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Name: Jeff
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Metro: Warsaw
Birthday: 8/26/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Rugby!!!!!!Rugby, and more Rugby. Working out. The Guard, and other interesting stuff...like jelly beans.
Expertise: Killing...Mostly cold germs, but sometimes spiders..I'm really hardcore like that, lol
Running like a Welshman(someone from Wales)
Occupation: Military
Industry: Government
Message: message me
AIM:  rugbytackledummy
MSN: bornesja@grace.edu
Member Since:
3/7/2005
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| So, I finally updateIt's been a while since I updated. I guess everything is going well. School is stressing me, but it's all good, I guess. I had drill this weekend, which was awesome, except my M4 had a broken front sight post. Other than that, I'm doing alright. I get to learn mortars, which is kinda cool.
Well, that's about it
Later
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| I really don't like break. I sit around all day alone. I have nothing to do and nobody to do it with. So, I pretty much watch tv, and clean. Not much fun.... My Bro was gone all day, so I didn't see him, so all I had was the dogs, which are cute but not much fun for conversations. I've been reading Every Young Man's Battle. It's a good book. I'm enjoying it quite a lot OK, later | | |
| PhilipI was reading in Acts today about Philip who spread Christianity to the Samaritans. It was a big deal for a Jew to deal with the Samaritans, long story, but he did it anyway. So, it made me think about applications.
Though it is no longer a taboo to spread a religion to another race because there are Asian christians and Europena Buddhists. However, there are many groups that Christians often steer clear of when trying to Spread the Gospel. few Christians, I hope, would ever say, "I don't want to witness to that guy cuz he's black, or Chinese. However, we've all seen people get looked over by well meaning Christians. These groups, gays, the poor, drug addicts are all in need of the Lord however it seems like they are often looked over.
Why is that? Well it may have something to do with that fact that they may be more difficult to deal with. They come with a lot additional baggage that many people don't know how to deal with. Perhaps great harvests could be made in these groups.
Well, I'm still thinking about it, and I typed this really fast, so it probably doesn't make any sense
Later
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| WhyI was sitting around today and was thinking about how God challenges people. You know, how he tests their faith through trials. Some Christians are put into prison, some are tortured, while some deal with personal issues and tragedies. I've never really had anything like that. I've obviously not been to prison, and haven't had any close tragedies or unbearable losses. There are usually two things that happen when people go through these situations. They either come closer to God or they run from Him. Don't get me wrong, I've had my deal of problems, but nothing so bad that it rocks my faith's foundation. I've struggled with things before, but have never really hit rock bottom. I always seem to pull out of a dive before hitting the ground. I just wonder what I would do. How would I allow God to change me. How would I act, what would I do? I don't really know. It's something that I really need to start praying about. Also, in Public Speaking a girl made a speech today that stuck with me. How easy is it for us Christians to hurt other people? I don't mean physically, which comes easily, but I mean hurt them emotionally. Everyday, we thoughtlessly make seemingly small decisions that can have a drastic effect on someone else. For example, look at the weird kid at school(more in Middle and High School than college). Think about the somewhat harsh thing you may say to him. You might not mean it to hurt, you're just trying to be funny or look cool, but your words show him something about himself and you. It makes him feel like there is one less person in the world who cares about him. It seems like he's always getting picked on, even if it's only be a few people. It's easy to stereotype, so he just assumes that nobody at school cares, and maybe his parents aren't supportive. Those simple few words may cut through his heart and then lead him to so many horrible things. Suicide, self-mutilation, homicide...etc. seem to be caused by a lack of belonging, a feeling that nobdody really cares, and there's no point. Well, that was long, but I just wanted to mention it Later | | |
| Hey everybody
This weekend was pretty great. I just wish I had another day before having to go back to school.
On Sat, I had drill which was pretty fun. I met my new Team leader. His name is SGT Stout, and he seems really cool. I think our team will get along really well, which is always a big benefit. The only thing was, that he said if we were AWOL, then we'd be arrested, but I don't plan on going AWOL any time soon.
The infantry Ball was fun. CSM Brown was the main speaker. The General and Battalion CO didn't speak, but Congressman Mark Souder(R-IN) was on stage repping district 3. lol. His speech was pretty good, and dinner was great.
Oh, yeah. When I was walking in, I laughed at the guys who were holding the doors, but as soon as I sat down, I got tapped and had go out and stand there(which stunk) and left Kaitlin alone. I mentioned that to SGT Stout, so he and his wife talked to her. So, it wasn't too bad.
For all the 11B's out there. The punchbowl was rotten. lol
I talked to LT (I can't spell his last name) about ROTC and OCS. I'm probably going to wait till I have 90 Credits and do the Federal OCS at FT. Benning for 14 Weeks. HOOAH!!! Back home to Benning
Well, that's about it
Later
I'm listening to HATE ME by Blue October. It's a very interesting song. It's an interested delve into the mind of a recovering addict.
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you
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