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lilbluepenguin02
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Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 2/2/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: watching tv, movies, anything on a screen, taking care of my dogs and cat, trying to hang out wit ppl who wanna spend time wit me...
Expertise: bah, who knows... u tell me...
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
2/14/2003
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| so we've finally moved... and my commute to school is like 5-10 min... it's great... i can actually not waste gas when i have days with one class. my only gripe? this place has SOOO many freakin' bugs... i actually just saw a spider crawl into the space between my desk and the wall (so i can't get to it) but i'm constantly looking over to make sure it doesn't crawl out again and attack me. my bathroom had soooo many ants (little ones but still, the bathroom? r they dumb?) OMG, it came back out! (the spider... yea, i had to wake yi up to kill it... i can kill little insects but big ones that crawl fast, i don't do...) anyhoo... o and yi's bathroom downstairs is cold as fuck. i mean like so cold that u sit there for like 5 min. trying to warm up so u can pee. it's insane. BUT, no more evil ppl upstairs that have stupid ass ugly kids running around at 7 in the morning... and no more stupid leasing office with the incompetent ppl... and we actually have A DRIVEWAY! and trash pick-up!!! AND A YARD THAT'S FENCED OFF! all for a whopping $1800 a month. but we've established, we dun need food... it's sooo overrated...
for all who haven't heard, i adopted a cat... his name is... prepare urselves, it's sooo clever... KITTY. haha, actually it's Kit but who're we kidding? thas just to make me feel better cuz i couldn't come up with anything besides kitty. so now we have three dogs and a cat... it's like that show awhile ago, something like three guys, a gurl, and a pizza parlor? thas kinda what we have going on here... ^_^0
summer classes... got a 96% on my mgmt mid-term... yay! i gotta get A's in my summer classes cuz i got two C's last semester (proceed to the previous entry where i mentioned getting RAPED by school...) well, all my friends have graduated... like seriously, i am the only one who's still in school, and for another freakin' year and a half. but a big congrats to everyone who got out more or less safely... prolly wit a weaker liver but still alive... u guys did it... good luck on the next part of ur lives. 
COME HANG OUT WIT ME... get drunk wit me (i'm really fun when i'm drunk), watch movies wit me, eat wit me, dance wit me (man, i haven't been out for sooooo long)... yea, i kno i sound like a loser, it's the truth, i'm a freakin' math major for god sakes... how can i be cool?? but please remember me from the old days cuz the next time u see me, i mite be toting around a huge ass backpack, equipped wit a drinking straw or something and wheels, wearing big, thick, black glasses, and talking all properly an' shiet. haha... god will i be sorry if it actually happens......... anyway, if u're having trouble finding a job, gimme a call or IM me or email me... and we can hang till u find a job. it worked for some ppl... they'd hang out wit me and then get a job... so there's gotta be some correlation there!  now there's incentive!!! | | |
| ok, so i haven't written in here for like ever... cuz i haven't really been here forever. school RAPED me this semester. this has been the worst one EVER ever EVER. so the amplitude of happiness i am experiencing now since i'm done with this semester is off the charts. unfortunately, everyone i kno is busy or working so i have no one to celebrate it wit. this leaves me with watching old movies, reading da vinci code (and finishing it before the movie comes out), and getting fat. woohoo. o did i mention i only have two weeks before summer classes start? yay. so if u do feel like mebbe u can put aside a couple of hours to hang out with lil ol' me, grab me now! while i am stress free!
on a side note, WE NEED HELP MOVING! July 1st... it's a Sat. anyone interested, please call me.
on another side note, I AM SO SAD THAT CHRIS DAUGHTRY GOT KICKED FROM AMERICAN IDOL! I HAVE ALWAYS HATED THAT SHOW BUT HE WAS SO FUCKIN' HOT AND SOUNDED SO FUCKIN' SEXY THAT I HAD TO WATCH IT! AND NOW HE'S GONE BECAUSE THE SHOW IS RIGGED! he was the best one on there. fox is stupid... they're gonna lose a lotta moneeeyyyyy. bwahahaha! boycott fox... except for 24 cuz kiefer sutherland's hot too... ^_^0 hormones going wild here... har har... sorry. it's late and i'm a lil wooooozed up! | | |
| it's scary to think that i might never be able to fall in love completely again. i think along the way, i've had my heart broken so many times that i might not be able to recover... u kno how everyone says that u just KNO that the person u're gonna marry is right for u? from personal experiences... i KNO that thas not true. at least for me. there have been many times in my life where i thot i was gonna marry the person... and truly wholeheartedly thot i was gonna marry the person... or even just fell hard for the person... and it all went to shit. the thing is... when u're innocent and naive and stupid as hell... u fall in love too easily. and now, it's all coming back to bite me in the ass. and the worst part about all of this is that i dunno what to do about it. i've tried to make myself believe ppl about love but i can't. i can't put this guard down... and i dun think i'll ever be able to. like i have come to terms wit death, i think i might have to come to terms wit spending the rest of my life alone. *btw, i kno my entries sound like i'm asking for pity but i'm not... i'm being real. this shit has been bogging me down... if u dun wanna kno, then dun fuckin' read it. but dun dare judge me.* | | |
| must be ur skin that i'm sinkin' in... must be for real cuz now i can feel, and i didn't mind... it's not my kind... not my time to wonder why... everything's gone white... and everything's grey... now u're here now u're away... i dun want this remember that... i'll never forget where u're at... don't let the days go by... glycerine... i'm never alone... i'm alone all the time... are you at one... or do you lie... we live in a wheel... where everyone steals... but when we rise it's like strawberry fields...
i luv this song! guess what it is! | | |
| wit the coming of the new school year, it's funny cuz all i hear is how excited everyone is and how it's the last year and we should all make the best of it. unlike everyone else tho, it's not my last year... and this semester is damned to hell already. i was already dreading this semester... the longer commute... the loneliness... ppl who act like they dun have the time of day for lil ol' me... no one to talk to... all this shit bottled inside of me... i got nowhere to turn... and what i really wanna do is confront the person who has hurt me the most in my life but i can't... cuz it's not like he'd give a damn anyways. then the ppl in my class and the bullshit of calc 2 have basically driven me over the fuckin' edge. I JUST WANNA FEEL SPECIAL OR LOVED OR MEBBE, IF I'M NOT ASKING FOR TOO MUCH, BOTH. I WANNA FEEL LIKE MEBBE EVERYTHING I'VE EVER DONE HASN'T BEEN IN VAIN AND THAT PPL UNDERSTAND WHAT SHIT IS IMPORTANT TO ME, like birfdays... but not any birfday, but my 21st.
but it's all done and gone and all i can do is sit here and cry inside... wishing that mebbe i was someone else far, far away... or that i was someone buried deep, deep down in the ground somewhere.
yea mebbe ppl are right... i can't be by myself. but see, i am being by myself... it's just hard cuz u feel like ur life is flashing by and u aren't really living it. and then one day, u'll be 60 (cuz thas the age i wanna die) and u're like, "well damn... what a waste of space." | | |
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