so i like never update anymore lol i totally dnt no how to keep up with this or myspace anymore but ya i still like xanga and all but life is amazing God is awesome and still working in my life more than ever it seems like...im seeing some1 rite now and hes amazing and finally its not a secret nemore.. but we r going to take and slow and im keeping my heart open to wherever God guides me with him.. ive been to camp for like 3 weeks this yeer so far and went with monica each time wow that girls crazy but i love her we had fun worked our butts off but it was all good and fun and ive always gotten closer to some friends which is awesome but some friends ive faded away from it rly sux but hopefully good will come out of it and yay! my bday is comming up in like a week score i will finally be 15 ahhh crazy!! but neways not much to update so im gunna put some icons quotes n such up here so ya i hope things are going good for every1 love ya xo_marie_

I took pictures of houses with the
light on behind them; It reminded
me of time I spent with you
It was beautiful.

Love is like a thunderstorm; it goes against
everything around it, terrifies people,
and cleanses the earth.

Love has nothing to do with what you're
expecting to get. It's what you're expecting
to give- which is everything.

when you have friends you have everything.

you learn alot about people
when you listen to the songs
that mean something to them.

let's hold hands, and never let go.
as long as we're together,
nothing can break us.

well hmm this isnt goin to be a very long update lol ya i no you guys are loving that well neways im leaving for camp on monday!! and im rly excited yay!! =) well neways i just wanted to let every1 no that i will miss them and that i hope they r having a good summer and i also would hope that every1 could pray for a safe trip for every1 down there and that God touches me while im at camp and that all my family and friends stay safe while im away so ya if you all could do that that would be awesome and i would rly appriciate it!! well i g2g im already packing and wat not but i will miss you every1 i will be back friday but idk wen i will update tho well xo_marie_ every1 have fun while im gone! =)

Faith isn't always knowing what the future holds but its knowing who holds the future.

My Freshmen Year.....

Is finally comming to an end and i know it has been forever since ive updated so i thought why not fill everyone in on my whole entire life rite now and give u guys sort of a reflection of my whole year i hope every1 no matter who you are wat age and w/e had a good skewl yeer or yeer and i hope every1 is doing good i miss being on xanga so im excited im updating!!! I love you every1 i hope u enjoy this update WARNING its long but i hope most of you will read it because it might actually have meaning not just to me but to some1 else... even you=)

