I have a new home now over at opendiary. I don't think anyone reads this, but just in case there's some soul out there who for whatever reason has been reading my babblings and wants to keep doing so, I am now at  http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=A494653

So there ya go. Good night.

Soapbox time.

I did a bit more of my abortion research today. As probably is fairly obvious, I am completely pro-choice and I like to check out pro-choice sites to see if there's anything I can do to help or learn about. Today, I read several stories, at http://www.prochoice.org from women had had abortions.

These women were not "bad" women. These women were not just randomly having abortions because they were too lazy to have a baby. The decision to have an abortion was a difficult and painful one to make; but ultimately it was the best decision for the health and well-being of the mother.

I just cannot believe that anyone thinks they have the right to impose their religious and moral beliefs on someone else's body.

I have had first-hand experiences with pregnancy scares; there is no way a man could even begin to comprehend that feeling of terror. So,yes, I do have a problem with men who are  rabid "pro-life" activists, and I don't care what their reason is. You will never be pregnant. You will never experience the same feelings at an unplanned and/or unwanted pregnancy. If men could get pregnant, abortion would be legal.

And you people who harass women at abortion clinics. You make me physically ill. As if the women who are contemplating having an abortion aren't feeling bad enough already. It is sick, sad people who stand outside a medical office and taunt, harass, and condemn women they have never met and know nothing about.

Spare me your "murder" lectures, and I'll spare you my lectures on how it is wrong for people who espouse Christian values to harass, intimidate, judge, condemn, and in many cases do physical violence to other people. Maybe if there were more sex education in schools and more open, honest discussion about sex in families, schools, communities, and society, there would be less need for abortions.

You only want to teach abstinence; teens have sex anyway, and many of them end up pregnant. And you wonder why. Take a look in the mirror.

I have been thinking. Shut up, I know what you're going to say.

There's something vaguely wrong with me, but I'm not sure what. I just don't feel quite right. Maybe it's the nasty drizzly weather today.

It's so weird that Michael and I are friends. We're so radically different that we shouldn't even like each other; I'm going to miss him when he moves. There's just something so cool about him being right there, it's comforting. I dig hanging out with him.

I had more I wanted to say but I don't remember now. I talk to myself in my head all the time (yeah, so sometimes not *just* in my head.) 

I love my daddy.

Bought some more stuff today. Tried to find a ticketmaster to get Joey Mac tickets, but was thwarted because West Michigan is a haven of nothing.

Today was a good day. Bought the new N Sync CD, hung out with Michael a bit, drove his car, did a little shopping.

I feel good about myself again. My self esteem has fluctuations. Probably most people's does.

It doesn't matter what he thinks of me; it matters what I think of myself. I have to live with myself, he doesn't.

I can live with myself. At the end of the day, that's something.

Lynsey and Elaina rock.

Today was a scary day.

It's better now mostly. Thank God for that. I don't know what I'd have done otherwise. My relief is nearly pathetic.

Other than that-realized living by myself sucks and I'm glad my roommate will be home next weekend. I've been bugging my boss 24/7 just to have someone to talk to. I went to Meijer twice today just to be around people.

Don't know about the new guy. He's cute. I have learned my lessons, though, and I'm not expecting anything really. I like him, and we'll just slowly go from there. He is kind of old.