Um hello?

So...I never blog anymore. There's so much going on, how do I write it all on here.

So.

• Thinking that God wants me in the Revolution youth ministry.
• I've been talking to some of the students.
• Could possibly be leading worship on Monday, July 21 for the prison ministry.
• Got over my ear infection.
• I want to learn to play the bass guitar.
• Want to strengthen my voice, so I can sing better.
• God pretty much rocks me speechless!
• Everything feels so out of place at this point, usually means something amazing is about to happen.
• I'm tired.
• Thats all I have for now.

I'm back?

Hello everyone.

Chad? Back on xanga?

Well, who knows.

Anyway, a lot has been going on in my life since the last time I updated this thing. Which was forever ago Lol!

I now have a facebook.

So add me!

Last night in E Love, Richy anointed me and my friend as worship leaders.

It was amazing.

I'm looking into my music again. Things were so happening when I Looked into music back in 2006.

The reason I let that go was an obviously stupid one.

I suppose anyway.

Still trying to build relationships. Realizeing that there have been many opportunities that I've had to build relationships, that I feel like I have missed out on.

Ugh!

But life goes on.

Indeed it does!

anyway.

Somebody comment me or something.

Love you all!

Blog

Ok, folks. I have a new blognow.

http://godfire2008.wordpress.com

check it out

Am I asking to much?

OK folks so I am really trying to get back into blogging.

Its just really hard, seeing there's not much action on xanga anymore.

And I've been writing in my off line journal again.

Anyway, most likely, after February 16th, I won't be playing on the Saturday night praise band for awhile. Until I can at least get to where I need to be with my relationships with people.

Which means, really and truly, building new ones, as well as maintaining ones i already have.

So after I got home Sunday night, I felt like God asked me a question.

I had told him the night before, "Lord, I don't have any expectations for people to follow, I just expect you to move."

In other words, I'm just seeking his face.

But after I got home, i felt like God asked me, "Chad I know you said you don't have any expectations for people to follow, but, Chad,

What do you hope happens? Tell me what you're hopeing for."

Wow God...Ok, you want it?

Ok.

Here's the deal.

And this is what I hope happens.

I hope people take interest in me, and realize that I am available to get to know and hang out with.

Honestly, I hope a lot of people take interest in me, because I am going to be taking interest in people.

I hope to be invited to some things people are doing, so I can hang out with folks.

I just wanna live!

I hope that on the first night of my break, let's say, that I do end up going to the service that night. I want people all around me. so I can shake hands. Laugh with them, hug them, pray with them, worship with them!

I hope there will be no fear, just a desire to be with people, that overpowers all fear, and anything that would try to hold me back from expressing the person God made me.

And this is only the start of it.

yeah so as you can see, God got a mouth full lol!

But honestly, I know God can do that.

But do any of you think I'm asking to much?

Anyway, you can comment or whatever.

I love you all!

You all rock my face!

Indeed interesting

Lately, life has been full of interesting things happening.

Yes, 2008 is definitely the year of relationship building.

I have hung out more, been home less, done more things, including shoot guns hahahhaha! Gotten to know some people, been changed to be more bold to speak up when there is a need to speak up, all, this, then about a week ago, I feel like the Lord spoke to me and said, "Chad, I want you to step back from the praise band a bit."

Ok? God? Was that you?

Or am I just hearing things?

Well, I'm steping back from the Saturday night band. Why?

There is in me a very strong need to build relationships, and get to know more people.

And the stage as big of a platform of ministery it is, is takeing away from that.

Its not so much that there is to much on my plate, its just that I need to balance out things.

When I am at church which is all the time seems like, I'm always on stage. Which is ok, its just that I've done it that way for almost 8 years, and I feel its time for some change for at least a period of time.

Because, God has given me a love for people that needs to be expressed to its fullest Potential.

That means, on Saturday night I'll either be hanging out with people either just doing whatever, or at church in the Saturday night service, or being with my family. It definitely won't be a night to sit on my butt and do nothing.

I need to come down from the thrown, and put my arms around some people, and hug them. Shake some hands.

pour some wisdom that God gives me into some people's lives!

That's just one reason I'm stepping back.

There are many more good reasons because of this great thing that's going on that God is doing.

Another big reason is, kinda on the flyp side of things, I need people in my life. Sometimes when I'm up there, I feel connected and all, but its like a distant connection. Yeah, its there, but its faint at times.

People look at me and say "Wow what a worshiper!"

But one of the biggest needs in my life as of now, is to just be with people. Ya know, just be together. To be close.

I've felt so distant from so many. And God is fixing that. But it still needs work.

I guess I could have shortened this a lot by just saying, probably the biggest reason to step back is because I just wanna live life! Go do some things. Go to some shows, shoot some guns hahahahaha!

Whatever there is to do.

Just live.

Anyway, if you have any questions or whatever just comment me.

I'm getting off here.

Love you all!