Okay wow so where do i even begin alrite im starting all the way back to the begining of this yeer it was the last day of summer and i was pretty sad to see summer ending but on the other hand i was more excited!! I was starting high school i wasnt the one watching my sister my family or my friends going it was finally my time my chance to have the best yeers of my life so i walked into Northwest High School with a smile on my face and thinking things were going to be a piece of cake fun challenging yet everything was goin to be ok boy was I in for one huge surprise...It hit me hard.... but neways the first weeks were tons of fun i was getting along with every1 i liked the atmosphere classes were good and i was dating the hott new guy all the girls liked him but he was mine he and no clue y i thought this was amazing but he was a 3rd string quaterback for varsity as a freshmen mahn i thought i had it all... but i was wrong this guy only wanted me for one thing... and i think mainly anyone nos wat that is.. but i didnt let anything happen along those lines what so ever...it ended up being over in two weeks he dumped me n o i was so sad but then after a lot of thinking i realized im very thankful for dating him he showed me alot... he helped me realize what i dont want to be.. what i want to make of highskewl and who i want to fall in love with.. n who i want to hang out with.even tho he didnt help with everything he was the start of my revolution the new me it was no longer friendly middle skewl i was in high skewl and that meant changing was going to happen all around me weather i wanted to or not it was happening and there was nothing i could do.. but after that simple 2 weeks i got over it and things calmed down the gossip finally stopped and it was a new week i concentrated on school work i was doing pretty well with it maintaing As and Bs i was proud of myself, i was expierencing my first homecoming and it was fun, i was hangin out with the girls, and being miss social yet still focusing on the things that rly do matter.. but then rolled around the month of november wow that was one horrible month and everything happend so fast my heart broke which was the least of the problems but still hurt a ton even though it wasnt fully over with that person..but i had to put that behind me bc my bestfriend had lost a loved one and some of my friends had also lost a loved one who was also very young i cried with them all supported them mourned those deaths bc i also loved n adored those ppl even tho i didnt no them too well then things just kept gettin worse more friends kept having family issues and health issues i didnt no wat to do my mind body and soul was so sick of crying i didnt no wat to do i supported every1 yet i drew a huge blank----i had decided that love in every form hurt way too much so i wasnt even going to let it come near me i didnt feel anything i was completely emotionless i had no feelings i wouldnt allow myself to..things were looking up tho with my guy i thought but rly i wasnt feeling it which meant i was hurting him this time.. i denied it but i was.... and worst of all i had also had a fall out not only from feeling but from living i had lost God i knew he was there i knew he loved i just couldnt feel it even though its more than just a feeling i just couldnt even pray or speak of his name and didnt no why its not that i was ashamed i just couldnt understand why theres so much suffering i was growing up reality was smacking me rite and the face but i didnt even try and defend myself.. I went to youth i tried reading the Bible yet wen i did i didnt take nethang to heart... i had a fallout with every1...i didnt want to hang out with alot of my friends..i even lost touch with a bestfriend...and i didnt even want to be around my family sometimes i had officially gone into depression somehow even though my life could be much worse something was wrong and i didnt no how to fix it and that scared me even more. So I turned to the next closest thing accepting the same guy whom ive been talking bout after the 2 week guy in a relationship i got a boyfriend..even though i wasnt ready i pretended i was and i added more drama onto my plate but i felt it was the only way to be happy.. which was wrong so after two months i finally had the nerve to break it off it hurt yet i still didnt no why i couldnt cry as easily yet i was killing him... but i knew it was for the better i wanted time to get things straight with the main man in my life, God i wanted to get that realationship back more than mine with anyone else.. so i stopped concentrating on boys and that kind of stuff and started looking toward the heart the heart of God the heart of his son the heart of man the heart of woman and the heart of me... and the more and more i looked and didnt give up the more i found him i had help from my youth small group which is an amazing group of girls n from a  that i hold close to my heart even tho it went day by day bit by bit i was starting to become marie again i was learning to love learning to feel... i started bonding with my family more then my friends and then started getting to no that same guy as a friend we helped each other grow we helped each other learn we were becoming the best of friends before anything which is exactly what i had always wanted in a guy things were goin great finally.. although basketball season was a hectic one and my heart wasnt into it i had fun and was glad it was over and swim team came around the bend quick and wow i became stressed out but i pulled through with the help of God and every1 in my life... My freshman yeer was finally into the spring time and i was excited bc this meant another new n fresh start.. throughout thist part of the year i learned alot about ppl i pushed friends away even the ones i didnt want to see go i did and i brought friends closer and strangers even closer i was figuring out wat friends i rly needed and wanted.. it sucked finding out the ones who you thought you would never part from you really did and ur not rly so sure if it will ever come back.. and it also sucked knowing that you cnt rly trust too many ppl bc one thing you say even if u intend it not to be heard it gets around girls i love us all but we are all so evil its rly one struggle we all go throught and need to improve on.. but neways this was also a selfish faze for me i got braces which i acted like was the end of the world which the rly rnt i made them affect me way to much which was completley stupid and i totally feel bad bc i hurt many ppl with all my frustrations with braces and with my whole yeer and im very sorry.. but besides all the negativity i was coping with everything learning how to understand again grades were comming down tho yet somehow i brought them all up but i was becoming happy again God was and still is number one in my life and in me and going very strong each and every moment of my life...swimteam was ending it was sad to see such an awesome season with majorly amazing girls come to and end but i was glad to sort of have a break from sports then bearlesque came wow it was a blast!!!! the show was rly good and it was alot of fun doing something i never had done before which is also a very big part of my revolution i learned high skewl is about trying new things... out with the old in with the new and im very greatful that i have such a great oppritunity to experience many things i am truly blessed =)...but things werent goin so well for a member in my family i saw her falling apart rite in front of my eyes it hurt a whole bunch bc i thought that she was rly changing but then i realized its not up to me it has to be her movement and i gave it all to God n im still hopeing and praying that the best comes out of it.. But ive learned to let things go and give it all to God alot this yeer things are amazing now and here we r in the last days of my freshmen year and i rly couldnt be more happy and satisfied with my life yes theres still some ppl im missing things are definelty still not perfect but thats life and my freshmen year showed me that God is the main thing in my life and i must keep striving to keep it that way, that wen i dnt want to love is wen i should love more, wen i dnt want to pray is wen i shuld be on my knees and praying harder, and wen i want to just lay down and give up is wen i shuld stand up and not sit down until im completley finished. this year has not been an easy year wat so ever but to tell you the truth i wouldnt change it for the world ive got God stronger than i ever have i love my family so much my friends are amazing and i am in so much love with a certain some1 and he has impacted me so much as well i owe alot to him too im just amazed at how much good came out of this yeer and im excited to see what happens within these next years and for the rest of my life... i dnt no who all this story touched or if it touched any one and im not trying to affend ne1 or just be self centered and talk about me i just wanted to share with every1 what my life has been like latley and i wanted you all to no that every1 has the chance to do something amazing i mean we only have one life so why waste it away yes theres hurt along the way but all you gotta do is just take that leap of faith and it will take you somewhere you thought you would never be before life is so beautiful dnt make it ugly.. and in my life i am completely conent happy and i could not ask for more... thanks so much to all my loved ones and every1 you no who you are im sorry this is so long but i hope you enjoyed it or at least took one thing out of it i hope every1 has a good nite xo -Marie

