Hey everybody. Sorry its been so long. I havn't been here for a while and my compy is on its last leg. Well for the past month I've planning christmas stuffs, baking, shopping, wrapping, the usual. I decided to make everyone christmas cookies this year. It was alittle more challenging then I expected but I got them all done and they turned out perfect. Willie came over and helped me out alot on Wednesday. Im at Dad's until monday this time, its been a long time and Im glad  to be able to se everyone. I had to do something kinda hard tonight though. Kristina and Dad were goin to winter solstice tonight and they really wanted me to go. I could tell it was important to her but I had to tell her I couldn't go. Most people feel that any religion is right as long as is fits you but christians dont. We believe that you should still love and respect everyone no matter what path they choose, but that their is still only one right path. I felt terrible for telling Kristina I didn't want to go. I know that they just wanted to share something with me that was special to them, but if I went it would seem like I was contradicting my own beliefs, which are more important to me then anything.

      I myself no longer live, but Christ lives in me. So I live my life in this earthy body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.                             ~Galatians 2:20

Well I was just gonna write about mindless stupidity and the meaningless tidbits going on in my life, but after just reading Nathan entry I dont think I could. I've actually been thinking alot lately about what he was kinda talking about...There are alot of things in my life that I sometimes wish were different. I get soo impatient with God sometimes because I know he's there, I know he knows my thoughts and prayers, so I think well why cant he show me how he's working in those areas. But then I remind myself that I'm not always suppost to know how he's working, and perhaps he's working in completely different places that I'm looking for Him in and that's probly why I havn't seen Him. After I remember that I  feel terrible about how ungrateful  I was.There was a special speaker this week at the church and the night that I came he was talking about how most of us don't appreciate how precious being saved is. Jesus didn't have to come and live here on earth, who would want to anyway if they could choose to stay in Heaven, He didn't have to innocently suffer and die for anyone of us. Aren't you so greatful that he chose to come and die so that we would be able to be close to him. Growing up in a church/christian environment your whole life can kind of desensitize us to the meaning of that event if your not careful.  If being saved is the only thing I have on this earth I should be over joyed that I have just that. That is the best gift that anybody could ever give me in life, and anything else I get should be thought of as a blessing. 

Things to remember:

1. I have a family that actually cares for me

2. I have a loving and supportive christian boyfriend that I know is growing stronger in the Lord

3. I live in a country that has religious freedom  

4. I have a place to live and sleep in comfort and warmth

5. I can eat every day

I now have a photo and a video of the crow for anyone who wants to see.

 Hiya! Well lets see, this was the first week of school. The first day at school we mostly just sat upstairs and listened to all the new stuffs about the school and reviewing the rules. After school I went over to Willie's for Iris' B-day party and to hang out with Willie dear. We went for a very nice walk with Luke, then came back to be with Iris and Caine. I made Iris a little necklace which I really hope she liked. After presents me and Will went outside on the porch where I saw a cat not too far from his house, so I went over to see if she'd let me pick her up and boy did she. She let me pick her up and hug her and play with her and pet her. She was a very sociable little kitty I must say, but Willie's family thought that she belonged to one of the neighbors. I hope she belongs to somebody, and if she does her owners need to feed her more cuz she was wicked skinny. Poor thing.                           

       Today we went on a field trip and it was pretty good. We went out on a boat to see the Isle of Shoals. I was really tired on the way back so I kinda napped in the van on the way back though.