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Friday, July 27, 2007

well.
today.
is.
officially.
my .
last.
day.
being.

14.

i'm never really excited about my birthday.
cause nothing usually happen.
and i really dont mind.
but this time.
i think im kind of scared.
like, nervous.
i dont know.
but passing 14 seems like a really huge deal for me.
i seriously have no idea why.
but......
i really just dont wanna grow up.
i really dont.
it may sound kinda weird.
but i really dont mind just staying this age forever.
cause i know its only gonna get harder from here.
nothing is ever going to get any easier.
gotta worry about keeping up my grades for the rest of highschool.
so i'll get into a good college.
then work hard in college.
so i can get a good job.
and then it'll get worse from there.
no winter break or summer break to look for.
probably only retirement.
which will be like another 24092382 years later..
and then finally retire.
and probably start worring about kids.
and grandkids.
and then........
well i guess it kinda ends somewhere there.
and everything is going to get soooo much more complicated
nothing is going to get any easier.
and to me..
passing 14 is huge.
probably because in someplace where you buy admission tickets.
14 still counts as kid price.
if only neverland was real.
but it cant be.
cause these kind of stuff only happen in fairytales.

so i guess theres no running away from it.
i'll just have to face growing old.

lastly.
i just want to concecrate my last 3 years of highschool to the Lord.
before everything i do.
and before every decsion i make.
i wish that i can remeber to ask Him.
and that i will never loose His presence.
and be drawn off by other things.
i hope that i can grow in Him more.
and express Him in everything i do.
no matter what happens.
let it be His desire and not from my own self.
and i pray that He'll give me more courage.
that i'll never be afraid.
and that these next few years will not be wasted.
but that i'll gain Him more and more each day.

(: F.LiN

Thursday, July 26, 2007

super late end of the year post.....

ya
so im like one whole month late
but its ok.
this year just went by crazy fast
its unbeleivable
i guess part of the reason is that half the time it was literally a rush
when i had to take the bus back and forth each day from school.
for like an hour-_-
so i the morning i would wake up at like 5:30
then get ready in like 25 min.
parents would drive me and my bro to the bus stop
which is like 15 minutes away.
and the whole time going there i would be worring that we would miss the bus
then get on the bus
and sleep!!! hehehe....
then get off the bus and walk across the street
to the other bus stop
hoping that the 30 hadnt arrived yet
then finally get to school...
afterschool. i would run to the bus stop and catch the bus
then get off at some stop
and walk across the street to another bus stop
then wait forever for the bus.
and then back to sleep!
then after like 1 and a half hour of traffic.
im finally back in taipei
then if my mom dosent come pick me up,
i'll have to walk like 15min. to the mrt station.
then i would start worriing that we'd miss the free shuttle bus that takes us home from the mrt station
cause it only comes every 20min.
then finally get on the shuttle bus
and arrive home between 6:30-7
so those were the good ol days
even though it was super tiring
i kind of miss those days....
i dont know why.
i just do
so in the beginning of the year..
i just kept picking out the bad parts of this school.
in a way they're still bad...
but if i dont really think about it ...
its actually ok.
through all these years of moving,
i noticed one thing about going to new schools
when your like my age
its better to go to a new school with not that much peoples
then its easier to meet new people.
and you wouldnt have to worry about not knowing whose going to be in your class next period
cause its just going to be the same people thats in the current class.
if went to school huge highschool
where people go to absolutely different classes each period
with like absolutely different students
... well i probably would've died...
literally.
so. in a way, im pretty glad i went to nehs
i mean, there still are times when i hate that place
but i dont think theres much more i can ask for.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

so i found out something very scary yesterday...
i just dont get it...
why do people do that???
there are other ways...
they dont have to choose to do that...
it just hurts me knowing that i have friends doing those things to themselves...
i just really cant believe...
seriously.
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