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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 21:55:30 GMT

Sometimes, life gets tough and you feel like you don't have anywhere else to go. You start to feel helpless and start to give up. But then it gets harder before it gets better. In the past few weeks, life has gone to bad, horrendous to good to stressful but that is the way everything works right? Atleast I tell myself that the worst has passed and things will be okay. But how does a 23 year deal with worries of a parent in the state of a child? How does a kid think about these stuff when life has just started. And through times that it is not right to be happy something good comes around! All of my hardworking searching for a job has come my way. And I enjoy it! I really do! Granted that it has just started, I already feel powerful! But then you think that the danger zone has passed, you get worrysome phone calls making you think of the worst again. You know how you see these commercials about these middle age women having to take care of their elderly parent? You think okay when the time comes it will come but I never thought I had to start worrying already. And today, after a long day of work, my aunt calls me leaving me a message to wonder what's going on and when I find out its that worrying again. I am only 23 and my mom is 44. She is way too young. But what hurts the most, to find out your parent is in the state of a child. What makes it worst, she lives so far away in a Midwestern state which does not make is possible for me to see in times like these. I times I know she needs me most. I don't have the leisure to pick up a go. Even before when I was unemployed, I didn't have the leisure because I have a small child. This is my summer update....

"Sometimes it feels right to cry but you feel so emotionless you can't..."

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 14:22:19 GMT

Why do some people succeed in life and some don't? It's the circle of life...

How do people get breaks in life? By chance or good luck...

Monday, June 11, 2007

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 14:37:33 GMT

So I am bored so I decide I am going to update....
Life has been slow moving...can't find that after college job as of yet
Ethan is getting so big, I miss it but every moment of him is so fun!
I am ready to be in the real world... I forgot how it feels without having a baby attached to my leg like a tail...
I think right now I am trying to take life really slow and accepting things that I have denied for so long
I think its time for a change

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Sat, 05 May 2007 00:20:48 GMT

I guess this is the place where people say what's on their mind and not have to worry if it is being judged so I am going to rant about nonsense.....

I can't believe tomorrow is moving day. I mean I been waiting for this day for a very long time but it is finally here and I am excited but sad. Geez it took me two weeks to pack up our stuff its crazy how two and a half people can have so much stuff!!!!

Graduation is in a week and I haven't thought much about it. It's weird I thought that the day I graduate will be so exciting that I can't wait but its actually the opposite. Every time someone ask me if I am excited I have to think twice before I answer, weird huh. Well I guess I am going to miss the classrooms, and making friends with other students in the class, and the parking ( haha that I won't miss) and the fact that if I wake up late and get to class late it's okay. But now I have to think about getting a job and every time I think about it I feel I am under qualified for every thing. For the past two years all I know to do is wipe poop and do laundry. I hate to be a housewife my entire life, it is so not me! Help! I need a job and I need a job fast before I start to think all that time in school was for nothing. And even though I miss school already, I am not ready to head back into school, atleast not for some time...

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 18:36:21 GMT

I thought I would post some pictures!! Hehe!!!

Woodlands

Halloween. ...I don't think he wanted to carry his own candy.....

rainy day

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 22:21:03 GMT

11 inches rain in Pearland... 3 hrs of power outage... midterm for one of my marketing class at 825am tomorrow....its the only exam for that class!!! Great day eh?! It was...reasons to get off track and see my son sweat during the power outage..poor baby and see him walked from from the stairs to the living room:)

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 12:23:46 GMT

While eating is taking his morning nap, I am doing what I shouldn't be doing.. hehe UPDATING XANGA!! I should be eating lunch or studying or doing something productive but I am not. So here are some pictures dating back to Ethan's birthday!!! UPDATE UPDATE!!! He walked the entire link of the kitchen without falling down!!

His First bike but if you see him at home, he hasn't sat on it yet. He just plays with the wheels..yes he is only wearing a shirt and diapers... (shirt says...I do my own stunts...Thanks to his AUNTIE ANNIE)

Bathtime

I love bath pictures..there's so many but some are not approp for the WWW

LITTLE COOGS!!!

He wore this once and has already outgrown it..who wants it?

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 07:40:52 GMT

Good bye to our Orage Element....we traded that buddy in on Saturday. So many good memories with that car..sigh, I was so sad... I mean we brought Ethan home from the hospital, we evacuated Houston, road trip to Kentucky, trip to Dallas, trip to San Marcos, graduation in Austin..its been everywhere and it was so roomy!! I loved it, just sucked giving me good mileage. Good bye....

Friday, September 22, 2006

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 08:28:45 GMT

It all comes down to today...let' see everything goes...It's time to be an adult with an adult lifestyle, no more mid day naps, no more lego playing at 1pm ah,, let's see how it goes...

Excited and scared

Nervous but Ready

Anticipating and 2nd doubts.... Decisions to make

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 00:34:03 GMT

Today is the day!!! September 17 is the BIG day. It's.....Ethan's Birthday!!!!He turned one today and I can not be happier any other day!! Well this afternoon will be his 2nd birthday since he had one last week. Just to post some pictures of him....enjoy!!!

My lil SUPER ETHAN!!!

Chicken BUTT

He got his foot stuck in his birthday cake :)

I was getting in his way while he was watching Doodlebops! That is why he has the dazed eyes

Just chillin'