I am soooooooooo ready for fall break. In fact, I should probably be studying or doing something productive right now because of midterms coming up, but screw it. I am tired and grumpy and lonely! hhhhmph!

Being a junior in college has really made me realize how ready I am to get out of college and start my adult life. It's not that I don't love college, because most of the time I really do, but I am sick of schooling. Sick of studying 90 million hours for tests that I still only get a 74 on. Sick of feeling like I am constantly in competition with everyone and that I have to be the best. Sick of some of the faculty and students. Sick of taking classes that do not pertain to my interests or career at all (French, calc). I want to have a job, I want to be getting paid, I want to have my own apartment, etc. In the semi-near future I want to get married and have kids. I am just ready to be an adult.

Hmmm, I didn't want this to come across really grumpy, but I guess it did. I am just over-tired and over-stressed right now and I just need to get it all out of my system. My dad reminded me that I need to remember my faith at times like this, and he is so right. When I can't depend on anyone else, I can depend on God. He is always there.

"I will lift my eyes to the hills, knowing my help is coming from you"

I hope I can get out of this funk soon. It is no fun being sad.

P.S. So I realized that most of my entries consist of me whining...sorry everyone! I promise that the next one will be a happy one