do you need a job??? WE ARE HIRING!!!

two months and something days since i last wrote in here

wow how things have changed, not just in those two months but all around me and myself included

life is good I feel fulfilled

:)

God is good, He has never let me down.

no significant other, just a whole bunch of wannabes .... bleh to all of them

still love my girls... :*

I am 21 years young.. hee hee

I posted this on myspace but i really dont feel like typing it or anything else over... so here we go

its OvEr...now what?

i am over Him.
i am Over him.
maybe if i keep telling my self this... maybe if i have no contact with him, maybe if, maybe if

it Was all working accorDing to plan. no contact with him whatsOever. havent seen hIm since may,
haven't Spoken TO him since late sePtember
excepT for tHE occaSional Email or facebook message, communicaTion was nonExistent

so why is it thAt he calls to wish my family a happy thanksgiving and my woRld crumbleS?
why is it that he shows up at my door and all i can think about is how this is the First thanksgiving in fouR years that he wasn't next tO Me?
Four yeArs, four long years and now it hurts to see him... how i am trying to supress my tears and not Let him see i stiLl care... but he stIll knows me like no oNe else does and knows how to Get me to be me.

the First encounteR is over... nOw what?

he has Moved on... so have i. or i thought i had Moved on....

so whY does it still hurt? why do i fEel the waY i do...?

what is thEre left to do? will it get eaSier?

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Saw Pride & Prejudice yesterday... awesome movie... very GOOD i highly recommend it :)

i dont know how to explain this week

bleh

fun weekend more later just wanted to change my background song... Nelly - Grillz

its gonna change to stilleto pumps pretty soon :)

My MACCeros how cute is this? and to think this isnt everbody

Oh i wish it were bigger
oh well