It's been a while

I got accused of this being a dead xanga.  I am sad about that because I used to take so much time to make sure I posted regularly.  Sad.  So, yeah.... I've been busy doing what seems like a whole lot of nothing at work.  The load for my classes is slowly starting to pick up so I guess I will be spending a little more time doing projects instead of watching tv or otherwise wasting my time.  Maybe I will work on hw instead of just randomly messing around online..

I have been having a hard time lately trying to realize that some of the people I thought I trusted are not very trustworthy.  Hopefully this will be the last time I have to go through this with these people.  I always struggle with this same group.  Sad.  And, once again as has always been what I think.. it would be intersting to hear what they have to say about me behind my back!  I'll bet it's amusing.  I hope they have fun with that.

Life is slower... a touch lonely... and definitely chillier here.  I think I will end up liking it a lot though...

So yeah... it's not dead anymore Gail!

Hey!  I have been at Training Week for Centri-Kid in Nashville for the past few days... I really want to write about some really cool things on here, but I don't think I have time to do that right now.  I hope that later I get a chance to write about all the really neat/cool/weird/different things that I have learned and seen this week.  All I really have to say right now is that I want this stupid cold that I have to go away so I can go five minutes without blowing my nose or feeling like I am going to lose a lung.  Yay for colds!  Alright, well I need to go do some more stuff today, but since I had the break I just wanted to write a few things on here...

PEACE OUT.

Whoever tomdwall is needs to tell who they are.  Who the heck says something like that?  You have no idea what you're talking about.  Only a VERY sick person would wish something like this on anyone.  And, if you must know... he isn't suffering.  Like I said you have no idea what you're talking about...

(For those of you who are wondering what this is about... read the comments in the previous post)

WHO THE HECK SAYS SOMETHING LIKE THAT?

Wow...

It is so hard to believe that tomorrow I will be 25.  It is also difficult to comprehend that I am millimeters from accomplishing one of the biggest dreams I have ever had... ever since I was a little girl.  #1.  being a teacher AND #2. finishing college. 

This has been one of the most difficult years of my life, in more ways than not.  I won't even get into all of that at the moment, except to say that I am pretty much numb and trying not to worry too much about this portfolio review tomorrow.  The one thing that keeps my head up is that I know that God's plan is being carried out in my life.  That was so evident to me today on my last day of student teaching.  My students all wrote me these amazingly sweet letters telling me about all of the things they enjoyed and congratulating me.  They got to come up to the front and sit next to me adn read it to me.  There is this one little girl who I had my eye on from day one.... back in August.  She has a lot of trouble reading.... you know I have a heart for these kids.... Anyway, she comes up and is reading her letter to me and halfway through the first sentence she is missing a word ... She starts crying and can't even read anymore.  I started to as well because I know how hard it is for her, but she keeps on trying.  She wouldn't say so... and even told everyone that her eye just hurt, but she was crying because she was going to miss me.  Everyday I went in there and spent time with them and never thought about having to say goodbye.  I have said goodbye to sooo many kids before, but this was still different.  I can't explain it. 

Anyway, I say that I know God's will is taking place in my life because today as those kids were reading their letters to me it was like a gentle whisper in my ear from God saying, "LOOK LINDSEY!  YOU ARE DOING WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE."  I know He is going to take care of me and lead me through this intimidating portfolio time tomorrow.  I just pray that He would allow me to maintain a positive attitude and not give up here near the end.  He'll be with me when I walk into the room tomorrow with my 70 megabyte PowerPoint Beast all printed out on 90 something pages of paper.  And He will be with me when I leave there... passed or not!

I'm exhausted.  So much to do before tomorrow.  Ughhhh...

This is inspiration as well.  He no longer even wears this neck brace... The trach may come out next week...

This is a miracle... I have witnessed and lived through a real life miracle. 

When that random person came into the room on the day of my brother's spinal cord surgery and handed my mom the angel that said, EXPECT A MIRACLE... they were right. . . . . ....