and smile even when you dont think you can.... laugh and when you are laughing treasure that moment and keep it...it may be like a photograph that never fades away.. but pictures do fade but pictures of the mind and heart never will... dont worry be happy and it doesnt matter whos watching as long as your loving life..

ok well neways i think i am becoming the worst at updating but alrite ITS SPRING BREAK BABY!!! O YA! im so loving it =) but neways last nite i had this st patrick day party gym nite thingy for youth it was pretty kewl n fun we played games i won the award for wearing the most green i have pictures n all but i will put them on later ha wats new but neways after that monica n me came to her house n hung out it was pretty fun wow gotta love that girl but i was out by like midnight haha then got woken up by a fone call lol it was great and ya today me n monica r just hangin out n idk wat we r doin tonite but ya totally excited for this weekend im hangin out with my grandparents n sis mahn i love my family n im totally chillin with monica and then hangin out with sara g too mahn n cody is commin in from oklahoma havent seen that kid in forever n ya miss sara hansen is comming back from dallas n we r hangin out asap n GIRLS NITE is on the way o ya i cnt wait i so love spring break  but neways i will update more with pictures later n i need a new song n maybe a new layout n pic hmm idk lol but neways i will upadte more later love u every1 hope things are goin good xo_marie_

okey dokey well neways that like totally sucked that my other update totally messed up but ya lets see if i can make this one better =) well neways life has been pretty awesome/hectic but i totally love it my friends are so awesome i love them like none other wow guys i love you! but ya skewl it is pretty good crazy but good i keep holding off things tho ugh but im on swimteam ya thats rite im on the swimteam o ya lol but neways i like it but its totally kicking my butt ahhh but ya n church n youth totally loving it o how great is our God wow....n love ya i no i said i was done with it well i dnt think i am i think im in love wow but things are going good im totally loving life n sry guys i am goin to try n comment every1 back asap well hope things are goin good love ya all xo_marie_ =)

pictures from homecoming yay! finally!

jojo katie n courtney! =)

shelby katie n me!

derik n me

 me n taylor aww only the cutest cousins ever!

ok well newayz so ya i gotta go get ready so i will put more on here later love u guys xo =) sry