does,because I'd rather be you.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 04:33:26 GMT

umm i love u brad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ved luvs andy n sarah luv's emppu!!!! wats emppu? its da letitric guistarist n night weish!!!!

i love brad n ved luv's andy!!! so yeah school was good n dats it...

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 07:16:15 GMT

hey.. hmm today is brad n me's 8th anniversary n all i can think right now is HAPPY 8th ANNIVERSARY !!!! i love u soooo much, dont wanna lose u.. im happy dat wer together.. i appreciate evrything u do for me never forget bout dat... i love u!!!!

sorry ratie, i was a soo rude today.. i feel soo bad now that i think bout it.. hope u forgive me.. i just have heaps of stuff in my mind, just have those days wen i feel dat i shouldnt talk n i should just think.. really sorry ratie..hope u forgive me.. n brad too... sorry....

n i feel bad for breanna... im really sorry for that stupid question never realize dat....... im just soo sorry.. i cant beleive that stupid question of mine.argg!!! just hate myself for bringing that.. thinking bout it my day hasnt been dat good.. wellz its not dat bad..

i hit laura accidently im really sorry.. it was an accident didnt know that u wer der.. nyways u have really quick reflex.. u hit me nyway.. mmm really sorry.. im sorry to everyone dat ive........ :( disappoint n i dont know wat eva.. DEEPEST APPOLOGIES!!!!!!

Friday, July 29, 2005

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 21:04:55 GMT

well well.... hmm im at animeca right now.. coz i have nothing to do...... nywayz im c-in brad today ^_^ *kinda woke him up early.. i forgot dat im supposed to ring him after 10:00 am or something.. hmm i didnt remembe..

nywayz yesterday was good coz brad suprised me, he came to visit me at school without me knowing so yeah.. im happy bout dat.. ^_^ and last night... hmm i think ill continue this later.. bye bye for now

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 08:00:59 GMT

hmm its been a long time,....... nywayz ved ur funny.. sooo cute u n andy going out ^_^!!!! hmm i dont know wat to say..

Monday, July 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 04:59:30 GMT

awww!!!! ved is sooo inlove!! soooo sooooooo sooooooooo cute!!! hehehehe!!! at recess ved, sarah, tanya, and me had a girl talk.. soo funny coz i yelled at tekin n james to not come near us.. coz wer having a girl talk happenin.. its soo funny coz brendon came ova sooo we consider him a chick!! lolz long story.. it'll be soo funny if u wer der.. ved soo inlove!!!!!!(soo cute) n sarah is just funny love her laugh!!!! hehehheheheh!!!! hmm..

hm im so happy dat ved n i are friends again.. soo coool!!! missed being around dat group.. but different coz vicky is not der.. feel bad but yeah

nywayz i had a very nice day.. apart from Ms. Bawden, she yelled at me coz i havent done my design brief... n i feel bad for not doing it coz she's worried bout me.. :S i feel soo bad.. ohh wellz ill get ova it..

nywayz i got my song thing back from mark.. his soo cool!!!! he's such a legend!!!! i love scars by papa roach!!!!

hmm... yeah lunch was helarious coz tekin wet himself.. wel not really i threw water at his pants.. soo funny!!! hahahahha!!! laughing my head off..nywayz it was funny!!!!!

I love u brad!!!!!!!!

love u sooo much!!!!

soo sweet!!!

u came ova to c me well it it werent for u going to ratie u wont c me.. but still u came to c me for even short time n u rode ur bike.. brad thanks for visiting me!! love u lots.. ur soo sweet..... (i just wanna hug u soo tight n wont let u go)

soo funny coz peter came ova.. just talked n laughed.. just soo funny...

hmm.. i dont know wat else to say coz im too busy listening to music.. wellz ill add later.. bye bye for now