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Name: angel
Country: Canada
Metro: Toronto
Birthday: 6/17/1983
Gender: Female


Interests: im so obbsesed with food and how much of it i put in my mouth that i dont have room in my tinny brain for much else
Expertise: eating. and pretending that everything is ok.


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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

117.5

Im about to break up with my boyfriend, turns out, im not broken, i do want  sex just not with him.

I love him, so much, but its just not there anymore.

Intake

B - Croissant + Coffee

L - Fruit

S- Coffee

D- 2 Shredded wheat

 

all together bout 800 - 900


Sunday, July 06, 2008

???

Dont know my weight this morning i wasn't at home to weigh in.

Im doing alright except i had pizza last night for dinner.

Yesterday intake

B - Coffee (30) Granola bar (110) - 140

S-na

L- Salad 200

S - Coffee 80

D - Pizza 3 pieces 600??

(it was thin wholegrain crust small pizza so i really don't think its that much but im guessing over just in case)

1120

Fuckin crap bags! Lets not count the 2 smirnoff i had

OMG OMG OMG!

K so me and my bf had a huge talk yesterday, i admitted finally to him hat i am not attracted to him anymore.

I know that sounds bad but honestly his so skinny and he looks so young. But he is so so so good looking, his eyes make me melt, they could make anyone melt. (hes great in bed, and hes definitely not small down there)

I love him so much, i just feel so guilty about it. And he is the epitome of wht every girl/ woman would want from a guy. Hes sweet hes so caring and compassionate and amazing with kids (i don't want kids) he would walk the world for me, i am so so blessed to have him in my life. But i just don't deserve him, he should be with someone who wants to have sex a least once in a while. not only am i not attracted to him but i have no desire to have sex at all, he could be jake Gillinhal and still nada! there is seriously something wrong with me. i cant remember the last time i was actually physically horny (sorry to be so blunt)

I don't know what to do, i love him so much i want more than anything for him to be happy, and im allays so low cause im so fat and i don't want kids and im not attracted to him, he should be with someone who would worship him! hes so wonderful. But i just don't know if i would be ok if i left him, but i feel like i should, i feel like im being so selfish for satying with him when i cant give him anything he deserves.

What do i do???

Its honestly killing me inside.

Crap sorry for the novel.

Intake today

B - na

S - 2 pieces caramilk 52

L - coffee (50) + salad (150) 200

S - cheese (150) + coffee (30) 170

D ? probly sushi

Thanks for the comments!

Hope you all had a good weekend!

 

P.S.

I am obsessed with Audrina from the hills, she has the perfect body!

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Saturday, July 05, 2008

118.5

  I actually kinda had a drunken binge last night but i took 4 asodopholis before bed and took care o that.

If you gals dont know about asodopholis and are still using laxies!

Drop the laxies immediately!

Go to your local pharmacy, ask for asodopholis(spelling could be wrong)

Start using it!

What is asodopholis you ask, well it is active bacterial culture, its whats in yogurt milk etc, it supports the digestive system. So when i couldn't crap for three weeks and even a colonic didn't work. Asodopholis did!

and this is no laxi effect either, you'll take one nice normal (large) po. It feels wonderful! and we all know that sometimes its just not gonna happen without a laxi, but this is no more this is a healthy way to get things moving, and it dosent matter where you have to go the next day/morning cause like i said there is no laxi effect, just one nice easy (quiet) normal(i cant stress this enough) poo. It is a feeling that i had not had in a very long time, it really is lovely.

i know i sound crazy here but i have made two other people try this and they are amazed as i was! it really is just wonderful.

(take 3 before bed and the next morning, tada!) (or for a first time user former laxi abuser, you may need to take them two nights in a row and then youll have action on the third morning)

Please ladies try it! Youl love me i promise!

Anywhoo!

Ive turned a new leaf, i am truly sick of being fat! so im not going to be anymore, no matter what it takes, iknow i may fuck up now and again, i am still human, but i am not going to lt that throw me off coarse, i need to be thin iand i want to finally be petite and crazy thin!

Thin The girl on the right, this is the perfect size! i want to be her size. I will not stop until i am.

hip these are the perfect hips, i want these hips!

thighs and i will have these thighs! tiny tiny thighs.

I will be thin.

Stay strong girls thank you so much for your support i really really need it.

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This was me last summer, i was close, i was on my way, and i ruined it. so my first goal, is this!


Thursday, July 03, 2008

119.0

Well i had the courage to weigh myself this morning, and it wasn't as bad as i thought. But its still way to high.

MY GW is still 110

But first i need to reach 115

so GW1 115.0

my highest weight was 125, but i feel like im the fattest ever been, i feel so fat and flubby. and i have dimples on my ass! yes dimples on my ass! i have to get into shape, i want so badly to be petite, thin, skinny!

And i will get there i have to, i have to.

Intake

B - apple 50

s - Apple 50

L - granola bar (110) + coffee (130) 240

S - carrots + Apple 100

D - jenny lasagna 250

S - jenny cheese cake 150

Total

840

i want to stay under 1000 a day 1000 is my max, i must not exceed it.

and starting Monday i hope to get to the gym min 4 times a week to do 50min on the elliptical, which burns 600cal at least. and days that i cant make it ill wake up early and ether run do pylaties or 20 min on my home elliptical.

i cant be fat anymore i just cant. Im so fat right now. But i wont be.


Wednesday, July 02, 2008

120 - 125 ???

Jenny craig  made me fat and constipated.

I was on jenny for three weeks i gained like 5lbs and i ddint crap for three weeks, i had to get a colonic and it di didnt work nothin worked i tried everything, finally i was told about asodofolis and things started movin but now thats not working anymore!

Jenny fuked me up!

 

so here i am again.

Faty faty faty

In

B- na

s- apple   50

l -fruit    100

s - carrots (50) + yogurt (50)  100

d - pasta 280

s - (plan - jenny chese cake (i still have so much jenny food so i eat it once in a while)) 150

total  730

Out

na

Please help me ladies, im so fat, i need serious support and encouragement.

and advice : I have no desire to have sex at all, it has been a month and a half since me and my bf have had sex, i just cant do it, im too fat, and everything about sex just turnes me off and freaks me out right now!

Please help, any sugestions????????

 



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